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The sea wasn’t that far, maybe a two-hour ride, but Edwin, being drunk as fuck, fell asleep after around 50 minutes of constantly looking out all excitedly like it was his first time seeing everything. He would squeak and show Aiden every pet or every cute kid he’d see while they were waiting for the light to turn green and Aiden would just coo over whatever the younger was pointing at. He couldn’t help but laugh at how silly the ‘doctor’ was acting. Not that he was complaining or anything. He loved it. He loved it all wholeheartedly. His camera roll certainly did as well!
Seeing on the navigator that they were rather close to the beach, he pulled up at a pharmacy. Looking over at a sleeping Edwin, he pulled the jacket he had thrown over him after he fell asleep a little higher, and went out of the car, locking it just in case. He quickly bought some stuff that would help with the hangover and some painkillers and got back to the car.
They arrived a mere 10 minutes later and Aiden drove all the way to the shore, parking the car near the giant rocks. It was 12:40 AM, and it was rather dark, only a few streetlights lighting their surroundings. He looked over at Edwin. He was sleeping so peacefully and he didn’t want to wake him up, knowing he would have a headache and would probably even throw up all he had drunk. But he had to cos the other really wanted to see the sea at the calmness of the night. That was what he told him on their way there.
Getting out of the car and going around it, he opened the passenger’s door and bent down so he could be able to unfasten the belt. Clicking it open, he let it go to the side carefully. Aiden couldn’t help but appreciate the sight of a beautifully asleep Edwin with blue hair for a while. He loved the natural black hair on him too, back at the hospital, but this color- Damn, this color looked good on him. Finally, he gathered his senses and put his right hand gently on the other’s cheek. Caressing it lovingly and enjoying the difference in their skin tone, he called the younger’s name. But he wasn’t surprised when the other didn’t show any reaction. A drunk Edwin was the hardest Edwin to awaken.
“Edwin.” He whispered, still caressing his thumb on the sleeping beauty’s cheek.
“Eddie~”
“Bluewin~ wake up. Didn’t you wanna see the beach?”
Nothing. There was no reaction whatsoever. Which left him with one option. Well, he had two options, but he didn’t want to startle the boy, so he chose the smoother one. He leaned in and pulled the cute curvy ear of Edwin into his mouth, biting on it gently. The other shifted a bit and whimpered, but still didn’t wake up. Aiden bit again while he added sucking and licking as well. Edwin’s ears were quite sensitive, so this was the only civilized way to wake him up at the moment. A few nibbles on the earlobe later, the younger slowly opened his eyes.
“What are you doing? Let me sleep.” He whined, trying to push the older’s face away from his abused ear.
Aiden let go of the now red, sensitive part but didn’t move back. Instead, he kept close to his ear and whispered, “The sea awaits, my prince.”
Edwin’s eyes flashed open as he felt his face heat up at the new nickname. ‘Prince’? Did Aiden just call him prince? ‘My’ prince?!
He cleared his throat and pushed Aiden away, using a bit more strength compared to his last failed attempt. The older leaned back and looked into his eyes, a genuine smile on his face.
“We’re at the beach just like you wanted. But if you’re really tired now, we can go to a hotel and come again tomorrow. It’s up to you.” He said and took the younger’s hands in his, squeezing them before rolling his sleeve up for no reason. Suddenly Edwin understood why the singer did that and moved his hand away from him.
“I told you it doesn’t hurt anymore. It’s not like you cut me or something.” He realized that his tone was a bit harsh, nothing like the reassuring one he had attempted to have. He immediately opened his mouth to apologize, but Aiden was quicker as he grabbed the hand again and placed the hundredth kiss of the night on his wrist.
“I know. It’s just, I can’t stop feeling guilty about it. Doesn’t matter that it’s okay now. I hurt you and it’s still red. I’m so sorry.”
Edwin frowned. His head was killing him and he really felt like he was going to throw up at any second, but what bothered him the most was the man’s behavior at the moment. It was not okay to feel that amount of guilt for a mere thing like this. He had seen this behavior before in the older. Seeing how the other felt guilty about things that were long in the past or weren’t even that big a deal, letting them eat him up from the inside nonstop. And right now, he was just kneeling there by the passenger’s seat, staring at the wrist in his hands quietly. Edwin cursed his skin for how fucking delicate and sensitive it was. Why couldn’t he have one of those types of skins that would never even get a hickey that easily? Why must his skin get this irritated by a simple grip?! But then again, Aiden had always loved the marks he left on him, so maybe it was a good thing to have this kind of skin? He groaned loudly and grabbed the older’s hand.
