[Discontinued?] Emotionless Colors | Kim Chaewon X Male Reader Chapter 11

“Eh?” Chaewon got flustered after hearing the word ‘love’ come out from his mouth. She didn’t expect this question to come so soon, or rather at all.

“Love…?” She asked him.

“Yeah. I’ve been thinking about that lately. Can you explain it to me?”

“Let-let’s see…” She answered stuttering. “Well… Y/N. Love is when you like someone.”

“I like you. Does that mean i love you?”

“Woah! Calm down there!” She put her hands up waving it at him.

“Love is…. how do i even explain it…” She shook her head. “I myself have never even fell in love, Y/N. I can’t explain it to you clearly. But i can tell what i have in mind.”

“I’m all ears.”

“Love is when you feel happy just by seeing that person. For example, when you look at Yena-unnie, and you feel happy. You feel happy just beeing by her side, looking at her makes you feel warm and your heartbeat rose. You want to protect her with all your life.. i think that’s what love is.”

“I see…. i have all of those when i look at you, Chaewon-ah.” He spouted.

“E-eh?” Chaewon startes getting flustered more.

“I feel like wanting to see you a lot lately. I’ve been feeling something that i think is happy whenever i see you. I feel like protecting you like that time when you were slapped by that guy.”

“Y-Y/N… i don’t think love is that easy.” She tried explaining to him.

“Hm….love is complicated, isn’t it? I-“

He then cut himself off before saying anything any further.

“Hm? What were you about to say?” She asked him.

“N-Nothing. We should start on our project now.”

“Hm~ okay~ i see you’re keeping secrets from me, Y/N. It makes me sad.”She said pouting at him.

“What? No, don’t be sad. It’s not a good emotion.”

“Then tell me. What were you about to say?”

“I…. nevermind. I think you won’t feel comfortable with me saying this.”

“How do you know i won’t feel comfortable if you haven’t even tell me about it?”

“I just thought about it logically. Come on, let’s move on with our project.”

“Alright~ but i will get you to talk about this later in the future, Y/N.”

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At night

*sigh* when will they ever reconcile…

Yena thought to herself looking at the night sky with the street lights illuminating her surroundings. The cold windy night blew through her making her shiver from time to time as she’s rubbing her hands while blowing hot air to it.

“Yena? What’re you doing out here all alone?” A guy’s voice called out to her making her stop rubbing her hands. She looked to the left revealing Y/N who’s holding a paper bag on one hand with the other in his pocket.

“Y/N?”

“Yeah. It’s me. It’s a cold night, Yena-ya. You should be at home at this time.”

“I know….” She said weakly looking down to the ground with her feet moving back and forth.

“Is something bothering you?”He asked.

“*sigh* there is.”

“Then i’ll lend you my ear.” He said settling himself next to her.

“It’s okay, Y/N. It’s not like you’ll get how i feel right now.”

“But it’s better to let it out than to keep it all inside, isn’t it?” Y/N said making Yena’s eyes starting to tear up a bit.

“I guess you’re right…. *sniff* my parents told me that they’re thinking of a divorce.”

“Divorce? Any reason?”

“They always fight at home. They’d fight over every little thing such as the food tastes bad, or maybe something hasn’t been cleaned up yet. Basically something that shouldn’t have been a big deal, they’ll turn it into a big deal. And now… *sob* they’re thinking of a divorce…. what should i do, Y/N?” She asked looking up to him with her eyes tearing up on the other flowing down on her face making Y/N feel something.

“I can somehow feel something inside me.”

“Can you? *sniff*”

“Yeah. I thought about what if my parents did the same thing, and i somehow feel something hurting inside me.”

“So you basically feel sad over your parents getting a divorce?”

“Mm. I guess so, if this is what you call sadness. But it’s weird, Yena-ya.”

“Eh?”

“You’re the most cheerful in our group, if i say so myself. To think you have something deep inside you like this with that bright smile of yours. Why’d you hide it?”

“I don’t want to ruin the mood… i don’t want other people to worry about me, Y/N. I feel like being a burden if i ever said about anything like this.”

“But that’s not good. Hiding your feelings, that is. I still don’t understand the concept of people hiding their real emotions at times. Is it normal to do that?”

“I think so. Look at me, hehe.” She said giggling in-between her sobs.

“I don’t like seeing you like this. You can let it all out in front of me, Yena-ya.”

“Ya. Don’t say stuff like that, Y/N. If you said it then….. then… *sob*” She started breaking down in front of him as she covered her face with both of her hands. Y/N tried to think of what to do as he just slowly hovered his hand to her head to pat it.

“I hope this helps, even if it’s just for a bit.” She continued sobbing for about 10 minutes or so, slowly coming to an end.

“Have you calmed down? Do you feel better now?”

“Yeah…. *sniff* i think i feel better now.”

“Good. Now to answer your question….” Just then, a call came to her phone ringing making him stop.

“Excuse me for a moment Y/N.” He hummed in response to her as she got up and walked about a meter away from him as her mother just called her. Her face turned 180° making him feel relieved.

*beep*

“Looks like your problem’s been solved.” He said to her as she’s smiling at him.

“They cancelled it!” She said as she hugged him in reflex making him startled.

“A-ah. Sorry. I must’ve surprised you there.”

“It’s okay. I’m happy to see you all better. You’re more fit to being cheerful than being in that sad state earlier.”

“Please don’t tell anyone about this, okay? It has to be a secret!” She quacked at him.

“Your wish is my command.” He answered making her chuckle.

“Looks like someone’s been watching a lot of movies lately. Thank you, Y/N.”

“For what? I barely did anything for you. I just sat here.”

“Still. You being here listening to my worries and cry helped me a lot. You’re right, Y/N. It’s better to let it out.”

“I’m here if you ever want to. By the way, does Yuri know about this? She seems to be your best friend, after all.”

“I don’t want to show her this pathetic side of mine. I want to have this strong unnie image in front of her.”

“Does showing you cry in front of her make you look weak? I don’t think Yuri’s the kind of persob that will see you as weak just by seeing you cry once or twice. You should trust her more.”

“Hm…. i’ll try and do that. Thanks again, Y/N.” She said getting up from the seat.

“I should get home soon. My parents are waiting for me.”

“Want me to accompany you?” He asked.

“It’s fine. My house is just around the block.”

“I see. I’ll sit here for a little more longer then. Be careful on your way home.” He said waving his hand to her.

“Mm! You should hurry home too, Y/N. See you tomorrow!” She said to him as she walked away. He stared at her small figure slowly disappearing from his sights as he rested his head on the edge of the bench.

Such a strong girl. How is she so good at hiding her emotions like that, when i’m here struggling with my own?

He let out a sigh from his mouth as he kept staring at the night sky.

I should get home and study more about emotions.