Absolutely Yours 48

Kongpob’s POV

Arthit’s chocolate brown eyes slowly closed. As his consciousness ebbed, I mused.

While his sweet face laid against the pillow inches away from mine, I watched his chest rise and fall. He breathes softly in my face. I felt sleep was coming over me but I fought the urge to. I spurned to let this opportunity to watch him in his defenseless hours. 

I downright recall the first time we spent the night together, I realized he was a restless sleeper.. He moved around so often that I ended up keeping him steady and nuzzled him near me until he fell into a deep slumber in my arms. 

I used to think that I’d have to fight sleep and fight with everything I have whenever he was this close just to watch him sleep. But now I only have to fight the itch to trace his lips with my finger and kiss him senseless until he forgets sleeping entirely.

When we’ve became official, he turned into my everything. My world suddenly starts and ends with him. 

I could’t stop thinking about him. So it never mattered if I was free or not, I’d make way to squeeze myself in his busy schedules in-between classes. I didn’t know how he managed to dominate my thoughts but he did and he did it effortlessly. And to be honest, I am freaking scared but my fear was hushed instantly because it was nothing compared to how much Arthit meant to me.

He would rather die than admit that he wanted to be taken cared of, so I do it anyway.

He is lazy that he would rather starve himself than get up and eat. So when I couldn’t cook for him, I would order him breakfast or else he’d ignore it altogether.

He was grumpy at times and complained often so when he gave compliments, my heart welled up with joy for I know it was hard to come by. 

I smile when he smiles in his sleep and I dared hope I was the reason behind it. The way he furrowed his brows were too adorable, I couldn’t help but stole kisses which won’t be told and I wouldn’t dare confess for God knows he would say I’m creepy with his eyes rolling. I watched the way his eyelids skittered through his dreams. Arthit, indeed, has become my habit. My favorite kind of habit.

My face burned as he prowled closer and swaddled his arms around my waist unconsciously.

If I was doubtful before, now I felt loved by him. When I failed to check on him in the morning for he had beat me from getting up early, he would call me. My random excuses to spend lunch, breakfast and dinner with him didn’t add up but he believed them anyway. We haven’t pointed it out but we had develop this unspoken rule to see each other every day and he drops by my place when I couldn’t, spitting lame excuses but wanting to see me.

Arthit has a loving heart despite to what he wants others to believe of him. I don’t care about others not knowing or what they are going to say about us if they find out. I’ll always love him and stay by his side.

Words may fail us but I knew our hearts communicated well enough to fathom each other’s loving glances and body gestures.

I gave in and tilted to press myself lightly to his soft, red lips.

He opened his eyes and stared at me in confusion, blinking. Busted. I thought, “Do you often assault me like this in my sleep?” he asked in his half awake state.

My lips curled up,”Nope, just today.” Lie.

He rolled his eyes and made face. I knew it. My grin grew even wider.

He fixed his eyes on me, “Can’t sleep?”

“Nope, about to.” I bit my lower lip to keep myself from smiling again.

He pouted and scooted forward- resting his lips on my throat, his hair under my chin. His arm pulling me closer – our legs intertwined. Having him initiate the contact felt too good for words. After a searing few moments, I felt his breathing steadied against my skin. 

I couldn’t help but grin as I finally close my eyes and let myself succumbed into oblivion.

My hand stretched to reach for Arthit but it was empty when I woke up. I squinted and slowly opened my eyes, he wasn’t here indeed. His side of the bed was cold and undone.

I glanced at the clock beside me.

1:30 PM.

I got up and looked around, there I saw a note with a scribbled message in it..

I’ll be by the pool, be back soon. – Yours Arthit

I grinned toothily at it.

I am never clingy but I can’t wait for him to come down.

Breakfast by the pool might be a good idea.

With that in mind, I got off bed and called the cafeteria downstairs to have our breakfast delivered at Arthit’s room and I’ll bring it myself by the pool.

While waiting, I did the bed and cleaned his room. I knew he would endure the untidiness of his room just because his lazy to clean. Same with eating, unless he’s famished he wouldn’t eat when he is at home.

I did not wait long for the cafeteria to deliver the food, I whistled my way up  shortly after.

The pool was located in the 16th floor of the building. I stepped off the lift when the screen displayed that I reached the floor.

The smile left my face when I saw the pool was empty. I scanned the floor but I see no one.

Did we miss each other?

Has he gone down?

I decided to walk further thinking he might be in one of the shower stall.

As I went closer, I heard two people talking – a man and a woman. The man’s voice though it was vague, it was strangely familiar. My heart started to thumps faster. 

It was Arthit and… Sahit?

What are they doing?

Sahit was resting in Arthit’s embrace sobbing while he stroke her back up and down.

I wanted to speak but the words died down in my throat.

Then she looked up, their eyes met. I didn’t know who kissed who but their lips were pressed against each other.

My heart beat halt. The bag of breakfast fell from my hand, my energy drained.

My hands shaking.

“Kong, ” he mirrored my expression – flabbergasted. They both turned to me, Sahit’s make up running down her perturbed face.

I was stunned that I was in a haze. I couldn’t wrap my head around what I was seeing. I didn’t feel much but numbness. 

When the shock started to wear off and reality began to sink in. I had a terrible and extreme swings of emotions.

Confused.

Anger.

Betrayal.

And pain. It was indescribable. And it was only the beginning. It was suffocating me.

Arthit ran to me and held me as I was about to leave. I stopped on my track and slowly retracted his hand from my shoulder. “No, ” I smiled painfully. “Not yet. ” it was all I could muster.

I fear if I speak more I’d say things I’d regret and hurt him.

I couldn’t believe that the person I was willing to go to the end of earth just to see him smile, betrayed me.

I didn’t know how but I managed to run all I remember was putting my feet ahead of the other.

When I reached my car and drove somewhere I didn’t give a damn, it when it hit me. 

My tears fell and it blurred my vision so I had to stop.

I couldn’t stop myself from sobbing  and I hate it. I hit the steering wheel with my palms repeatedly hoping it would ache more than I feel now. But it didn’t work, it didn’t lessen the pain even for a bit. 

I was shattered.

I feel like I will never be fine again.

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I’m sorry guys.