“Didn’t you say the sea awaits? Well, the prince doesn’t want to make it wait any longer. Let’s go.” He let his sassy side take over and got out of the car, making Aiden stand up as well. Boy was he wrong thinking he would be okay after taking that many shots! His head was throbbing violently, and he even got dizzy, only able to stand straight because Aiden was quick to grab him. The older helped him sit on one of the rocks before going to the car and coming back with a paper packet and a bottle of water in his hand.
“Here, I got stuff for hangover and painkiller. Take what you think helps you the best.”
Edwin eyed the many bottles and pills in the packet and looked up at the black-haired man standing in front of him, looking a bit worried.
“When did you get these, and why did you get this much? How many people were you gonna help pull through a hangover?” He teased as he took a bottle out and tried to open it, but to no avail. He had no strength whatsoever.
Aiden sighed, took the bottle, and opened it before putting it on the younger’s lips.
It was Edwin’s turn to sigh as he took back the bottle, “I’m not a kid, Aiden. I can drink it myself.” Damn, why was he being so harsh, unlike the usual? The older just hummed and left him there as he started walking closer to the water quietly.
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(Flashback)
Edwin woke up first. It was no surprise at this point that they had both fallen asleep during a movie. He looked over at the black-haired muscular man and couldn’t help the smile that formed on his face. He looked at his phone. He had a few messages from Chad and Lucas. He decided to open Chad’s first.
‘Hi Edwin. It’s been almost a week already. I can’t make the others fill your shifts anymore. Time for you to make up your mind. Whatever you decide, know that I will respect your decision. You have till tomorrow night.’
He knew eventually he had to finally face it. The reality that he no longer liked his job. He didn’t have any reason to do it anymore. He’d always done it for one goal and one goal only: to treat his sister. But now he had nothing that could make him happy about doing what he did. Sure, it felt nice helping others get better and all that buzz, but he was never the ‘doctor’ type of person, although he had got quite accustomed to the role.
He felt helpless and decided he needed some fresh air. He didn’t even try to wake the other up. Because, 1. he wanted some alone time to think, and 2. he was finally sleeping and he didn’t want to interrupt it. Aiden had problems falling asleep unless he was dead tired and couldn’t really help but pass out, and at the times he did, it was rather most likely that he would have nightmares. So he was quite sleep-deprived. One thing they had NOT noticed at the time of his stay at the hospital cos they were giving him too many pills with sleeping effects that would make the other almost unconscious at times.
Grabbing a jacket, his wallet and phone, he quietly tip-toed his way to the front door and opened it carefully not to make any noise. Again, the other was a very light sleeper. It seemed as if everything was against him sleeping!
He walked and walked while thinking, and he found himself across from a bar with a shiny board. He decided it wouldn’t kill to let the alcohol take the matters in hand for once. Maybe it would help him realize what he really wanted to do. What he didn’t predict was Aiden’s friends showing up in the middle of his drunken-decision-making process. He was already shots in when they arrived and scared away a very clingy, flirty giant that was trying to get into Edwin’s pants. One which, thank god, no one told Aiden about.
Finn had been the first one to approach them and asked the guy to let go of Edwin. The giant trolled Finn because of his height and body size, which made Brad take a step in and stand face to face with the douchebag, grabbing his collar and actually ‘making’ him let go of Edwin. Ian was the next one to push the man away while Joe grabbed his waist to calm him down. Ian, apparently, could be extra, no matter the situation. Max did nothing in particular, but stood next to Edwin, putting a hand on his shoulder. He kinda felt thankful and relieved upon them doing that cos comparing his body size to the other man’s and how demanding he was, he would have no strength to fight him if he decided to go all Hercules on him, which he thought the man was quite close to doing.
“Thank you.” He simply said before emptying his shot again.
“Woahwoah, take it slow, man! What’s wrong?” Max said, taking the now re-filled shot away from him.
Edwin yanked it out of his hand and emptied it again, shrugging in response.
“Are you okay, blue? Is Aiden here?” Brad asked.
