Chapter 35
The next day, Ji Ruan asked for leave and didn’t go to class, and took a solid rest all day.
He was exhausted yesterday. Although the dinner prepared by Aunt Zhao was delicious, he still didn’t eat much, so he went upstairs to wash and sleep after hastily filling his stomach.
The consequence of hypoglycemia and not being able to eat is that getting up in the morning is like a punishment.
Open your eyes and the ceiling is spinning, and close your eyes and your brain is spinning. Turning over and trying to get up, you can only lie on the edge of the bed and retch, and you can’t get out of bed by yourself.
In the end, it was Gu Xiuyi who fed him a stick of glucose like he would for the old, the weak, the sick, helped him to wash up, and then carried him downstairs.
When sitting at the dining table, Ji Ruan was half unconscious, Gu Xiuyi scooped up a spoonful of porridge and put it in his mouth: “Take a bite.”
Ji Ruan’s eyes were empty, and he opened his mouth slowly: “Ah–“.
The soft and rotten rice porridge was put into his mouth, it was sweet porridge, but Ji Ruan’s consciousness seemed to be pulled out at this moment, and he felt very dazed about everything around him.
There’s also something weird about it.
After waiting for a while, he heard that Gu Xiuyi seemed to be smiling, and gently pinched his cheeks: “Chew it, have you forgotten how to swallow it?” Ah… so it’s
this…
it means there’s something strange about it, it turns out It was because he didn’t swallow the porridge…
Ji Ruan chewed mechanically for a couple of times, only to finish the soft sweet porridge.
It’s weird, my body doesn’t look like my own anymore.
He was fed by Gu Xiuyi like this for countless times before his consciousness gradually returned, his cold and numb fingertips gradually warmed up, and he could feel the breath of Gu Xiuyi’s close proximity.
Finally, it was like living in the real world again.
Gu Xiuyi saw that his eyes rolled, and his eyes gradually became brighter and more focused, so he knew that he had recovered.
While he was relieved, he felt a little helpless, put down the spoon and wiped the sweat from Ji Ruan’s forehead: “Your body…”
Ji Ruan also knew that he was very weak, but it would not take overnight to become healthy. It’s also possible that he has been like this all the time. There is no serious illness that can’t kill him, but there are a bunch of minor illnesses that make him uncomfortable.
But even this is much happier than dying from a terminal illness, right? The pain of chemotherapy is hundreds of times more painful than it is now.
Thinking of this, Ji Ruan was a little grateful and a little bit bitter, imitating Gu Xiuyi’s movement and wiping the sweat on his forehead: “I’m going to die…” As soon as the words
fell, the eyebrows were flicked, and it hurt a little. Ji Ruan raised her eyes and saw Gu Xiuyi slightly Frowning: “Don’t talk nonsense.”
His eyebrows are not too thick, but they are sharp. When his face is expressionless, he has a very unfriendly appearance. Now he looks very sharp when he is serious.
For the convenience of feeding, Ji Ruan was held in Gu Xiuyi’s arms vainly, and this posture is still the same now, the two are very close, Ji Ruan can clearly trace his skin texture.
As a result, the seriousness that Ji Ruan felt was many times greater than the seriousness shown by Gu Xiuyi himself.
His heart trembled, and he somehow felt that he was being fiercely approached at close range.
God knows how confused Gu Xiuyi is, he just frowned slightly and looked at Ji Ruan, and said three words at the same time, three words!
Ji Ruan actually started curling his lips, the downward arc of the corner of his mouth was very aggrieved.
Gu Xiuyi could see his own reflection in his clear pupils, but the child’s eyes were moist, and it seemed that there was grievance and disbelief mixed in them.
It was Gu Xiuyi who couldn’t believe it.
“…”
He wanted to pinch Ji Ruan’s face, but stopped half way through his hand, and said dryly, “You…have you been wronged?”
Ji Ruan didn’t speak, but still looked at him with big eyes.
Gu Xiuyi pursed his lips, his throat felt dry: “Did I kill you? Are you wronged?”
