Falling | Mxm (Completed) Chapter 66

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Aiden threw the keys on the table as he let himself fall on the chair. He came to his studio after he left the apartment earlier, wanting to be alone as well.

He leaned back, making the chair go lower as he threw his arm on over his eyes and groaned. It was their first fight, and Aiden hated everything about it. He didn’t even know why he had become so angry in the first place.

He was so fucking worried about his lover and then, in a blink of an eye, he was as angry as he could be, although he had controlled it for the most part. He had heard a few times that he was scary when he became ‘really’ angry, and he didn’t want to be that kind of person toward Edwin. He had to change. Edwin deserved so much better than the treatment he had given him.

Thinking about their argument, he found every turn it took wrong. He should have turned around, run to the door, and hugged the younger instead of this mess. Now his boyfriend even thought he was some douchebag who wanted him to obey whatever he said and even questioned his infatuation with him, asking if he was anything to him at all. Suddenly he was feeling exhausted, so he just switched his place to the comfortable chair at the corner of the studio, lay down, and fell asleep surprisingly fast.

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Edwin stood there, processing everything. He couldn’t believe that Aiden had really walked out of the door. He was really going to just get a drink from the coffee shop across the building, have some fresh air and come back, fight or talk about it until they’d solved everything. But then, he could use some alcohol in him at that moment, and maybe Aiden was right in assuming he would end up in a bar. Either way, he was now standing in the middle of the living room, alone.

Turning around, he saw their two phones on the ground. Aiden’s phone was in one piece, but his own was broken into two, the battery nowhere to be found. He sighed as he started looking under the furniture for it. He should really buy a new one.

Finding it and standing up, his eyes went dark for a second because of the blood rush and he had to grab the closest thing not to fall down. Only that, it resulted in one of their photo frames falling down and its glass shattering. It was one of the photos Aiden had taken the day they had confessed to each other on the beach. Edwin suddenly missed the older to death. The desire to just run after him, hug him and never let go crawled under his skin. But he ignored it. They needed time apart to calm down and then talk things through when they weren’t as tense.

He picked up every last piece of the shattered glass carefully from the ground, and then vacuumed the whole living room, not wanting the smaller pieces to go unseen. Aiden tended to walk barefoot sometimes, and that would be dangerous.

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It was 3 AM when Aiden woke up due to some shuffling behind the door. Walking there and looking through the peephole, he saw the night guard. He ran his fingers through his hair to make it less messy before opening the door.

“Oh, hey Mr. Evans. I thought there was a thief in your studio.” The guard said, looking taken aback.

“Nah, just me. Why are you surprised? I’m always here.” He rubbed the back of his neck. He must have fallen asleep in an uncomfortable position.

“You haven’t been at this place as much as you used to be lately. You haven’t stayed overnight even once for like 6 months.”

Aiden blinked at him in confusion at the realization that he, in fact, had been spending most of his time at the studio he had at home instead of his professional place.

‘That’s the kind of power Edwin holds.’ He chuckled to himself.

“Thank you for being so careful. I really appreciate it. I’ll be staying here tonight, so no worries.” He patted the guard on the shoulder and smiled at him before saying goodbye.

As he turned around, he looked at the studio he used to spend his days and weeks in without the desire to go out. But there was something wrong. It felt really empty now. He still loved making music and singing and dancing, but… being alone there like that just didn’t feel right anymore. He felt like he was the only remaining person on the entire planet in the silence of the acoustic room.

His head got filled with words. A melody, too. A sad but beautiful one and he rushed to the desk, and grabbed a pen to write it all down. Maybe he could do what he was best at — making songs — and let Edwin know how he really felt about him through it.

He didn’t know what time it was, only that the sun was shining through the window after looking up when he finished and saved the file. He stretched his body and yawned. Standing up, he was about to go lie back down when he heard the bell ringing. He was so tired he didn’t even bother checking who it was first and just opened the door.

It was Edwin, his Edwin, standing there with his big eyes and parted lips. Before he could say anything, he was pushed inside and the door was closed with a loud bang behind the younger. Edwin was upset.

“Do you have any fucking idea how many places I have searched for you until it crossed my mind that you workaholic asshole would just be here??”

