Dianthus Caryophyllus; A Soonhoon Fic 16 (final)

As the closet door under the staircase slammed shut, everyone started talking at the same time.

“Hyung! That was so cruel!”

“Shhhhhhhhh Dk, its time they did this.” Jeonghan said.

“Wait why didn’t you start the timer shua?” Scoups asked.

“We don’t need to.” Jeonghan explained. “This game was for them anyways. Their constant pining is annoying . Give them however long they want to have a talk in there and maybe even make out.” Jeonghan smirked

Everyone was shocked at Jeonghan’s words. He did harsh things in truth or dare games, but this was probably by far the worst. But everyone wanted it too. They too are annoyed with the 2 constantly pinning and wanted them to get together. 

“Tsk. Hyung that was so out of the plan.” Dino whispered into Jeonghan’s ear after things started to quieten down. 

“Nope, that was just part B of my Plan A. Now its just to see if it works, otherwise plan B shall be implemented.”

“HYUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Dino groaned.

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We were in a dark closet under the staircase. They must have planned it. There was just enough space to keep my injured leg straight. He was huddled in the corner closest to the door, legs to his chest, arms around his legs and face buried. He seemed aloof. Weird.

“Ji, what’s wrong?” I moved myself next to him, carefully moving my hand around his shoulder and letting his head rest in my chest.

“I-I…”

“You?… You know you can tell me anything ji. I won’t get angry…”

“I-I’m s-sorry I-I did not tell you this and for everything I-I did. When you were in a coma, Jeonghan hyung and dino gave me the letter you wrote. I’m sorry for scolding you f-for t-trying to help me. I-I’m s-sorry I w-wasn’t there for y-you…. I’m sorry I-I did not find out 6 years ago… I-I…” He started rambling out, tears welling up in his eyes.

“shhhhhh… Its fine. Its over already. I already underwent the surgery, I cannot reverse it but I don’t regret ever loving you, don’t think its your fault ok.”

“B-But it is… If I-I liked you earlier t-t-then…” 

My eyes widened at the statement. So I am the one who caused his hanahaki. Dino was right. Fate really had to make us be the cause of each other’s worse nightmare huh and cause each other to get their heart broken.

“I-I think I started liking you not long after you took the surgery but I-I don’t know… I-I can’t help feeling that I-I c-caused y-you to n-not feel anything romantic anymore.”

“Its not your fault. I did not wait for you. You should get the surgery still ji…”

“I-I rather die soonie, I don’t want to be ripped of the feelings.”

“Why do you want to go through so much sufferings for me?!”

Hot tears were streaming down both of our faces as we stayed together in the dark closet, opening our heart up to each other, revealing our unhealing wounds and our deepest darkest secrets. 

“B-But you went through it for me too.”

“B-But I-I was a coward, I-I did the surgery.”

“No, that’s brave. Its brave to take away your feelings.”

“But I was afraid of dying.”

A silence soon followed. It was slightly uncomfortable. 

“Ji, even though I know you don’t want to do the surgery you only have a few more months before you are going to succumb to the disease. I don’t know how I’m going to live without you. It feels like the air is cut off my lungs and I’m drowning when I already see you in bad shape because of the illness. If you are gone… I-I won’t b-be able t-to h-hold u-up… If I could I would love you more than I did 6 years ago…”

Whatever I wanted to say was interrupted as I felt him smash his lips onto mine. I had always wanted to feel his lips against mine, those pink lips that felt soft against my cheek. I had thought that without the feelings in me anymore, I would hate this feeling of his lips on mine. But I loved it. The butterflies in my stomach started moving faster and faster as my lips started to move along with his, slowly, but surely. Channeling all the unsaid feelings I had 6 years ago to him and of the guilt of the decision, while he himself channeled all the unsaid feelings of love, adoration, he had for me. 

We pulled back after awhile, breathless, but the wounds in our heart had finally healed. 

“I can’t love you ji, but I don’t know why, butterflies are in my stomach again. If I actually love you again, can we…”

“Yes soonie, I would love to.” 

He gave me another peck on my lip as me basked in each other’s warmth, staying in the closet in a comfortable silence. 

AND SO WE ARE DONE WITH THE FIC!

This fic is my 4th and only complete fic. whoops. This was extremely hard to write especially since I started it during exam period and I had to sneak writing on my computer so that my parents would not scold me. The angst was also hard to write as what I wanted to show, I did not know if my readers would understand. 

I posted a bonus chapter on woozi’s birthday, 22 november 2020. It’s the next chapter.

Thank you for reading till the end! I love you guys!