Kongpob’s POV
“Kong? ” I was awaken by a familiar voice.
I scrunched my nose and scratched my eyes to see the person clearly.
“Arthit? ”
What am I doing here?
Then it all hit me.
“Chon, I’m sorry. We can no longer be together again. ” I told her when she tried to kiss me.
I dropped her off at her hotel and quickly made my way out when she tried to kiss me.
“Why? Is there someone else? ” she whispered, she was hurting I can tell.
I don’t want want be the cause of her pain but I am not the type to lie just to make someone feel better.
“Yes, ” I admitted.
“Who?” she asked at once.
“I have someone I love that’s all you have to know. ” I said candidly.
She sighed deeply. “Promise me, ” she sniffled. Tears are forming in the corner of her eyes. “if it doesn’t work out you will come back to me. “
I wiped the tears away from her eyes through my thumb. “I can’t, “
I don’t want to give her false hopes.
“Why? You won’t even give me an empty promise. ” she sulked, the sadness in her eyes was so apparent.
But she deserves my honesty.
“Because I’ll do anything to make it work. ” I replied.
“You like that person that much? ” she asked.
“I LOVE that person that much. ” I corrected her.
She smiled disappointedly. “Lucky bitch.” she whispered.
“You’ll find yours someday. “
“Kong, don’t. Don’t say something to try to make me feel better, just go. ” she shooed me away reluctantly.
“Take care. ” I left hurriedly afterwards.
I half ran and walked out of the hotel. I need to see Arthit. I don’t want him to have the wrong idea about Chon and me.
I tried to call him but my phone suddenly went off.
Fuck.
I went to the university where I left them but only to find they weren’t there anymore.
I decided to just go to his place in the end, thinking he might have gone home.
I hope.
When I knocked on his door, nobody was answering.
Shit.
Where is he?
I decided to wait for him and sat by the door.
I need to see him and explain things.
I was very uneasy but it may be due to exhaustion I fell asleep waiting for him.
“This is a doorway, not your bedroom. ” I snapped out of my thoughts upon hearing Arthit’s voice. His tone was cold, it got me agitated.
I was at a loss for words. I was trying to fathom the mood he was in.
When I looked at him, I was surprised.
Was it joy that flickered through his eyes?
Was I hallucinating?
But I feel the need to make him understand, I don’t want him mad at me.
I could feel that I am slowly getting through his heart and I don’t want whatever happened earlier ruin it.
“Chon is just a friend. I just need to drop her at her hotel but I drove my way here quickly after. ” Please believe me, I chanted in my mind over and over again.
He didn’t answer. He opened his door and entered.
His quietness scared the shit out of me.
I hesitated if I should come in so we could both talk after we have taken a rest but before I could come up with anything – I felt his hand seized mine and pulled me in.
I let him guide me inside.
At that moment, I felt something incomprehensible.
I felt like with that touch, we were able to send a message across each other.
It made me so happy that my heart felt like exploding.
His hand was warm so I laced my fingers on his and stared at it.
The feeling was indescribable. Yes, we kissed but I never thought a simple touch like holding hands could make someone feel so euphoric.
I felt his hand on my cheek. I gazed at him and our eyes met. “I’m glad you’re here. ” he shyly said.
So do I. I thought.
I was overjoyed.
When he tried to break free, I held him even tighter.
I needed him close to me.
I needed to touch him.
To feel him.
I was afraid that I lost my chances.
Arthit is so very difficult to read.
I gave my best effort not to smile but failed miserably.
“I’ll always be here whenever you want me to. I’ll always follow you. “
When he smiled back at me, I felt like our heart were so connected.
My heart calmed down.
We understood each other without the need for words.
Our hearts spoke when our lips failed to.
I am so in love with Arthit.
I am going to make him mine.
It sent a strong feelings in me.
When he leaned on me when I was left standing in front of him after he pulled me along with him to his bed, I couldn’t help but ask to myself what he was doing.
With his actions, I felt liked.
Liked?
I felt loved.
Loved?
Was he finally opening up to me now?
I might have sounded so confident at making him fall for me but I wasn’t really.
It was just a facade but I was certain I would stop at nothing to make him mine.
Did I finally get through his heart completely?
I can’t help but be extremely elated by the thought.
It seemed like my heart was filled with so much feelings I couldn’t contain them anymore.
I love him so much I can’t breathe.
He pulled me down to his bed without a warning so I was really taken aback.
I was about to ask him when he interrupted me. “Don’t talk. I’m tired. ” then he embraced me.
Yes, I think you are mine now.
Finally, mine.
When he had his arms around my waist and embraced me tightly. I felt like I was where I should be. – beside him.
There’s no better place but beside him.
“Hold me and don’t go. ” he asked.
I’m glad it was dark, he couldn’t see the water that’s forming in my eyes.
My heart felt like it’s going to explode with so much feelings for this person.
I turned around to face him.
I looked at Arthit. I stretched his arms to touch his face.
My man. I thought.
He buried his face at the crook of my neck and scooted in closer. I wrapped him in my arms.
He seemed felt relaxed and started to drift off.
At that moment I felt like, I could live like this forever with him.
Arthit is the person I want to protect with my life.
I want to love.
I gazed down at him as he was drifting away.
I love you.
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There you go.
My heart. My poor heart.
How was it?
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