To say that Aiden was shocked was an understatement. He had told the other that he would come back tomorrow, so what was it all about?

“Why would you search for me? I told you I’d come back tomorrow. It’s still ‘tomorrow’.”

Edwin looked at him with narrowed eyes. “You have no idea what time it is, do you?”

Aiden raised his eyebrows and turned around to see the time on the screen. It was 5 PM. He had worked on the song for 14 hours straight without eating or anything. Now he knew why Edwin was that upset. He was supposed to go to the house in the morning. That was what he had intended to do.

Turning back to Edwin, he bit his bottom lip, as he couldn’t find any excuses.

“I’m sorry… I was working on this song and I completely lost track of time.” He didn’t know how much the other must have worried.

“You’re funny, you know? Going all berserk on me for not answering my phone and then leaving without having your phone with you in the first place.” The younger took his phone out of his pocket and placed it on the desk before looking at the screen. “Is the song at least worth the years that have been taken away from my lifespan cos of this mess?” He said in a much softer tone.

Aiden smiled and took Edwin’s hand in his, intertwining their fingers and looking into the younger’s eyes. He hummed.

“I made it for you. Like all the other songs I’ve been making recently. But this one, I think you’ll like it cos it was meant to deliver the things I can’t deliver while simply talking.”

Edwin’s body relaxed a bit at the touch as he listened to him thoroughly. “Play it then.”

“No, first, let’s talk.” He let go of the younger’s hand and walked to the comfortable chair, sitting on the edge of it and gesturing for Edwin to sit across from him. After Edwin sat down, he took a deep breath and started talking.

“Edwin, I’m sorry for snapping like that yesterday. I was worried to death and you not answering made the worst thoughts cross my mind. It didn’t matter that you were in your car, if someone wants to hurt you, they will find a way. Hugo found out about something that I didn’t wanna let you know, but since I’m being accused of being a douchebag, I’m gonna tell you.” Standing halfway and taking the phone off the desk, he sat back down and searched through the gallery. He found the picture he was looking for and gave his phone to Edwin.

“He is the maniac’s brother. Ever since the police have caught the guy who attacked you, his brother has been sending death threats of all sorts to me. He said if I don’t agree to take the charges back, he would hurt you. I was pretty much losing my mind over it until Hugo suggested to just keep you inside and double the security of the building. That’s why I’ve insisted on you not going out alone.”

Edwin looked at the picture and back at the older in shock with eyes as wide as they could get while biting on the corner of his lips with a deep frown.

“But- why didn’t you say anything?” His voice was hesitant, as he couldn’t understand why the older would rather come off like that instead of telling him the truth.

“You were pretty shaken as it was. I didn’t wanna make you more stressed out than you already were.” Aiden looked down at his hands, picking at the rough skin of his palms while answering.

Edwin pursed his lips and smiled a bit. He put the phone on the desk behind him as he leaned closer and took the older’s hands in his. “You don’t have to keep it all to yourself. We are in a relationship together. If you don’t wanna tell the guys, I’m not gonna force you, but with me, it should be different.”

As Aiden didn’t react, Edwin removed one of his hands from the older’s and cupped his face, making him look up. “I want you to talk to me. I wanna be the one you can rely on when you’re feeling down or stressed. Up to now, you’ve always hidden the ugly things from me. I don’t want you to do that anymore. I know, I understand that you do this to protect me but…” He paused, looking deep into his lover’s eyes that were looking back at him, looking so pure and innocent. “But I’m not really as fragile as you think. I can take it. So please just share what you need to share, even the things you don’t feel the need to. I love to hear it all, to know it all. I hated that stupid fight we had yesterday.” He winced remembering it, and tightened his hand around the older’s. The man smiled and rubbed the skin of his knuckles with his thumb as he mumbled ‘me too.’

“Look, the thing is—” He caressed Aiden’s cheek with his thumb shortly before removing his hand and standing up. Aiden followed his every movement with his eyes as he closed the small distance and crawled over the older’s lap, placing his legs on either side of his thighs. Aiden was surprised at the act and grabbed Edwin’s slim waist as he leaned back further on the chair for Edwin to have more space and be more comfortable on his lap.

