Y/N’s POV
I take off into a sprint down the beach to get farther away from the villa and quickly make my way toward the shore. I aggressively pull off my clothes before heading into the water and I swim as far out into the water as I can get. When I reach a good enough distance I dive down into the water and hold my breath for as long as I can before resurfacing.
God, I should’ve punched that fucking idiot right in his stupid smug face. He has some audacity to be looking that smug and then patting his legs like a fucking creep. I can’t believe that I had to watch Wanda kiss that idiot! And then Tony’s dumbass just had to fucking dare her to kiss him in the first place! I think to myself as I float in the water for a few seconds before huffing in frustration. Then I decide it would be a good idea to swim laps in the water for a while.
The water has always been my safe space to clear my head when I get too heated, so this is a very welcomed escape from what just happened. I spend a while in the water hoping that I could clear my head. However, it seems like the more that I try to clear my mind the more that I can’t seem to shake off this awful feeling in my chest. I finally stop after the burning sensation in my arms gets to be too much. I look up into the sky only to realize that the sun is finally beginning to set and realize that I must have been out here for a few hours now.
I watch the sun get a bit lower into the sky before sighing and deciding that I should probably get out of the water before it gets too late. With a heavy sigh, I finally turn to head towards the shore. As I get closer to the shoreline, I see the silhouette of a person and somewhere deep down I hope that it is Wanda. But on the other hand, I also hope it’s not her because I’m not sure I’m ready to face her again quite yet. Once I’m close enough I look up at their face and sigh in relief when I see Carol standing there with a small smile and a towel in hand.
I try to squeeze as much of the water out of my hair as soon as I reach the beach. I look up when I see Carol approaching me before she hands me the towel so that I can dry off. I smile gratefully at her and dry off as best as possible before walking over to my clothes. I put them back on over my swimming clothes before walking over and sitting on one of the nearby beach chairs and looking back at the sky.
Carol quietly follows after me and sits in the chair next to me and is silent for a moment before looking at me. “Are you okay?” I take a moment to think about how I should respond and sigh softly before glancing over at her. “No not really, I just had to watch Wanda kiss Tony’s idiot brother. And I guess that I just needed a minute to myself you know.” I look away from her and look back out into the sky to continue watching as the sun sets and she asks, “Well why did the kiss bother you so much?”
I am caught off guard by her question and quickly snap my head to look back over at her before looking down at my hands. I begin to nervously fiddle with my fingers. Why did the kiss bother me so much? When I really think about it, I know the answer to that question. I know I do, but it makes things so complicated if I admit it out loud. I look back over at her to see a gentle smile on her face and sigh heavily. “Do you want to hear the truth or what I should be saying instead?”
She chuckles softly and shakes her head at me in amusement causing a small smile to grow on my face as well. “You can tell me whatever you want to tell me. I’m not going to force you to be honest with me if you really don’t want to, but I also want you to be honest with yourself for your own well-being.” She shrugs her shoulders and simply smiles at me. I think over what she has just told me and remain silent for a few moments to gather my thoughts.
“It bothered me so much for a lot of different reasons if I’m honest. I didn’t like how smug both Tony and Vision looked when Wanda got her dare. It bothered me that Wanda had to do a dare like that at all. It bothered me that she had to kiss him out of all people. It bothered me that I don’t know how she felt about it and it bothers me that I don’t know how she feels in general.” Carol nods her head at me as she listens to me rant about all the reasons why the kiss between Wanda and Vision bothered me so much.
“It sounds like it was a really hard thing to watch. I’m sorry that you had to go through something like that. Can I ask you another question though?” I nod my head at her as I pull my legs toward my chest and rest my head on my knees to continue looking at her. “Well, I guess it’s two questions really, but why does it matter if she kisses Vision? And what do you mean when you say that you don’t know how she feels?” She tilts her head inquisitively as she awaits my response and I take a moment to think of how to explain myself.