Although Ji Ruan’s strength had not fully recovered, but his mind was clear, he pulled a distance away from Gu Xiuyi, looking stern Said:
“You pinched and pinched me when I was confused, you still beat me to death, you still glared at me, aren’t you trying to kill me?” Gu Xiuyi: “…” He was obviously just taking care of the old, weak, sick
and
disabled In the process of eating, some body language was used as an aid to remind the old, weak, sick and disabled to open their mouths to eat, and to swallow after opening their mouths, that’s all.
“When did I… I didn’t stare at you?” Gu Xiuyi said helplessly, “Isn’t it you who have been staring at me? Your eyes are so big.” “?” Ji Ruan’s
beautiful big eyes suddenly opened wider: “Big eyes Is it my fault? Then if squinting and using eyes to kill people, wouldn’t you need to go to jail?” “
…”
Eyes can’t kill people, so squinting really doesn’t need to go to jail, not to mention squinting, it’s just Ji Ruan’s age Eyes are also useless.
“Alas…” Gu Xiuyi supported his forehead.
What the hell is he doing?
Why did you follow Ji Ruan’s train of thought to consider whether you should go to jail for squinting your eyes?
“Ji Ruan,” Gu Xiuyi didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, “Did you secretly drink without telling me, or did you just eat porridge and get drunk?”
Ji Ruan wasn’t drunk, he was sober.
“You hurt me so much from playing it,” he rubbed his forehead, “Can’t you just say something? You have to do it…”
Gu Xiuyi froze.
Pulling down Ji Ruan’s hand, he saw that the area between his eyebrows where he was flicked was really red. He is small, his skin is white, and he looks like a new year picture doll, but it is a face-lifting and beautifying version.
“…”
Gu Xiuyi was at a loss for words several times.
The child’s skin is too thin.
“Okay,” Gu Xiuyi finally compromised: “My fault.”
He murmured, “You really can’t touch…”
“What?” Ji Ruan didn’t hear clearly.
“Cough, it’s nothing.” Gu Xiuyi cleared his throat and looked more serious: “How is it, does your stomach feel bad?”
Ji Ruan didn’t eat much yesterday, so it might be uncomfortable to eat suddenly, although he only ate for Ji Ruan just now A few mouthfuls of very mild porridge, but Gu Xiuyi was still afraid that the glass man would not be able to take it.
“It’s okay…” Ji Ruan touched his upper abdomen to feel it. In fact, it was the most uncomfortable time to retch in the morning. Now that he ate something, his body felt warm.
Seeing that his face was indeed not as pale as when he just woke up, Gu Xiuyi felt relieved.
He put the chopsticks in Ji Ruan’s hands: “If you don’t feel uncomfortable, sit up and eat some more, and there are soup dumplings.”
Ji Ruan leaned limply on the chair, motionless: “What kind of stuffing are there in soup dumplings?”
” Crab roe.”
Ji Ruan’s Adam’s apple rolled instantly, sat up straight against the table, picked up one, blew it, and took a light bite.
Knowing that he didn’t have much strength, Gu Xiuyi calmly helped him, supporting his body so that he could lean on it.
Then he propped his forehead and looked at Ji Ruan quietly.
Seeing him squinting his eyes in happiness because of a mouthful of crab roe soup dumplings, dimples loomed on his cheeks.
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Gu Xiuyi didn’t go to work that day, and stayed at home with Ji Ruan all day long, immersively experiencing the decadent life of contemporary college students during their vacations.
Boring poker games, they can play from breakfast to lunch, and then take a beautiful afternoon nap, and in the afternoon on the balcony full of sunshine, they can act as models for Ji Ruan’s paintings.
Gu Xiuyi received his first portrait in his life.
Joining him in the painting are the newly sprouted tree branches outside the window, and the well-growthed, green grass brought home by Ji Ruan.
To the former Gu Xiuyi, such a life was tantamount to murdering time and slow suicide.
But today he was sitting on the balcony, the sunshine was very bright for a short time, and he felt extremely fulfilled when he saw Ji Ruan tracing his appearance stroke by stroke with a paintbrush.
It was an unprecedented, more pleasant and wonderful sense of fulfillment than any time in thirty years of my life.
