Absolutely Yours 28

Arthit’s POV    

I woke up the next day feeling lightheaded.

I wasn’t able to get enough sleep because my thoughts wouldn’t let me.

There were lots of questions, I wasn’t sure of the answers. 

Why I acted the way I acted last night? 

It was wrong yet it felt so right. 

I let him kissed me, twice. 

What is wrong with me? 

Last time I checked, I am in love with Sahit. 

Is it was now? 

I don’t think about her that much recently. Moreover, it doesn’t hurt thinking about my unrequited love. 

On the other hand,  Kong’s confession last night overwhelmed me. 

Second guessing what he felt was one thing but knowing what he truly felt was something. 

It disturbed me inside. 

Do I like Kong? 

No.

No.

Impossible.

I shook my head.

I am a man.

For ef’s sake. 

Then what is this I feel for Kong?  

Why does he affect me so much?

Why am I unconsciously concern about his opinion of me?

Why?

Why?

Is it…

love? 

No!

Definitely not.

If I didn’t I should have stopped him. 

It was just the right time and place to kiss. 

The situation called for it so I responded to his kisses. 

That’s all there is to it. 

I am definitely just grateful of his kindness towards me.

Something inside me disagreed in my own conclusion.

Last night,  Kong and I hugged for I didn’t know how long.

He didn’t talk so do I. 

We let the silence of the night enveloped us.

It was so quiet that the only sound we heard was that of from our hearts – beating as one.

Prem and Bright arrived shortly after claiming they were sleepy.

Kong silently went out of our tent and I followed him with a glance.

I was up the entire night.

My thoughts were louder than my friends’ snore, thinking about Kong and our situation at hand.

My mind was agonizing over a lot of things.

There were questions I couldn’t even put into words for I know answers aren’t easy to find.

“Are you okay? ” coach asked me.  “You look pale. “

“Yeah, can I move to a different tent tonight? I don’t think I’d be able to survive the night again with them. ” I tried so hard to make it sound believable because I just couldn’t tell the real reason.

“Yes,  you may. If you can find a space in others. ” he casually said.

I didn’t expect coach to take it seriously for I just thought of it as an excuse so he wouldn’t ask further.

I shrugged my shoulder. “Okay, thanks coach. You’re surprisingly easy to convince.” I teased him. He would normally say no for the sake of saying no or just to make fun of us. 

“I am sometimes nice. ” he joked.

I chuckled then gave off an impression that I wasn’t buying it.

He let out a soft laughter.

As soon as I finished my cup of coffee, everyone arrived by group from their tents in the kitchen.

I initially saw Kong with Ton but when he caught me eyeing him. He distanced himself from Ton and walked behind M and Ton instead.

I pouted to hide a smile. 

I panicked when I saw him walked towards me. 

What do you say to someone you just kissed? 

“Hi!”?

“Yo”?

Should I act like nothing ever happened?

Shit. 

My heart rate was so fast.

Looking at his face, I don’t think he would ever let it go just like that.

I failed to come up with what to do so I abruptly went to Knot with the others instead.

I was obviously avoiding him but I hope he won’t think that I was.

I can’t face him, at least not yet. 

He stood still in his place. I don’t want to meet his gaze.

Why are you acting like a girl, Arthit?

I sighed heavily.

I saw him in my peripheral vision strode towards the table along with the freshman and M. 

“I had a hard time sleeping last night.” I heard Bright commented.

“Hard time, my ass.” I snickered. He had his head on the table and moved a little so I could sit beside him.

“You kept on tossing and turning last night, how would I be able to have a beauty rest with that?” he complained.

“I wasn’t,” I vehemently denied. “Besides, you both were snoring so annoyingly loud so I should be the one to be complaining here.”

“I never snore.” Prem commented, yawning.

“Yeah,  right. ” I stole a glance at Kong. 

He was eating his breakfast with a long face. 

I felt guilty  for it. 

Why should you care?

I have no idea what to do in this kind of situation. 

I’ve never been in a relationship. Yes, I fell in love once but it was never relayed to the other person. 

So I am clueless to these things. 

To these feelings. 

It was like I didn’t want to hurt him and at the same time I have no idea what to do to spare him with it. 

I sighed deeply. 

What have I gotten myself into? 

Our training started with warm ups led by coach.

Then a series of well-planned physical activities were done afterwards to improve our stamina. 

He made us run up and down the slope of the mountain to develop our leg strength.

It was strenuous but fulfilling at the same time. Knowing coach, he wouldn’t let us do things that aren’t beneficial both individually and as a team. 

Despite of him,  being so comical at times. He is very professional when it comes to his job.

While running up the mountain,  I saw Kong running after me. I panicked that I quickened my pace to catch up with the others. 

I knew it was futile but I wanted to delay things. 

I couldn’t face him yet. 

I am afraid I don’t have answers to whatever questions he has in mind. 

“Gather around,” coach demanded. “The next activity will be played by pair. It’s called mine field, this will develop your trust to your partner. So I want you to find a partner before I tell you the mechanics.”

Coach phone rang so he excused himself. “Excuse me, when I get back we will begin.” he roared then left.

Everyone hyped up, they seemed to be very excited for it. The others already found their partners.

“Arthit, you trust me right?”

“Nope,” I blatantly said. I was stealing glances at Kong nearby.

I was hoping he would try to ask me.

So much for wanting to avoid him. I taunted myself.

“Come on, man. I am more trustworthy compared to everyone here.”

I smirked. Prem already paired up with Knot so I knew we would have to do it together but I wanted to mess with him.

“Let’s be partners, Kong.” I faintly heard Ton said, he held Kong’s wrist to give emphasis.

“No!” I blurted out,  before I could stop myself.

I saw Kong’s lips twitched in amusement.

Shit. What the hell did I just do?

I caught his gaze and gave him a look as if saying “You’re having fun, huh? “

He just shrugged his shoulders and held my gaze as for if telling me, “It’s all on you.”

I pursed my lips and sighed deeply.

“Why?” Bright and Ton asked in chorus.

“Ha?” I felt uncomfortable because their attention was on me. “Be-because…. I think, I’m- it will be better if the seniors will play with the freshmen. Yes,  I think it’s better. ” I repeated, I was relieved to have found a reason when I needed it.

“That makes sense, okay. Ton and me,  you and Kong? ” a cheeky smile was on his face.

“What? No! “

“Ton and me, ” I turned to Kong. “You and Bright.”

There’s no way I would let you be paired with his clingy freshman.

“Why not you and me?” Kong queried.
I was taken aback with his question. I wasn’t sure if he meant to torture or punish me. “We can be good together, ” he added.

I almost choke at his last sentence.

I was speechless for a while. I bit my lips and showed him an annoyed look.

The amusement never left his eyes.

“Kong, don’t worry. You’re in good hands.” Bright gushed. “We’ll definitely win this one.”

“Okay, take a break! ” coach shouted. “This call is going to take longer than expected, we’ll resume in 30.” 

Everyone cheered in unison.

My eyes automatically looked for Kong. To my disappointment, he was already nowhere in sight. 

I walked towards our make-shift kitchen to get a bottled water and saw Kong walking out of it. 

It’s too late to walk away now so might as well continue.

As I was nearing him,  my heart won’t stop beating wildly.

I am just guilty for avoiding him.

I chanted in my mind.

I caught his gaze for a while and nodded then looked away.

He suddenly caught me by the elbow when we were parallel to each other. It brought a sudden surge of electricity in me. “Do you think you can avoid me just like that? “

Shit. I am so whipped.

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