The atmosphere in the Kim’s house seems so embarrassing right now. No one is having courage to utter any single word. But it has to be break in any minutes, then why not now,
‘Tae?Bubba come to Jinii.’ Seokjin called his brother while sitting in their sofa.
Taehyung obediently comes to him and crowled up to his lap. His head is now resting on his brother’s shoulder facing him. Taehyung is pouting all these time because his Jeonggukie didn’t kiss him back.
‘Baby, what you did just a few minutes ago is wrong. very very wrong, you shouldn’t do this with anyone without their consent bubba.’ Seokjin said softly.
‘But you also did this to Joonie.’ Taehyung said pouting.
‘Oh God, its different, ok ok well when did you see this?’ Seokjin is so so so shocked.
‘In the cafe that day when you had anniversary.'(pout)
‘Ok ok baby what we did or do is totally different thing. We are married baby, we love each other.’
Seokjin said while rubbing his forehead. He never thought that, this day will come this early when he have to converse with his little baby about such mature things.
The Kim couple has always keep Tae far away from such things. They also never do kissing things openly. The cafe incident was so sudden. It was their 3 years anniversary and they were so caught up with the moment.
Kim Seokjin is so sensitive towards his brother. He can’t let his innocence vanish this early.He is so happy seeing his brother’s crazy and naughty self. Hell he is even more then ok to hear their neighbor’s complaints about Tae kidnaps their Dog for one whole day, about his Tae entering their houses to scare them by wearing any ghost masks. Once his Tae even fought with a neighbor guy who misbehaved his mother.
Every one in their neighborhood loves his Tae. Although he irritates them with every worst possible ways. But Never any neighbor made any guts to scold his baby. Like who will shout at this innocent baby. Once even Taehyung entered to an old lady’s home, with a pillow in his hand because she was all alone that day, her son went for some work to the town. Well this is his baby. So caring, so innocent.
His baby must have to be strong for the next chapter of his life which contains ‘love’,’maturity’,’intimacy’.But his baby is so naive, so pure. He just doesn’t have any courage to make Tae dealing with these complexities of reality. Call him coward, yes he is. He will remain untill he feels so.
‘But I do too love Jeonggukie Jiniii, ‘Taehyung said while playing with his brother’s shirt buttons.
‘Baby, noo you don’t.love is another thing, you just find him attractive.’ Seokjin said more like convinced him to not take things further.
‘But I wanna marry him Jiniii, like you did to Joonie.’
Taehyung’s eyes are soaking with tears now. Because his brother is not believing him.
Hearing this Jeongguk is more angry now. Not for Tae, but for himself. Like what the hell he is doing here. He was here to break all the things right? Now what? Sitting like a coward? What happened? Cat got his tongues or what? He shouldn’t let this boy dream on more. No never. He is not for love shits.
‘Oh God, bubba things doesn’t works like this..’
(Clearing throat) ‘umm Mr.kim can I have a private talk with Tae for some moments?’
Jeongguk asked while cutting their conversation.
‘NO’ Seokjin said shacking his head.
‘Jini, please let them, they both need it.’ Namjoon said reassuring him.
After thinking for sometime, Seokjin let go of his Tae with a heavy sigh.
‘Bring him to his room. There you two can talk, no outside place is allowed.’
He said while glaring at Jeongguk.
‘Sure,’ (eye roll)
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Inside of Taehyung’s Room:
Taehyung is sitting on his bed playing with the hem of his long sleeved pajama shirt while looking at his lap.
Jeongguk is kinda nervous. Because he is so bad at dealing with such things.
Screw that, let’s just get to the point,
‘Taehyung whatever you are thinking just give up. You and me will never gonna work. We both are different totally different.’
‘wha-hat do you mean Jeonggukie?’
Fuck don’t show me these eyes..
‘i- I said leave me..’
‘No I will not leave you kookie'(pout)
‘No Taehyung try to understand, your Jini wants a simple life for you. Which you will never get with me. Things will never get back to normal once you step into my life.’
‘Noooooooo’ tae said while pouting, tears are about come out of his eyes.
‘You wanna be happy right? I will never give you happiness. Things are so different in my side.’
‘But Taetae loves Kookie,’
Maybe kookie too-what anghhhhhh.
‘TAE PLEASE DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND A SIMPLE LINE THAT I DON’T WANNA BE WITH YOU. ‘
Taehyung is crying silently now.
‘Oh God please stop crying, I SAID STOP………Okay okay now look at me. Just me.’
