Falling | Mxm (Completed) Chapter 45

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Aiden had woken Edwin up after watching him sleeping for about 10 minutes of admiring the delicate and ethereal face of the blue-haired boy in his bed. He had made him a bubble bath cos he had somehow gone rough on the boy last night and he kind of felt guilty, although Edwin had seemed to enjoy it. A lot.

He wanted to order some food cos even asleep, Edwin looked a little pale. The younger hadn’t eaten much the past few days, and he seemed to eat less and less with each passing day. Aiden was worried, really worried.

Of course, Edwin was a psychiatrist, but the poor boy had lost the only person close to him and his goal in life along with her, so all the psychology theories and lessons didn’t seem to be able to save him from his pain. To Aiden, he seemed like a vulnerable, innocent, lost human being. One he wanted to embrace tightly and protect from the world. And that was what made him confused the most. He knew he liked Edwin from the start. From when he gave the nickname ‘bluewin’ to him. But he thought it was just the kind of ‘like’ he felt for a friend.

And in time, the wish to feel those plump lips formed in his mind. He had wanted to know how it would feel to have those beautiful lips pressed against his own. To feel the heat and have a taste of the other man. He knew it was crazy and that he shouldn’t do it cos he wouldn’t want to put anyone in Ian’s position ever again, but he couldn’t resist it. The fact that he knew Edwin liked him, not in a bro way, didn’t help him either.

The doctor’s eyes showed everything, like he was wearing his heart on his sleeve, screaming what he was feeling by the beautiful pink hue on his cheeks every time Aiden got a little bit too close to him.

And at first, it was fun doing it. Getting close and teasing him, throwing a few flirty words at him to see the cute reaction of the doctor. He genuinely enjoyed the night conversation they had back at the hospital. He thought once he was out, Edwin could move on. As the time passed though, he knew he couldn’t shut the boy out of his life. That he needed to talk to him even for 30 seconds every two or three days. And he was now blaming himself for being, once again, a greedy asshole.

He couldn’t help but feel guilty. Guilty for making the young man in his bed fall for him. Sure, he hadn’t actually made him, but he could’ve not flirted or kept his distance or been the asshole everyone at the company called him. That would have been much easier for both of them in the end. Especially for Edwin. If it wasn’t for the sensitive situation at the company at the moment, he wouldn’t be able to spend all this time with the younger cos he would be at his studio making music for his next album although it wouldn’t be in the next 7-8 months. He was also feeling guilty for not being able to help him. Not being able to give Lili back to him somehow. Of course, it wasn’t something anyone could do, but he couldn’t help but feel useless. Edwin was devastated and there was nothing he could do except for hugging him and telling him it was all going to be okay in the end, although he doubted it himself pretty much so.

He wanted to confess to Edwin. To tell him how much he liked him. Everything about him. From the way his cheeks would be round and puffy in the morning to the way he rubbed his eye by the side of his index finger unlike anyone else who would do the action by bending the finger. The way he talked, smooth and a bit slower than what he was used to. The sound of his laugh, so unlike his talking voice, being higher in note. The way he would laugh at every silly joke he would say, even if no one else found it funny. He wanted to tell him how he loved his body so much, although the other was sometimes self-conscious about it. To him, it seemed ridiculous cos he was absolutely gorgeous. He wanted to say he wanted him to be his boyfriend, but then, what about the times he had to go away? With his fame rising day by day, he would have to go on more tours, meaning less time being at home, therefore less time to spend with the doctor. He didn’t want to do that to him. He didn’t want to ruin him like he ruined Ian. And he was also afraid of losing Edwin in the end, just like he had lost Ian.

Ian, yes, sure he said he had forgiven him and that the accident wasn’t his fault and everything, but they could never be the way they were before. They were best friends for two whole years before Aiden started to grow this stupid crush on the other. If he hadn’t, or if he had waited more so that Joe would be the first one to confess to him, none of this would’ve happened. They’d all still be together, and he didn’t have to carry this shattered heart in his chest all the time. He was hurt. He was genuinely hurt. It would be okay if Ian had broken up with him and then slept with Joe on the exact same day, but the way it turned out was not okay. It had never been okay, but he never said what he thought cos what was the point? What’s done is done, and there was nothing he could do about it. He had lost his boyfriend and his best friend at the same time. He was hurt cos, as he said to his mother, he didn’t have anyone, really. He was only surrounded by people who could leave him any time they wanted. He couldn’t trust anyone to stay forever. Maybe that was why he had always tip-toed around Ian. Trying to stay away most of the time so he wouldn’t grow more attached to him than he already was. His own father left him, he didn’t expect anything from anyone. He couldn’t make people stay if they didn’t want to, and that was that.

Among the two, Joe and Ian, he didn’t know which one of them had hurt him more. Joe was his best friend who had fallen for his boyfriend, but he was okay with this part cos love wasn’t something you could control. But when he decided to betray their friendship and trust, and act on it, then it tore Aiden into a million pieces. Yes, he told him this the one time they had this big fight after the breakup with Ian, but he never said it again. Simply cos he still loved Joe too much to let this ruin everything they had between them.

