Dianthus Caryophyllus; A Soonhoon Fic 07

It was almost midnight. The younger ones were sent back to the dorms, with the 97 liners in charge. Jeonghan hyung kept pestering me to go home too, seeing how I had to help jihoon before the ambulance came and I was clearly worn out from dancing beforehand but I shook my head. I want to wait till he wakes up to reassure myself that he was okay and would not leave us anytime soon. 

Moments later, a doctor walked out.

“Who is here for Lee Jihoon?”

“We are.” Coups hyung replied.

“Ok, do any of you know how long he has been suffering from hanahaki?”

“Around 6 weeks.” Jeonghan Hyung answered.

“For hanahaki which has started only 6 weeks ago, his condition is quite severe. This is quite uncommon. This means that he probably has extremely strong feelings for whoever he likes or the feelings have been around for very long but he did not realise it. Currently, his condition is stable and we understand as you guys are an idol group, we will keep it under wraps, but if something similar happens, please send him back into the hospital.”

We nodded in reply.

“Also, do try to convince him to get the surgery if there is no way the person will like him back as this will only continue to harm him, especially physically. It would also be better if he does not perform or do ay sort of promotional activities for a while, until he gets the surgery or recovers.”

“Thank You. Can we see him now?”

“Yes, he is awake, but do be careful. He will have to stay here for a few days for observation.” We bowed to the doctor as he took his leave.

“Hey jihoon,” the other 5 of them said as they stepped into the room. I however, stood at the back, and could only watch the blood drip attached to his left arm and the oxygen mask he was wearing. It brought back very very very dark memories. I suddenly felt as if I was the one lying there, flowers blooming in my chest and a blood drip attached to me. I started panicking but tried to kept it to myself and not let the rest find out as I hid in the shadows.

“Hoshi, you ok?” I heard jeonghan hyung walk over and wrap me in his arms as he found me in the shadows, silent. He knew what was probably triggering me and I was glad he was there. But then, jihoon realised I was in the room and looked at me eye to eye which was probably the worst thing ever.

“Soonyoung…” I heard him say as Jeonghan hyung nudged me over to where he was. I walked over and sat on the bed next to him.

“Hey…” I heard the door click shut, signaling the others left us alone.

“I’m sorry…”

“Sorry for what? There’s nothing that you should be sorry for.”

“Sorry for shouting at you that day…I-I know you only want to h-help m-me…”

“Shhh issok hoonie” I brought his knuckles to my lips and kissed them softly, tenderly.

“Have you made up your mind?”

He shook his head. 

I nodded my head. I understood him but the only way to not suffer was to do the surgery.

“Are you considering the surgery?”

“I am, because I may have no choice. B-But I-I don’t want to. I wont be able to feel these feelings if I do.”

“Why doesn’t him love you back hoonie, you know you are so perfect…He should love you back no?” 

“I-I dont want to talk about this hyung…”

“I’m sorry”

We fell silent, but it was not as comfortable as before. I watched him raise his hand to rub his eye before yawning.

“Its late, you should sleep. Have a good rest, I’ll visit you again tomorrow.” I pressed my lips on his knuckles, planting yet another soft kiss before tucking him in and walking out of the door.