[Discontinued?] Emotionless Colors | Kim Chaewon X Male Reader Chapter 7

Chaewon and the others are waiting for Y/N at their usual place. With Hyunjin looking bored as the others were chit-chatting.

“I’ve been thinking. We should create a club, Chaewon-ah. Called ‘Y/N’s emotion retrieval.’ ” Yena suddenly declared.

“Uhh…. why?”

“You mean you don’t want to? It sounds cool, doesn’t it?”

“Should we even create a club?”

“We won’t make it officially. It’s just a club between ourselves. Get what i mean?” Chaewon looked confused on what to answer as she glanced at Hyunjin for help.

“Why’re you looking at me? You’re the leader.” He said to her making her sad.

“Okay, do what you want unnie. But i don’t think Y/N would agree with this.”

“He will, trust me.” Just as Yena had finished her sentence, Y/N came with his backpack on one side. He waved at them.

“Y/N! Sit down for a moment, we need to tell you something.” Yena tapped on the seat indicating that he should sit there.

“What is it?” He asked as he sat down.

“So…. we decided to make this a club! Called ‘Y/N’s emotion retrieval.’ How does that sound?” As Chaewon had expected, Y/N looked confused as hell.

“So we’re gonna make an official club just for you guys to teach me about emotions?”

“No. The club is just between us. We don’t need to make it official, know what i mean?” He put on this dumbfounded face. The face that’s saying ‘If we aren’t making it official, then why bother make it a club?’

“See unnie? I told you he wouldn’t get it.” Chaewon teased her making her pout.

“You’ll get it sooner or later Y/N. Anyway, what’s the next emotion that we’re gonna teach him Chaewon-ah?”

“I was thinking we should teach him about sadness.”

“Sadness huh…. do you know anything about sadness Y/N?” She asked him.

“Sadness… is it like the opposite of happiness? Or at least that’s what i know so far.”

“…maybe? Help me out guys.”

“Okay. Let us do another play.” Yenyul got up as they started to act.

“Unnie…. are you really leaving me?”

“I’m sorry, Yuri-ah. I already have someone else. Bye.” Yena waved at her elegantly before turning around pretending to walk away.

“ᵘⁿⁿᶦᵉ~” She called her as her voice steadily getting lower as she raised her hand at her.

“How was it?” Yena asked Y/N. The three of them looked at them wondering what they were showcasing just now.

“What…. was that about?” Hyunjin asked.

“It’s about a girlfriend that has just left her boyfriend in the dust leaving her sad.”

“That’s more than sad. That’s her being in despair! Y/N doesn’t know what love is yet so how can he understand why she’s sad?”

“…you’re right.” The both of them then sat down looking serious as they put their chin onto their hands.

“Ah! I remember now! Y/N, do you remember when you were crying the first time we met you?”

“I remember. Was that… sadness?”

“Not really…. ah! Have you ever felt like, not doing anything?”

“Not doing anything?” He asked making her nod.

“Like, feeling down or dispirited. Do you know what i mean?” He started to brainstorm after Chaewon gave him a question.

“I think i remember this one time. When i thought i finally have my first friend, but it turns out that he was the same as everyone else. Leaving me alone.”

“How did you feel at the time?”

“I remember i have a thought of not going to school for some reason. Like just staying in my bed or something. But i know i can’t do that, so i continued to come to school.”

“Can we classify that as sadness, Unnie?” Yuri asked.

“I guess we can. That does seem like sadness. So, have any idea on how sadness feel like Y/N?”

“I think i get it, but at the same time, i need more examples on this.”

Time Skip

Y/N and Chaewon walked home together as they had planned the other day.

“That wasn’t really fruitful wasn’t it Y/N? I feel like we wasted time today. Explaining emotions is harder than i imagined.”

“It’s okay.”

A phone call came through her phone as Y/N decided not to say anything so that he won’t disturb her calls. A few minutes later she ended the call looking not as cheerful as before. This lit a spark of curiosity inside Y/N as he decided to ask about it once they sit on the bus.

“What’s wrong? You look….sad.” He asked after finally getting on the bus. She let out a sigh of frustration before she told him the story.

“Looks like my parents fought again. This is not the first time this had happened so don’t worry about it.” She smiled at him.

“So…. are you happy that your parents fought with each other?”

“Of course not. What makes you say that?”

“You were smiling when you said they were fighting. Doesn’t it mean that you’re happy?” She took a deep breath before she starts explaining.

“Y/N. I’ll tell you the truth. I didn’t smile because i was happy. I was smiling because i don’t want to look weak.”

“Weak? By being sad?” She nodded. “Do other people also do this or is it just you?”

“Other people do that often.”

“I don’t get it. You look the same to me, Chaewon-ah. You don’t look weak, to me at least. Why do people use other emotion when they feel different inside? Does it work the other way around? If yes, then does that mean i can use a sad face when i’m happy too?” What he said cheered her up for a bit as she started laughing.

“Humans are a complicated being, Y/N. You’ll get it once you understand it. Also, thank you. You cheered me up there for a bit.” She said before finally showing her sad face to him. He looked at her face not cutting off the eye contact.

“I’m sorry i can’t sympathize with you. I…. ugh, I’m sorry i can’t express myself very well. I want to become more human like you.” Chaewon looked at him as he got frustrated.

“You can, Y/N. Once you know how your emotion works, that’ll be the starting point for you to being human. Wait. You’re already human now… Let’s just say that that’s the starting point for you to become more of a human. Wait. What am i even saying?”

Chaewon started getting dizzy by her own words as she held her head.

“It’s okay. I get what you mean. Are you still sad?” Y/N said as he hovered his hand above her head.

“I’ll sooth you for now.”

This is the second time i’ve felt like this. I’m not in love with him or anything… right? This is just me being happy that i’m being taken care of, right? Yeah that must be it.

“Oh i know! What if i decided to just leave you alone Y/N? How would you feel?”

“..i don’t know.”

“Try to imagine me leaving you alone in the middle of the class.”

Y/N then thought about it, and touched his chest area.

“What’s wrong?” She asked.

“It felt like… my chest is hurting. I thought i couldn’t breathe for a second. What was that feeling, Chaewon-ah?” He asked her.

“That might be sadness that you’re feeling. Do you want that to happen?”

“…no. I don’t want that.” He answered as she smiled at him.

“Don’t worry Y/N. I won’t leave you. Now stop imagining it.” She returned his favor now rubbing his head.

“Can i say something?” He asked.

“If you’re still afraid of letting other people see your weak side, you can show it to me. Because i don’t mind.” He said with a serious tone making her laugh.

“I’ll remember that Y/N. Thank you.”

“Speaking of remembering…. i just remembered something. My brother said that he wants to meet you. All of you.”

“Why?” She said chuckling.

“He said he wants to see if you guys are bad or not.”

“I see. I don’t mind. I’ll tell the others after i get home then. When and at what time?”

“We can talk about that later. You can confirm this to the others first so i can ask my brother later.”

“Sure.”