The Secret Of Us (Wlw) Kiss me again

Evie was more confused than ever and she needed to talk to Taylor as soon as possible. She didn’t want to interpret anything into the messages without talking to her and quickly began typing an answer. Luckily, Taylor was online when Evie answered her and they agreed to meet in Evie’s hotel room in five minutes. Five minutes went by like second when Evie was performing but at that moment it seemed like forever. Evie tried to distract herself and forced herself to not read Taylor’s messages again. So she wandered around in her room and cleaned the mess that she had caused while searching for her phone. Then she sat down on her bed and stared at the wall, waiting for Taylor to knock on the door. And then she did. Evie jumped up immediately to open the door and found Taylor in front of it while she could see her bodyguard leaving in the back. „Hi.”, Evie managed to say and was surprised at how nervous her voice sounded. She cleared her throat and let Taylor in. Despite Taylor’s concerned look on her face, she looked beautiful as always. She wore black flared trousers and a black cropped top. Her hair was in a messy ponytail and her red lipstick on point. Evie sat down on her bed and expected Taylor do so the same but she only leaned against the desk opposite it and seemed a bit uncomfortable. How did they get to this point? Everything used to be carefree between them, Evie thought to herself. „Evie I need to talk to you and before I begin, please allow me to finish first.”, she started and Evie only nodded and allowed her to continue. „I wanted to kiss you that night and I liked it…a lot. I am being honest, I didn’t know I really wanted to do it before that evening but on that day, everything became so clear and I stopped being so oblivious to my feelings. I mean…I noticed that you became my close friend very quickly and I cared so much for you but I also noticed that I thought about you more than any other friends and that I wanted you to like me more than any of your friends, which seems like a childish thing when I say it out loud. But I kept telling me that we were just really good friends and that everything was normal. I never thought you could like me in any other way than a platonic one. And then there was this thing with Travis that I treated like this big secret. It actually started as a PR thing to make football more appealing for a different audience and to get me to perform at the superbowl half time show. Tree somehow found out that Travis mentioned me in his podcast before saying that he found me attractive and that’s how the idea came to be. I didn’t want to tell you because I felt a bit ashamed of it. I didn’t want you to think that I’d do anything for money because I don’t. If I’m honest, I do think that he actually likes me and I somehow wanted myself to like him romantically too. In the end, I also thought I could distract myself from my feelings for you that I couldn’t categorise for some time. I’ve always liked these kind of guys and I thought I wanted to date a guy on a football team but apparently I want something completely different. It’s quite a lot to process. I’ve never thought that I also liked women and now I’m kind of in this state where I question a lot of things. And maybe I don’t even like women in general but I know for sure how it feels to fall for someone and I know that I feel for for you Evie. But I am so confused about what you feel because you keep acting in riddles. I had the feeling you wanted to kiss me but then you told me to forget about it and seemed like everything was fine. It hurt to hear it and I actually had to hide my face in my bag for a second before I gave you the book back because I didn’t want you to see how upset I was. You acted like you were fine and you still do and I actually don’t know anything about your sexuality which I only realised when I started to question mine. It’s all too much right now…and I think that’s all I have to say.”. Taylor seemed a little out of breath after her “speech” and she immediately looked at the ground after her last words. Evie could not believe what Taylor had just said. Her words echoed in her head and it was a little overwhelming for her. Taylor had wanted to kiss her. The electrifying energy in the room that day had not only been in Evie’s head. And she liked Evie more than she had ever thought she could. And there she was, standing in front of her looking at the ground and seemed to be scared of what Evie could tell her next. Evie realised that Taylor was in the same position she had been in the past weeks when she had seemed to be alone with her feelings. She stood up, went to Taylor and also leaned herself against the desk. They were both looking at the same ground now and said nothing for a short time. Then, Evie managed to say something. “Taylor…I never thought you would like me any other way than platonically. I wanted to kiss you that night and I already knew that I liked you before it happened. But I never thought that you’d think of me the same and I was so scared of losing you and confused about this Travis thing that I just lied to you to safe this friendship because it means so much to me. I wouldn’t have done it if had known that it would hurt you. I don’t want to hurt you ever…”, at this moment, Evie took her hand and looked her deep in the eyes. “Thank you for being that open with me. And you can take your time if it’s all confusing. I know gay panic…well more like bi panic and I don’t want you to feel overwhelmed by your feelings…” Evie couldn’t continue talking because Taylor’s eyes suddenly kept alternating between her eyes and her lips which made her feel even more nervous than before. For a short second, she decided between kissing Taylor or talking but Taylor made the decision for her. She leaned forward, rested her right on Evie’s check and gently kissed her. Evie had thought that their kiss at Taylor’s house had been special even though it had only lasted for a short time, but this kiss was different. This time, she could feel and know that Taylor wanted to kiss her. She felt her warm, soft lips on hers, could smell her perfume and couldn’t ask for anything more. It was just them in this hotel room. Two girls who had thought of themselves as close friends but who seemed to be anything but that.