And Ian was his boyfriend who decided to sleep with his best friend cos he wasn’t there when he needed him, while still being in a relationship with him. Sure, just as Ian had said, he didn’t have the right to be upset about it, but it was cheating nevertheless. Their friends kept telling them it was the fault of the alcohol, but Aiden knew better. You would never do anything under the influence of alcohol unless you had had the thought beforehand. That was why he couldn’t contact the new couple these days or answer Joe’s calls or texts. Every time he thought of the two in a relationship, although he was glad they both had the person who could make them happy now, he would feel hurt for their betrayal of his trust. He had trusted Joe in keeping Ian’s company when he had called him to go to their house when he left for tour back then. It killed him to know Ian had grown feelings or attractions towards Joe while he was away on tour, missing the hell out of them both, wishing to have Ian in his arms and talking music with Joe at the studio. It all killed him little by little every day, but he didn’t want to say it out loud. He didn’t want to fight. He hated fighting. He wanted to keep what they had, even if it was somehow already ruined a bit. That’s the kind of person he really was. He would rather keep it all in while keeping his distance in order not to cause any pain or frustration for the other person. That was why he didn’t visit his family, that was why he didn’t go to their friends’ party that week, and that was why he didn’t answer Joe.

Looking at Edwin’s peaceful features, he decided he had stared at the younger man enough already, so he shook him, calling his name in an attempt to wake him up. He couldn’t help but brush the hair out of his face and place a gentle kiss on the other’s forehead. He had such a beautiful forehead, but it was almost always hidden under the beautiful blue hair. He wanted to die from Edwin’s cuteness when he whined about how he couldn’t stand on his feet and how it was his fault.

He sent the taller boy to shower, and he was about to call the restaurant when his phone started ringing. It was Luis, and he knew he had to answer.

“Hey.” He simply said, knowing it could not be a good sign if he had called him in the morning all of a sudden.

“Hey, Aiden, you should come to the company soon. Come quick.”

Exhaling roughly and seriously thinking of letting everything go, pick Edwin up and escape to a faraway isolated island with him, live there peacefully for the rest of their lives — with enough blue hair color for Edwin to be able to re-dye his hair cos Aiden absolutely loved it this way — he walked to the shower and watched how Edwin sat in the bathtub quietly with his head resting on the tub, a little to the side and hands in the water probably resting on his lap. They had sex a few times, but Edwin always seemed shy when it came to showering, so they hadn’t showered together yet. Shaking his head, he called Edwin and told him he had to go.

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When he arrived at the company, every manager and artist was there, gathering in the big conference hall. The company had grown quite big thanks to Aiden and this other girl group who had become really popular.

And there he was, the new fucker of a CEO in all his non-existent glory. Aiden just looked at him briefly before walking up to Luis, ignoring Joe’s eyes on him, pretending he hadn’t noticed him there at all. It was childish, but he didn’t have the brain cells to deal with his best friend now.

“What’s this about? Why is everyone here?” He whispered, standing next to Luis.

“Apparently he’s figured out about the lawsuit we were going to form against him and he asked everyone to come here. He said he wanted to make a fresh start or something.”

Aiden wanted to ask some more, but the CEO started talking in the mic and everyone else went quiet, so he just didn’t.

“Now that everyone’s here, let’s start. I’m sorry for causing so much trouble in the past month. I had a few ideas for improving the popularity of the company and artists, but as it seems I was wrong about the theme of this company. As you all know, I worked at GX company before becoming the CEO here and this was the way we did things there, so I thought I’d keep doing the same here as it worked there quite well. But if everyone is against it, I can’t do anything but let you have your own way. There will still be changes, but I won’t force the artists to be involved in rumors or to wear things they don’t feel comfortable with. As for the producers and staff, we will have meetings separately to come to an agreement together so that we can all work in a peaceful environment and grow our company. I have always loved this place, so I don’t want it to be involved with any kind of lawsuit and most definitely I don’t wanna be the cause of it. So let’s just have a fresh start from this moment and forget about the things that have happened. Any objections?” The CEO looked around the hall, but no one said anything. Everyone seemed in thought. “Alright then. I think we’re done for now. I will ask the staff to meetings later on and I will have meetings with the artists and their managers separately. For now, you are all dismissed except for Aiden and Luis. Please come to my office after this.”

Everyone was looking at each other at the sudden turn of events. They all had thought they had to go through a tiring court case and all, but now it seemed that the crazy CEO had come to his senses.

They went to the guy’s office as asked.

“So Aiden, uh, I’m kind of sorry for forcing the rumor on you. As I said, it’s how we did things at the GX.”

“But why would you do that, really? And how did the artists accept such a thing?!”

The ceo shrugged. “Publicity. And the artists were mostly willing to do it cos it meant more articles and more popularity, so…” He paused. “Anyways, as you have ended yet another successful world tour, and you’ve been resting for a while, I fixed you a schedule for the next half of the year. You will be appearing on TV shows and will perform on the award shows by the end of the year. Also, you should start working on a new digital. I sent your resume out to a few directors, I’m waiting for their reply. I want to cast you in some movies. But we will talk about whether you wanna do it or not once I hear back from the directors.”

“A-Acting?! But- but I’m not good at acting!” Aiden stuttered a bit, feeling perplexed.

“You are good enough, and if they decide to cast you, we’ll put you in acting classes.”

“Why wasn’t I told about this, though? Am I not his manager?” Luis said sarcastically.

“Of course you are. I just wanted to leave a good impression after everything. I don’t want us to have a bad relationship with each other. I want the company to be friendly, just like it’s always been.”

Luis smiled and nodded.

“Okay then, I sent you two an email of the set schedules. You’ll start the day after tomorrow. You can go now if you don’t have any questions.”

Looking at the schedule and getting dizzy at how busy and crazy it looked, a thought crossed his mind. Two days. He had two days to spend with Edwin before getting busy and being away again. And he wasn’t sure how he felt about it. On one hand, he loved busy schedules cos it meant he wasn’t wasting his time like he was doing the past week by doing absolutely nothing productive, but on the other hand, it meant he had to leave Edwin and only see him when he was able to which he doubted would be much. At that moment, he just wanted to go home and cuddle Edwin to death.