Jeongguk is now kneeling on the floor between Tae’s legs. Taehyung is sitting in his bed, nibbling his lips.His both Nose and eyes are watery.
‘Look. At. Me’ Jeongguk said. His breath can be sensed in Taehyung’s lips. They both are so close.
‘Tae I am not what you think of. I myself have no idea about my future. (Chuckle) hell I don’t even remember my past too. I couldn’t be a perfect son how can I be a perfect husband. Do you know my routines I go to clubs I get drunk, that’s what I can think a day… I even stopped going to office. I stoped adoring my parents too. I am useless Tae, I am not the Prince you are looking for, I am not perfect like you say , I am just me, a broken me.’
Tears are flowing over his cheeks. Yes The Jeon Jeongguk is crying. He immediately wiped that of.
‘But I wanna be with you kookoo.’
Jeongguk is looking so deeply into Tae’s eyes. He can feel some electric current roaming all over his body, whener he is going near Tae. But he just choose to ignore it.
He can see clearly and closely now about Taehyung’s ethernal face. So so fascinating, any man can get head over heels for him, Taehyung can love any other eligible man to atleast make him happy. But why him?
Jeongguk never for once treated him nicely. People always leave him because of his this attitude but why Taehyung is not getting bored of his attitudes. He should also leave like others do right?
He also wants a simple life no media’s, no fans, only he and his lover. It’s his dream but seems like it will remain like a dream.
‘Tae? Can I ask you something?’ Jeongguk said softly while caressing his soft cheeks.
‘Yes kookoo.’
‘Why you love me?’
‘Because you are so cute kookie like a bunny,’ Taehyung said poking both of Jeongguk’s cheeks.
(Giggle) ‘aww look at your bunny teeth’ he said again parting Jeongguk’s lips using his fingers.
‘Tae this is not love, you are just attracted towards me.’ Jeongguk said softly. But deep inside he is feeling irritated because he was expecting a different answer.ok screw that.
‘Taehyung, do you know I am so dangerous to even a little hang out, then how can you think of spent your whole life with me?’
‘But you are a good boy kookie, I can feel it. You will never hurt me. I trust you.’
‘TAEEE, (deep breath) , Do you know I had slept with many people before you.’
‘ it’s okay kookie, I also slept with my Jiniii and Joonie and Bobo.’
‘FUCK’ Jeongguk’s anger is rising. Like how the hell this boy will be his lover. When both of them are equally unequal. Its frustrating, so so frustrating.
‘Kookie my Jiniii also kissed Joonie, that day and they said I love you ..but why you didn’t kiss me. Don’t you love me? But I am a sweet boy everyone says it. I can even sweep the whole floor in one go, I even once made breakfast for Jinni because he was sick, he ate every bread I toasted for him. My Jiniii teaches me a lot of new things, he always says that I am a good boy, Jinni also bought a …’
‘JINII JINII JINII, KIM TAEHYUNG THIS IS THE REAL PROBLEM THAT YOU CAN’T THINK ANYTHING IN A MATURE WAY, I WAS RIGHT, YOU SURELY HAVE A MENTAL PROBLEM.’
‘I AM NOT ABNORMAL.’ Tae shouted back while crying silently.
‘YES YOU ARE, THAT’S WHY NO ONE LOVE……..FUCK….
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Listen the Fantasy you are creating with me will never gonna be true so please don’t waste your time on me. I can never feel love with a person like YOU. I hate such people.’
With that Jeongguk was about to open the door but a small voice stopped him go further.
‘No one loves Taetae, he is all alone, no one wanna be with Taetae, because he is abnormal, taetae should die, but he can not left jinii too, he will cry, and Joonie too, you will also leave me right Bobo, but I don’t have anyone to share my secrets………..’
Taehyung is blabbering all of this while lying over his mattress beneath the duvet. he’s clutching tightly to Bobo near his chest.
After like five minutes of blabbering he subsequently is sound sleep.
Jeongguk was still standing at the same spot facing the door with his right hand setting over the doorknob.
when he heard some gentle snores, he can now launch his shaky breath, that have been held with the aid of him with huge attempt.
He slowly and silently walks over to Tae and softly caresses his hair, removes a number of hair from his forehead. For sometime he is looking at his face, so pure for a person like him.
‘I am so sorry I didn’t mean anything what I said, you are not abnormal you are just unique. But maybe I am not the prince you are looking for.I will never be.’
With that Jeongguk left the room, or we can say left the house leaving everyone confused behind him.
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Thank you for reading my book lovelies.
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