WARNING: Sexual Content! MXM Action (might be a bit graphic for some readers and might be lacking for some 😛 remember you’ve been warned)
Ciaran opened the windows to allow the fresh air into the room. We didn’t open any light, the moon and the stars provided enough glow for us to perfectly see each other.
After cleaning up by the well outside the cabin Ciaran led me inside. Both of us opted to leave our clothes off. Once inside we stood in the middle of the room, a foot from one another, and for a while did nothing but look.
Ciaran’s body is gloriously male. He has well toned muscles. His shoulders, arms, chest, abs, the line of his hips and legs everything about him screams strength. The tattoos that covered the right side of his body only made him look stronger, more formidable. More beautiful in my eyes.
I took a step forward and reach out to touch the image inked on left side of his chest, a mirror image of the one I have on my skin.
“When did you have this done?” I’ve seen this tattoo before, the first time I came to this cabin. The day he marked me. But I didn’t get the chance to ask him when he had it made.
“The day after our fight about Jean coming to Moonscape.” He answered. “I needed something that could connect me to you.”
I nodded and took another step closer tracing the artistic lines and curves. I stopped when I heard Ciaran gasp as I accidentally brushed his nipple.
Ciaran crossed the last step that brought our bodies flush against each other. He slowly traced the line of my face before capturing my lips for a deep, heated kiss.
He pushed me backward until I gently hit the wall. His hands travelled down my arms, capturing my wrists before he brought it up over my head and holding it there with his hand. He wedged his leg in between mine completely trapping me by the wall with body. In this position I’m completely at his mercy.
There must be something wrong with me. I should be feeling intimidated, I was too open and Ciaran clearly has the upper hand but instead I feel excited, anticipating what he would do next.
“Are you afraid?” Ciaran whispered as he kissed me behind my ears.
“No,” I managed to croak out.
He smiled, “Good.” Then proceeded to trail kisses down my neck and shoulder.
He arrived at the spot where he marked me and slowly lapped it with his tongue.
I couldn’t suppress the moan that escaped in between my lips as shots of electricity coursed deliciously through my entire body. I could feel Ciaran smile as he did it again and again, earning more cries from me.
After that he turned his attention to my chest. He traced the character in the center of my chest with his tongue before coming up look me in the eyes.
“I know why you had that made,” he said. “At first I didn’t like it there but now that I have some time to think about it, I’m glad. It’s more than just a symbol. It’s a reminder that I have a lot of things I have to make up to you. I still can’t believe you’re with me after everything I’ve done to you…”
I tugged at my hands and he immediately let me go. I cupped his face in between my hands and brought it closer to mine.
“You’ve more than made up for everything Ciaran, by telling me you love me.” I said staring into his eyes. “We can’t undo the past what we can do is create a better future. And we’d build it together. You and me. It’ll always be us.”
I closed in for a kiss and tangled my hands on his hair, softly massaging his scalp. Ciaran’s hands were everywhere, tracing the line of my body. He bent down to kiss my chest, scraping his teeth across my nipple. He lightly bit down before lapping it with his tongue. He turned to other doing the same while slightly twisting the one he left behind between his thumb and forefinger.
After teasing my nipples and turning me into a boneless mess, he moved lower tracing the line of my abs and hips before completely kneeling before me.
“Ciaran?” I asked when I felt his hand wrap around my swollen member.
“I want to worship you Ruari,” he said. His warm breath fanned the head of my shaft making my need for him rise to a new high. “Please let me…”
His moist tongue darted out and touched the slit, licking off the pearly white bead that formed from his insistent teasing. He rubbed his hand from the tip to the base before covering the head with his warm mouth.
“Agh!” I moaned as he started to suck up and down.
At first he was doing it slow, making me feel the movements if his lips and tongue. As he goes he started to get bolder, increasing his pace and intensity. He’s now pumping his hand by the base in tune with the movements of his mouth while his other hand is caressing my inner thighs.
My knees buckled when Ciaran purposely looked up and met my lust-clouded eyes. He lifted one of my legs anchoring it on his shoulder and supporting me with his hands and arm firmly on my side. I grabbed on to his hair and threw my head back as screaming as Ciaran continued his assault to my senses.
“Ciaran…” I called. “Ciaran I’m gonna… let go… let go!”
I tried pulling at his hair so he’d release me but instead of letting go he took me in deeper and I could feel stars exploding on the back of my eyes as I came inside his mouth. He swallowed every drop before licking me clean.
Even though my lust-filled brain could barely function at the moment it didn’t escape my notice that Ciaran just gave me a fantastic head, deep throated me and to top it all off he swallowed! I can’t believe he did all that for me.
“You’re crazy…” I panted as he stood up wiping his mouth with the back of his hand and giving me mischievous grin.
“Only for you,” he whispered. “Would you be grossed out if I kiss you right now. You’re so beautiful at the moment I don’t think I can stop myself from completely devouring you.”
