Jays POV:
I’d be lying if said I’m not worried about Asher, I’m fucking worried sick about him. But then again I’m always anxious about the boy, every fucking day he’s on my mind. I’m well aware that I have almost no clue what he’s been through, words can only tell so much. I can see how hurt he is, I have no idea what goes through his head every second of the day, I know I cant even come close to understanding. But I care if I don’t understand it completely, because I’m going to help him no matter how long that takes.
I try to keep his mood up since this morning, try to keep smile on his face. I don’t force to much food on him for breakfast and we carpool to school. I love seeing him smile, seeing him laughter at my off key singing to the songs on the radio. We get to school and start our hell.
The classes seem to just take an eternity to pass, every second felt like an hour I swear! Thankfully my free period rolls around the corner and I text Amy to meet me in the library as usual.
“Hey! So whats the tea?”She perks up as she comes to sit next to me, her eager eyes instantly trained on me.
“who said there was tea?”I tease her, awarding me a very hard punch to my arm.
“Shut the fuck up and tell me.”She snaps at me while I rub my now injured arm
“jeez woman what the hell! Why are you so violent!?”I complain, she just gives me a blank stare.
“ok, ok. It’s about Asher, I’m scared about him. He didn’t sleep last night, like at all I don’t think. And I although he seems happy most of the time I know somethings wrong, there’s something up but he won’t tell me and I have no idea what to do. I want to help him but I don’t even know the problem.” I explain
“Well there isn’t really much you can do about it, if he won’t tell you now then you have to trust him to tell you when he’s ready. And until then you just do what ever you can to make that a little easier for him.”she tells me with a sympathetic smile.
“okay, thank you. Seriously I don’t know what I would do with out you.”I complement, which is probably not a good idea.
“probably die, honestly I have no idea how you went on with life before me.”
“very funny.”I scoff and we both start laughing, earning many shushes from other people using the library.
We get home from school and I tell Asher to go up to my room and that I’ll be up soon, he’s confused but reluctantly agrees. As soon as he’s out of sight I tell Lily to keep him company for a while, she agrees with out a second though
“Oh and one more thing, just try to refrain from cursing too much or touching him “I instruct after her, she gives me a skeptical look but agrees before sprinting off up the stairs. Then I commence my plan. Grabbing every available blanket and pillow in the house, which is a ridiculous amount and everything else I need I start to set it up fast as I can.
I finally finish my master price, well sorta, its the best I can do. I go back to my room to see Asher sitting on the bed and Lily sitting on the floor on the opposite side of the room. I hear mom calling for dinner so with out a word Lily smiles and walked past me out the room. I walk over to Asher and kiss him on the lips quickly before taking his hand a leading him down the stairs to the food. The table like most days now, is dead silent and the air is thick. My mom sits at the head of the table and I don’t spear her a glance. Lily sits opposite me while Asher is beside me, holding my hand under the table. I can feel his uneasiness in his firm grip of his tiny hand. I rub my thumb over his white knuckles in reassurance as the dinner goes on. Eventually we finish our food and excuse ourselves from the table to head back to my room, but I don’t plan on staying there for very long.
I rush into the room and grab the maze runner book then lead him back out and through the house, he looks completely lost through all this but follows along mindlessly. We get to the balcony doors and I pull them open to revel the little fort I had built, the floor completely covered with big bulky blankets and pillows. The warm coloured fairy lights hung loosely around the balcony and hung up sheets proving little light since its still quite light out. I turn to look at Asher who just stares at in with wide eyes in marvel.
“you like it?”I question and he’s quick to vigorously nod his head as a smile brighter than I have ever seen spread across his face, filling me with joy I never knew existed.
“I-I love i-it”he breathes, he turned to me,I take his head in my hands and my lips meet his. I can feel his smile against the kiss and try to lead us to the balcony but we end up just falling and landing on the soft blankets, our lips never leaving each other. We eventually pull apart Asher’s giggles fills the air and its the most heavenly sound I’ve ever heard. I pull him up and we make our selves comfortable with me sitting mostly up right and Asher sitting perfectly between my legs with his head resting on my chest. I grab the book and hold it in front of us, for a moment he frowns and pouts at me, clearly not wanting to read, but soon gives in after a few words and kisses here and there, so he starts to read.
Like last time I can’t keep the grin from my face with pride the entire time he reads. Yes he may struggle, and it may take him a while, but he dose it and I couldn’t help but admire who amazing he is, how he’s still pushing and trying. After a chapter he finishes and I set the book aside, pulling him in for a well deserved kiss that he happily responds to.
“your really amazing you know that.”I whisper and his face turned red almost instantly. He sits back down in my arms and silence falls over us, but not awkward silence, no this is peaceful. Just sitting here with Asher in my arms staring at the ever sparkling stars above. It was the definition of perfect. The sight of the beautiful sky above, the feel of him in my arms, the smell of his natural berries and wood sent, the taste of his lips still lingering on mines, it just feels so right.
“Asher.”I call out breaking the silence but not the peace. He hums in reply so I continue.
“can I ask you a question.”He turned around in my lap and sits up to face me, confusion and curiosity clear as day.
“W-will you….” I have to take a breath to calm my nerves
“….will you do me the honour of being my boyfriend?” I finally ask. He doesn’t respond, his face blank and emotionless sending waves of fear though me. But all the fear is eradicated when he finally breaks in realisation. Â His face lighters up like fucking Christmas with the worlds most beautiful smile, his eyes so full of excitement.
“Y-yes! Yes I-I w-will be your b-boyfriend!!”He lets out a shriek before his body is flung onto mine and his arms wrap around my neck in seconds, our lips smash together in eagerness and excitement. His hands find my hair he’s so obsessed with and his mouth moves in time with mine as he lets my tongue slip past his lips. I explore his warm moist mouth and let out and unintentional moan as he starts sucking on my tongue. We eventually pull apart breathless, somehow we ended up laying down with him above me somewhere during that make out session. He rests his head on my chest and breathlessly laughs, and I soon join in.
His gorgeous, innocent, slightly mis matched eyes stare up at me as his head lays in his hands on my chest.
“Th-thank you.”He whispers as his eyes slowly attempt to close, yet he fighters them.
“your very welcome my prince. I told you I’m always going to be here did you think I was lying?”I comment and he lets out a small chuckle as a yawn escapes his mouth -no lie I literally yawned when I wrote that-
“you can go to sleep, I’m not going anywhere.”I whisper softly and he just barley nods his head, his eyes instantly falling shut. Only minutes later he’s fast asleep, his entire tiny body draped across the top of mine. Â The warm lights reflecting on his perfect features that look so tranquil and peaceful, and I smile. I slip out my phone quickly a take a photo to treasure this moment. He may be struggling right now but I swear in going to make all his demands go away, and I will always protect him not matter what.
“I love you.”I whisper into his ear knowing he cant hear and kiss the top of his head. Wrapping my arms around his body firmly, keeping him safe while I fall asleep too.
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