“Well, Vision has flirted with Wanda for as long as I can remember. I know that he likes her, but I don’t know if she likes him back. I just… I just don’t like him for her. Wanda deserves the absolute world and I just know that he can’t give that to her.” Carol sends me a soft smile and has a mischievous look in her eye that makes me feel nervous. “Y/N what are you trying to say? You’re just beating around the bush.”
I look away from her as I feel my cheeks tinge pink and I huff quietly before deciding to just finally be honest. “I’ve liked Wanda for as long as I can remember. I know that I have no right to get jealous because I’m just her friend, but I can’t help but be jealous of Vision. He got to kiss the girl of my dreams. A girl that he just so happens to like as well. And I just hate that I don’t know how she feels because for all I know she liked the kiss, and she might actually like him back!”
I pause for a second before continuing, “I’m just scared to lose her. If I tell her how I feel and she doesn’t feel the same then I’ll lose her…but on the other hand, if I don’t say anything then Vision gets his chance and I’ll lose her anyways. I just don’t want to lose her, but it seems like no matter what I do I’m gonna lose her regardless.” I watch as the sun slowly begins to disappear further and further away before I finally hear Carol say, “I know you’re scared, but for what it’s worth I think you should just go for it and tell her how you feel about her.”
I shake my head softly as I look at her before quietly saying, “But what if I lose her Carol? I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if I lost her. I’d rather say nothing and have her in my life as a friend than risk it only to lose her and not have her in my life at all.” Carol looks away from me towards the sky for a moment before smiling and saying “I know you’re scared, but if you don’t tell her then you’ll always wonder what could’ve happened. Also, I have a good feeling that she might feel the same way.” I remain quiet and take in what she just said and look back at the sky. I look over just in time to see the sun finally set before sighing softly and feeling much more determined.
I look back at Carol and see her already looking at me and I shoot her a grateful smile as I say, “Thanks Carol, I appreciate you being here for me.” She smiles softly at me and joins me as I stand from my chair. Her smile morphs into a cheeky grin as she playfully begins to push me toward the villa, “Alright come on it’s time for you to finally go get your girl.” I laugh loudly at her statement before nodding my head at her as we finally walk back to the villa. Once inside, I go to look for Wanda, but stop when I hear voices coming from the living room.
I decided to check and see if she was there and stop at the doorway as I look around. Once I see she isn’t there I turn around to leave only to be stopped by a voice. “Oh, I will absolutely have Wanda in my bed by the end of this vacation,” I hear Vision say in a smug voice before laughing and I suddenly feel as if my body has been lit on fire. I storm up to him and grip him by his collar of his shirt before pulling him to stand.
Everyone goes completely silent, and Vision seems to be entirely caught off guard as I get directly in his face while seething. “Don’t you ever speak about Wanda like that again do you hear me!” After a moment he seems to gather his bearings and smirks at me. He seems to have realized that I’ve heard what he said about Wanda and says, “And what are you going to do about it?” His answer does nothing but further fuel the anger I am feeling. Before he has time to react, I send my fist flying toward his face at full force. I hear a sickening crack as I watch him stumble back from the force.
I breathe heavily in anger as I watch him grimace in pain and wipe the blood from under his nose before glaring at me. He attempts to return the punch which I dodge by ducking before I tackle him to the ground. I vaguely hear the other boys shouting for us to stop as I land blow after blow onto Vision’s face. He manages to successfully knock me off of him and begins to hit me in return. We scuffle for a bit, and I manage to land one last punch before I am pulled away from him. I am being held by Bucky and Pietro who must have come down after hearing all the commotion.
I yank myself out of their grip and go to lunge at Vision again but stop after hearing someone shout. “What the hell is going on here?!” I look over and notice that all of the girls are now standing in the room. I look around to see them all looking very surprised and confused by what is going on. I finally look over to see Wanda who is standing in the middle. I hold her gaze for a few moments before looking away from her. I manage to get my breathing under control and mutter out a quiet “nothing” before walking past all of them. I walk out of the living room and begin heading toward my room. Well, this has shaped up to just be an awesome day, hasn’t it?
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