Edwin smiled. “Blue? Aiden calls me that all the time. Actually, no. He calls me bluewin. I kinda like it.” He took a deep breath after his blabbering. “He’s at his apartment.” He said, still not looking at any of them and only staring at the liquid in his hand.
The boys all exchanged a look between them. “I’ll call him.” Finn said and took his phone out.
Ian took Finn’s place at his side and sat down next to him. He propped his elbow on the bar and placed his head on his palm, looking at him. He eyed Edwin’s neck and the part of his chest that he could see through the neck cut, the trails of hickeys available on his skin.
“Are you okay, Edwin? Is he too rough on you? These hickeys look pretty nasty.” He touched the younger’s neck, where a very deep purplish red one was. Edwin flinched a bit at the touch, but relaxed the next second.
“I got no problem with that. Besides, you can just poke me and it’ll turn red, so it’s not like he went as rough as it seems. He’s actually quite careful most of the time. This is from the one time he lost his composure and it’s quite new, so…” Edwin had no idea what he was talking about and why he was saying these things to Aiden’s ex-boyfriend. The ex that he was kind of sure Aiden still felt something for.
“Why are you here alone, though? Did you two have a fight because of him having to leave or something?” Joe said and earned himself a death glare from both Max and Ian while Edwin looked at him for the first time, confused.
“What do you mean he has to leave? Where? For how long? Why didn’t he tell me about this?” He felt his blood boil more and more by the second.
It was at that moment Joe knew he had fucked up and had spilled the tea. Clearing his throat nervously, he looked at Brad for some sort of help. The other only shook his head, disappointed, and leaned on the bar, crossing his arms.
Joe shifted on his legs a bit before talking. “Well, we kind of got along with the CEO and now the schedules are resumed, and Denny, he’s going to Thailand for a week in two days. Actually, one day, cos it’s almost the end of today.”
“When did this happen?” Edwin asked with a poker face.
Joe looked hesitant. “Uh… today?!”
“It’s when I came by in the morning. The guys were apparently called to the company at that time.” Ian explained to him and Joe looked at him questionably, raising an eyebrow. “What? I went to punch some senses into him for ignoring you.” He defended himself and Joe groaned into his palms.
“I told you to leave him be, Ian!” He whined and Edwin turned back to his drink, shutting down the voices of the boyfriends bickering, and the loud music, and everything else along with it. Only focusing on the liquid and the thought of Aiden leaving, and him having to decide if he wanted to quit the hospital. The frustration was eating him up as he gave up on drinking after a million shots and went to the dance floor.
Dancing and minding his own business with his eyes closed, he felt a pair of hands touching him. He was too out of it to even care, so he just let it be for now. Maybe he would do something about it later if the hands went places they shouldn’t. And then it was sudden. A hand grabbed his wrist and pulled him away full force. He opened his eyes to see Aiden, and all of his anger melted away just to be replaced by the worry that he would actually kill the other guy by his scary gaze if he kept shooting those glares at him for much longer. And then he went into the denial phase, deciding to go to the beach with Aiden now that he still had the chance of having the older next to him.
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With the effect of alcohol wearing off, he couldn’t help but feel anger rising up again. Sure, they never said they were a thing, but he was sure as fuck entitled to know this news. They were close to each other so many times and had shared so many moments that he was sure he was right to feel betrayed and ignored at the moment.
Everyone else knew but him. Just like when the CEO had changed and everything. Emptying the bottle of medicine, he put it back in the packet and left the whole thing by the rock before standing up and going after Aiden, who didn’t seem to want to stop walking in the water. He made his steps faster as he saw the water had now reached the waist of the older, which made him actually panic. He struggled to run the few more steps before making the man turn around rather harshly. Edwin put both hands on the muscular shoulders, squeezing a bit.
“What the fuck are you doing? Do you wanna die?” He yelled with a serious face.
The older seemed shocked when he looked into his eyes and back at the sea that seemed to go on forever. “No! I know how to swim and I was about to stop when you went all psycho on me.” He pushed Edwin’s hands away. “I’m not suicidal, doctor. No need to panic.” He said before lying on the surface of the water.
Edwin looked down at him, rather irritated. “Don’t ‘doctor’ me now, Aiden. Am I only entitled to worry about you if I’m your doctor? Can’t I be just Edwin and still worry? Or do we always need some kind of title for that? Is that why you haven’t told me about you leaving in a day as well? Cause we don’t have any kind of title that attaches us together anymore?”