In the evening, Ji Ruan’s physical strength and energy finally returned to normal.
Gu Xiuyi went out for a walk with him, and bought some flowers and fruits along the way to visit Cheng Zizhang.
The single ward was very quiet, with only one nurse accompanying Cheng Zizhang. The senior sister was lying on the bed with her eyes tightly closed, and she didn’t know if she was awake or fell asleep again.
Her face was pale, her brows were tightly frowned because of the pain, and the hand with the needle was still resting on the incision in her abdomen. Ji Ruan didn’t dare to keep her eyes on her after just one glance.
He took a small breath, looked around, but didn’t see Lin Qing and Cheng Yunxiu, and asked the nurse, “Has no one visited her?” The nurse
was a middle-aged woman with a kind face, and said in a low voice,
“Yesterday The young man who asked me to come left after paying the money, and he hasn’t come yet today. In the morning, a very temperamental teacher came to accompany Ms. Cheng for a while, it should be her mother, but she seems to be very busy and just left.”
Ji Ruan nodded, and asked again: “How is
senior sister, have you woken up ?” Now I’m asleep again.”
“Is that so…” Ji Ruan understood, seeing that Cheng Zizhang showed no sign of waking up for the time being, he didn’t intend to stay and disturb her any longer.
He left the flowers and fruits on the storage shelf, and smiled slightly at the nurse: “Please take care of her.”
“Yes, I will. I’m working at my job.” The nurse replied with a smile and squinted her eyes.
Ji Ruan nodded to her, took another look at Cheng Zizhang, and left with Gu Xiuyi.
People were coming and going in the corridor, and the air gradually became lively. Ji Ruan squeezed his sleeves and let out a long breath.
Seeing that he was not interested, Gu Xiuyi asked in a low voice, “What’s wrong?”
Ji Ruan pursed her lips tightly and shook her head slightly.
He hadn’t seen someone undergoing surgery for a long time, and Cheng Zizhang’s pale face in the ward just now reminded him of when he was seriously ill.
At that time, he kept undergoing surgery, but his condition kept recurring. His body was opened and sewed up again and again on the operating table. Every time after surgery, he was extremely painful, and the incision was very, very painful.
At the beginning, he still had a glimmer of hope, but every time he was operated on, the hope was lost by an inch. In the end, the doctors gave up, and he became a living corpse lying on the hospital bed waiting to die.
Afterwards, he was finally freed, but when he opened his eyes, he came to this world. He was no longer suffering from serious illnesses, and he even met this man beside him.
With the passage of time, the pain in the past drifts farther and farther away in the memory and becomes like a lifetime away, but once you look back, it will suddenly become clear again, like a sharp knife stabbing straight back, and the heart and blood can feel it to severe pain.
Ji Ruan seems to have a physical resistance to that kind of memory, once it is activated, she will reflexively want to vomit.
Gu Xiuyi watched Ji Ruan’s face turn pale, cold sweat dripped from his forehead, and his chest heaved slightly, but he didn’t understand what happened.
“Ji Ruan?” He held Ji Ruan’s face lightly, his voice tightened: “Ji Ruan, what’s wrong with you? Open your eyes and look at me.”
Ji Ruan didn’t respond, as if she was completely immersed in her own world.
Just when Gu Xiuyi’s patience was pushed to the limit, Ji Ruan’s eyelashes trembled, and she slowly opened her eyes.
From his eyes, Gu Xiuyi saw a lot of fear and helplessness that did not belong to this age.
His heart sank slowly.
At that time, the sun was setting, and the warm sun hung in the sky for a whole day, slowly approaching the most dazzling moment before sunset, a large piece of golden afterglow sprinkled on the snow-white tiles in the corridor, and even stained Gu Xiuyi’s trouser legs a little.
He took Ji Ruan to sit on the bench by the window, where he could feel the warmth of the setting sun at the closest distance.
The sky is endless purple, Ji Ruan sat here for a while, and his face was warmed by the reflection.
Gu Xiuyi squatted in front of him, brushed his forehead hair, made them look at each other, and asked softly, “
Why are you so scared?”
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