Instead of answering him I grabbed his hair and harshly pulled his head down to give him a deep kiss. I could taste myself in his mouth but that only made it more erotic, feeling his essence mixed with mine is a complete turn on. Gad I’m such a pervert!
Ciaran led me to the bed and started worshipping my whole body. He’s an expert in finding spots that makes me scream with pleasure. I don’t know how he did it but after a very short time, I was rock hard again.
I whimpered when he suddenly moved off me to get something from the nightstand. I jumped when I felt his slick fingers touch my back entrance coating it with something.
“I don’t have proper lube right now so we’re using body lotion,” he said. “Are you okay?”
I nodded and he slowly inserted a finger inside me. I almost balked at the intrusion but Ciaran properly lubricated me so there was not much friction.
He kept moving his finger in and out at a constant motion. He leaned down, kissing my neck and chest, and teased my nipples with his errant tongue as he added another finger.
“Ugh!” I gasped.
“Just breathe…” he cooed before biting down on my lobe making me forget about the fingers now scissoring inside me and stretching my entrance.
He added more lotion as he added another finger. I feel like I’m stretched to the limit then all of a sudden Ciaran’s finger hit something inside me that made me scream out loud.
“Ah finally found it…” He smiled hitting the same spot over and over making me quite delirious.
“Ciaran! Ciaran!” I chanted. “Please… please…”
He turned me over and lifted my hips up in the air keeping my upper body down on the bed. I feel so open and vulnerable in front of him but I guess this position would be easier for me since this is my first time. I looked back as he coated my entrance with more lotion before lubricating himself.
“I’m sorry. This might hurt…” He whispered as he nudged at my entrance. He slowly pushed forward and I felt like I was splitting in two. Damn he’s huge!
Once he got part way in he leaned forward and kissed the back of neck and ear.
“Don’t bite your lips love,” he whispered gently. “Breathe… That’s right,”
I opened my mouth and timed my breathing with his thrusts. It took a while before he could push himself half way. I had tears in my eyes by then and I could feel him shivering behind me.
“Does it hurt too much?” He asked. “Do you want me to stop?”
“NO!” I cried out. “Please don’t leave…”
He withdrew a little before pushing more inside. We continued with the slow rhythm of push and pull until he hit that spot again allowing him to fully slide inside me.
“Gad you’re so tight…” He groaned as he stilled inside me, allowing my body to get accustomed to his girth.
Once I felt like the pain is ebbing I experimentally moved my hips making Ciaran groan out loud.
“Ah love…” He started through gritted teeth. I could feel his control snapping. “I don’t think you should do that unless that’s a signal for me to move.”
I love the sound of his voice when he’s trying to hold himself back. So I did it again and again. Ciaran growled and slowly withdrew before sliding back into me again. He kept on hitting the same spot he found earlier and after a while his pace increased until he was slamming into me with long, hard, powerful thrusts.
“I want to see you…” I panted clawing at the bed. “Ciaran, I want to see you!”
He quickly withdrew from me and turned me over to face him. I spread my legs wide as he settled himself in between them before sliding home, inside me again. He grabbed the back of my legs and lifted them high and wide before thrusting forward.
“Ah! Ahng!” My voice sounded so different and so perverted in my ears so I bit down on my lip to keep myself from crying out.
“Let it out love,” Ciaran urged as he continued to slam into me. “I want to hear you.”
He leaned forward releasing one of my legs and taking my hand in his bringing it above my head. He kissed me thoroughly, sucking on my tongue and tangling it with his.
“I love you Ruari…” He whispered on my lips as his other hand went in between our bodies to pump my shaft. “I love you…”
I grabbed his head in between my hands forcing him to look at me.
“I love you…” I said looking deep into his eyes. “I love you so much.”
Ciaran buried his face on my neck, scraping his teeth on the sides before licking his mark. My arms immediately went around him to keep him closer. I felt his canines touch my skin and my nails dig on his back when I felt him bite down on the same spot where he marked me.
I screamed as I climaxed from his bite. Ciaran moaned deep in his throat as finished with me. I could feel his hot release shooting deep inside me and that sensation pushed me to another orgasm. Ciaran collapsed on top of me and I wrapped my legs around him to keep him from moving.
I was starting to doze off when I felt him trying to get off me, so I tightened my hold on him.
“I’m not going anywhere,” he chuckled. “Let’s switch positions. I feel like I’m crushing you.”
We rolled over with him lying flat on his back and me molded to his side and over his chest and our legs tangled together.
“I’m sorry if it hurt a lot in the beginning. There was no going around it,” he said tracing lazy circles on my back.
“You can do anything you want with me. Everything is fine as long as you like it and you feel good doing it.” I answered resting my head just above his heart and inching closer to his body. “It’s all okay because I love you.”
It’s not just about making love. Ciaran could mess me up any way he likes and it would all be alright, I would always forgive him not just because he’s my mate and he’s mine but because I love him. I want him to be happy. I want him to have everything I could give him and more.