“The thing is—” Edwin brushed the black bangs away from the older’s eyes as he continued talking. “I’m a very jealous boyfriend. I don’t like you constantly texting other people. Especially when they are as sweet and pretty as Mia… or Patrick.”

Aiden grinned at the mention of the two people. “Are you sure you’re not the one finding them attractive instead of me?” Aiden teased the boy on his lap as he pulled the thin limbs closer to his body, caressing up and down his sides. The question earned him a slap at his bicep.

“Not funny!” Edwin pouted. “You’re a celebrity. A very hot one! And there are all these hot people around you. You can’t blame me for being jealous or cautious…” He looked to the side with the pout still on his lips, making them even plumper than they already were.

Aiden chuckled and he couldn’t help it anymore as he took Edwin’s chin with his index finger and thumb, turning his face back to himself. “They may be hot, pretty, and whatever else you wanna call them, but they’re not you. I only love you and there’s no one in the whole world who is hotter or prettier than you.” He closed the gap between their faces and kissed the deliciously pouty lips. He pressed his own closed lips on Edwin’s, feeling the soft texture as he inhaled through his nose. The smell of his cologne clouded his mind. It felt like he hadn’t kissed his lover for a thousand years. He wanted to just keep kissing him for eternity in hopes of making up for the one day they had missed. Edwin shifted on his lap, circled his arms around his neck, and pressed his body flush against him. The older was fast to react as he wrapped one of his hands around his waist and the other at the back of his head, pulling him even closer as he deepened the kiss. They made out for a long time before Edwin started rolling his hips on Aiden’s crotch, making the older exhale roughly at the action. Smiling to himself as he had Aiden where he wanted him, he placed his palms on the older’s chest, pushing him backward until he was lying down on the chair with Edwin sitting on him. Aiden was looking up at him, biting his lip and his hands helping him in the movement of his hips. Edwin removed his hands from the other’s chest, intertwined their fingers instead, and moved them above Aiden’s head, keeping them there as he leaned down and attached their lips together again for a couple of minutes. Moving on, despite not having enough of the older’s curved lips, he placed feather-like kisses on the porcelain-like skin of his neck. Aiden let a breathy moan escape his mouth as he closed his eyes and tilted his head, baring more space for Edwin to ravish. The soft kisses changed into small bites and Aiden’s fingers tightened around Edwin’s above his head. Aiden really wanted to just spin them around and have his own way with the boy, but it was better to give the younger full-control from time to time when he wanted it. Like right at that moment. He could tell that Edwin wanted to be in control this time. He just had to be patient and play along with his lover’s never-ending teasing and the painfully slow acts. He even deserved it all after putting the beautiful, gorgeous dancer through so much.

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They were lying on the big comfy chair, calming down from their highs. Edwin was basically on top of Aiden still, and the older kept caressing the smooth skin of his back with a light touch of his fingertips.

After a while of nothing but silence, Aiden spoke up. “Edwin,”

The younger hummed lazily, probably already half asleep.

“Do you wanna become one of my dancers?”

Edwin was fast at sitting up and looking at him with big eyes. “W-what?”

Aiden pushed his body up on his elbows. “I’ve been thinking about it for a couple of weeks now. I even talked with our management yesterday. They have seen your dance already, and they love you.”

“But… I mean, we were planning on telling your fans about our relationship. Wouldn’t I becoming your dancer make things awkward publically?”

“Why would it be awkward?” Aiden raised his eyebrows in confusion.

“Because we would be a couple dancing and performing together and stuff. I don’t want you to lose fans because of appearing ‘too gay’ or something.”

Aiden burst out laughing and reached out to grab Edwin’s arm that held his body up, pulling him back into his arms.

“It won’t be too gay. Fans are used to this kind of act. They always make something out of nothing themselves, so you don’t have to be worried about that. I bet they’re even gonna love it and want us to show them more. I just wanna have you with me 24/7 and now that I’m gonna be releasing new songs and all, the tours are gonna start again and I really Really don’t wanna leave you here. But it’s really up to you.”

“I’ll… I’ll think about it…”