Aiden opened his eyes and looked up at Edwin silently.
“Well? I want answers! Am I just someone you’re passing your time with while you’re trying to get over your ex? Some guy that has blue hair that you’re so dearly attracted to? What if I changed it? What if I shaved it all? Would you still act the same way? Do I even fill into the category of people you call your friends? Because all your friends always know stuff, and I’m always finding things out through them. You just don’t care to tell me things, do you? Like how you never opened up, no matter how hard I tried.”
Aiden just kept looking at him silently, floating on the surface as Edwin yelled everything out of his chest. When he was sure the younger was done, he stood up and hugged Edwin in a warm and tight embrace. It was always calming the way he had hugged him, slow and intimate. Edwin didn’t hug back, though. He was tired, sleepy, hungover, and he needed answers. Now.
Aiden started to talk into the hug. “You can be just Edwin all the time, cos that’s the person I like the most in this world. I’m sorry I said it like that. I don’t need any titles to be with you. I just want to have you near me. I wanted to tell you when I came back, but you started teasing and then the food arrived and by the time we had finished eating, I was all caught up in the fear of you leaving me if you learned I was starting schedules again. I don’t need titles, Edwin. I just like us like this. Close and calm. I’ve never felt the way you make me feel with anyone. Not even Ian. You’re a gift to me from whoever is in charge of this world. You’re the main reason I’m able to function right now. I’m standing here clean of drugs because of the promise I made to you. I’m over Ian. I’ve been over him for a long time now. I still have nightmares about the accident and feel guilty about it, but I don’t feel anything romantic toward him anymore. There’s only you. You’re the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I drift off to sleep. And I love the blue hair because it’s on you. Any other guy could have it, and I wouldn’t care the slightest. You could shave it all and I’d still love you. I’m just scared you would leave because my lifestyle is crazy. I’ve been struggling with this for a long time now. I can’t ask you to stay because it would be so selfish of me to put you in such a hard situation and I’d never be able to get rid of the guilt. The fact that you could be with someone who could be by your side instead, and then I think of letting you go and it hurts so much I can’t even think about it for more than two seconds. I can’t think of letting you go, Edwin.” His arms tightened around Edwin’s body as he buried his head deeper in the crook of his neck.
Edwin’s heart was beating a million beats at a second. “Y-you… you love me?!” He stuttered.
Aiden loosened his grip and leaned back just enough to be able to look the taller in the eye.
“You said I could shave my hair, and you’d still love me…!” Edwin said, not believing his ears.
Aiden blushed a bit and looked away. He grabbed a fistful of Edwin’s jacket at his back and looked back into the younger’s eyes. “I love you, Edwin. So much. You can’t even imagine for how long I’ve been wanting to tell you, but I didn’t wanna be selfish. I wanted to give you the chance to run away from me.”
Edwin’s eyes started tearing up as he pulled Aiden flush against his body tightly, resting his head on his shoulder. “I love you too! Please don’t let go. I won’t be able to breathe without you.” He felt how a hand went through the strands of his hair and started stroking slowly.
“I won’t be able to let go even if I tried to, and believe me, I did my best to do so. Forgive me for being a selfish bastard, Edwin, but I’m gonna keep you for myself. Please don’t leave me. Talk to me when it gets hard so I can know the problem and fix it. Don’t let it pile up inside. I can’t deal with it if you ever left me. It’s been only a few months and I’m already deeply and insanely in love with you. I can’t lose you. Ever.”
Edwin felt Aiden’s voice shake as he gasped for air and his breathing pattern paced. He figured the older was crying. So he started doing the same, stroking his hair while his other hand drew soothing circles on his back.
“Shhh… It’s okay. I won’t ever leave you. We’ll make things work out. I promise. I love you so much, Aiden. Everything about you.” He pulled Aiden’s shoulders away from his body and made him look up by putting his index finger under the older’s chin. He was right. The man he loved so dearly was crying out of the fear of him leaving him one day.
He wiped the tears away. Leaning in slowly as he cupped Aiden’s face, he whispered against his lips, “I. Love. You.” And they shared the most passionate kiss in the world. There they stood, in the sea with water up to their waists under the moonlight in the middle of the night, confessing and enjoying the tender touch of the person they loved the most, wishing for this moment to last forever.Â
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