“You’re too good for me…” He said kissing my forehead.
We grew silent after a while and I debated whether I should tell him what I decided before he followed me here or just leave it for now since I don’t think I’d be leaving after all, not after what happened tonight.
But Ciaran seemed to be full of surprises tonight.
“When do you leave?” He asked silently.
I stiffened because I never expected him to be so calm when we talk about my leaving for the royal court. Actually, I was hoping we won’t have to talk about it tonight. But then we both know the sooner we get things done the sooner we could move on. I could postpone my departure but the fact remains that I would still have to leave. And the more I delay the harder it would be.
“In the morning.” I answered raising my head from his chest so I could look at his face.
Damn! He really has a good poker face. I can’t read anything from his expression and his mind seemed to be blank as well since we’re currently connected and I can’t hear anything but echoes of my own thoughts.
“I could come with you.” He offered and I sat up to properly look and face him.
If I asked him, Ciaran would leave with me without a second thought. I know that. But asking him to go to court would mean abandoning his pack. Our pack.
“I know but you’re needed here.” I said. Why is it that we always have to do what’s best for everyone and can’t think of just us?
I want Ciaran to come with me but I don’t know on what state I’d find the royal court in or how much time I’d need to fix things there. Moonscape is more important right now. There are people who’re depending on us for guidance and we can’t both leave.
“The pack is rebuilding and we can’t abandon them.” But a small part of me wishes to be selfish. Why can’t I? Why can’t we?
“I know…” Ciaran answered sadly cupping my face with his hand. “Who’re going with you?”
“Kevan, Sorell and Harkin.” I turned my face to plant a kiss on his palm before covering his hand with my own. “I was thinking of taking Bran and Prior. I thought they could be my messengers to travel here and there. But they’re needed more here and they have to stay for Jean and Cale.”
Ciaran raised an eyebrow at the mention of Jean. “Jean didn’t put up a fuss when you told her you’re leaving?”
“She doesn’t know yet,” I confessed. “But I can’t take her with me, not right now. Aside from being human I’m afraid they’d try to hurt her to get to me. She’d understand why I have to go and I’m sure she’d rather wait here, with the pack, than anywhere else. You’d be good to her?”
“Do I have a choice?” He teased and I smacked him lightly on the shoulder. “Of course I will. She’d probably be a major pain in neck while you’re away but she’d be Bran’s problem not mine. And don’t worry about Cale, I’ll look after him.”
I nodded and paused for a while before he asked, “What about Lorcan? Doesn’t he want to go with Kevan?”
I sighed and shook my head. “I don’t really know what’s going on with those two but it doesn’t seem like he’s going with us.”
He nodded in understanding and we grew quiet again. This time the atmosphere feels heavy and I know this is it, the time has come for us to say goodbye.
“You’d be safe won’t you?” Ciaran said worriedly. He gently traced the line of my face like he’s trying to memorize every line and detail. I spied a tear slide down his cheeks when he asked, “You’d come back to me, right?”
“I could stay,” I choked out feeling my own tears stream out. “Just tell…”
Ciaran didn’t let me finish what I was about to say. He grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me down to him, sealing my lips with his.
He kissed me deeply, passionately. He kissed me like his life depended on it. He kissed me like it was our last kiss…
“Don’t give me that option Ruari,” he breathed out harshly. Desperately. “I’m too selfish to be given that and I might just you up on your offer.”
“Ciaran…”
I know he’s being strong for me but he asks me to stay I would. Just one word out of him and I’d forsake everything.
The royals could easily find another king to fill the throne. I know it’s irresponsible but there’s nothing more important to me than Ciaran. He says he’s selfish but I think I’m more selfish than him. I could easily give up everything for him. And I could fuck everyone if it meant I get to have in my life.
Between the two of us I know Ciaran is more scared of this separation than I am. At least I know for certain where he’d be and who he’s going to be with. I know that he’d be safe here surrounded by the pack.
All Ciaran knows is where I’m going. He doesn’t know what I’d find when I get there and the only people I could trust are Kevan, Sorell and Harkin. I’m not crowned as the alpha king yet and already I’m facing an angry mob of royals, a group of high-handed council members, mutiny from the packs and perhaps a war against Meinor’s side of the family. Not to mention, I’d meet my father for the first time in 21 years.
I have my work cut out for me and through all these I’d have to venture out there alone and stand against opposing forces without Ciaran by my side.
“You’d do good. In fact, you’d be more than good. You’d be great!” He said planting kisses all over my face and I could feel his tears melting with my own. “I don’t care how long just promise me you’d come back. And if you need me, for absolutely anything, just send a word and I’d be there in a heartbeat.”
“I love you so much Ciaran…” I whispered by his lips. “I promise I’d come back to you.”
“That’s all I needed to hear,” he smiled giving me one last kiss…
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