Absolutely Yours 49

Arthit’s POV ..

The daybreak roused me up from my slumber, the luminescence and radiant brightness of the day trickled through my plain polyester curtains reminded me of a new day.

Bit by bit, I grudgingly opened my eyes and I couldn’t help but smile as I saw Kong’s face sound asleep adjacent to mine. Our legs entangled underneath the sheet, his arms around my waist and my head on his shoulder. 

Can we stay like this for always?

My heart can’t help but wish.

I snuggled closer to him and breathe him, it became my habit to reach for him whenever I was half asleep. I let my eyes feast on the man I deeply care for. It wasn’t often that I get to see him this close in broad daylight for I know he would come up with ideas to tease me If he sees me ogling at him. And even if I have thought of comebacks, he would always find a way to turn my words against me. It’s his talent I can never beat.

Even with his hair unkempt, I find him ravishing. His eyes skittered behind his lids, I find it amusing. His mouth slightly ajar, I find him irresistible. I must be weird but his steady light snore was music to my ears. 

We’re equally busy with schools and stuff but he always manage to squeeze me in his day. I may shoo him away but deep in me I’m glad to have him around. He is my first thought in the morning and my last at night. It sounds so cheesy but he dominated my mind and he did it effortlessly. And I hate to admit, I am afraid but the feeling I feel for him is strong enough to shake my fears away.

I sometimes feel that he is still insecure of how much I love him but in my own subtle way I hope I was able to make him feel secure. For I am his like he was mine. His excuses to spend meal time with me are the lamest and stupidest but I take them anyway, who cares I like spending time with him. I’ve learned to come up with equally lame excuses just to be with him, not admitting that I just wanted to see him but I know I was able to send the message across.

I would rather die than admit that I like the way he was taking care of me. I am lazy. He is thoughtful. I felt like I was made for him and he was for me by the way we complement each other.

I guess it goes without saying that I need not falling for I am utterly and absolutely in love with Kong.

As I leisurely gandered at him, I have thought: Damn, he’s so beautiful. 

My finger as if it has a mind of its own, traced Kong’s eyes as light as possible afraid I might wake him up for I wasn’t done yet treating myself of him. My eyes darted to his lips as it moved faintly, I couldn’t help but touched it. 

Why is this man loving someone as complicated as me?

I must have saved the world in my previous life to deserve a love like Kong for me.

I better cherish him.

Before I could think twice, I jerked up to put my lips on his – slowly, lightly and savoring the moment then smiled while his lips was against mine, thinking I’d go ballistic if he caught me. 

When I parted, I saw him smile in his sleep. If he wasn’t breathing unwaveringly, I would have thought he was awake. Heedlessly, I cupped his cheek and I continued to watch him in his sleep – the curved on my lips plastered.

Thank you for forcing your way into my heart. I love you, Kong.

My phone vibrated which ripped my thoughts away from him. I reluctantly wiggled my way out of Kong’s cozy embrace while reaching for my phone.

“Sahit? “

“Art? ” as soon as I heard my name with her faint voice,  I sat softly not wanting to wake Kong up. As if he knew, he tightened his grip on me for a moment then loosened it and his breathing steadied again. 

“What happened? ” I whispered. 

“I need you. “ 

I sensed the pain along with her words when she uttered it. Sahit has always been brave. She was the strongest woman I know, she doesn’t like asking for help unless it was needed. Her calling me means she’s at her limit. 

“Where are you? ” I asked as I put my jogging pants on while my phone was between my shoulder and neck. 

“Your building’s parking lot. “

“Stay, I’ll come get you. ” I ended the call and left a note to Kong. 

Before turning the doorknob, I glanced at Kong. I feel heavy inside as I walk away. I saw Sahit with her dead on the steering wheel, shoulder shaking. My heart warmed up for her.

I brought her to the poolside of our building where I intend her to bring in the first place,  not in my room  where Kong’s asleep. I know Kong’s won’t like the idea either. “What happened? “

“We broke up, “

I wanted to jump for joy. I knew it wasn’t good but I inwardly celebrated for her heartache because it means…

a chance for me.

Maybe,

Just maybe..

I can help her put the pieces back together.

And eventually if things turn out well, she’ll realize it was me all along.

I can be the shoulder she can cry on. Heck, I would gladly take being her rebound, if it means getting closer to her.

My first love.

I felt the warmth that sprawling my heart.

Sahit ran to me and hugged me. I was taken aback but I managed to ran my hand on her back to calm her down. I don’t have the words to make her feel better but I hope me being with her would help.

“It’s okay. ” she was still sobbing, restraining herself to let it out. “Just cry and pour it all out. “

It was as if her cue,  she whimpered loud and unfiltered. I hugged her even tighter, I feel so sorry for her. I feel sorry she has to go through this.

After a long moment, she spoke. “I saw him with someone else.. “

“Did you ask him?  Maybe just a friend? ” I queried, trying not to sound like taking sides.

“You don’t kiss a friend on the lips, ” I remember Kong and the kiss we shared when we weren’t together yet.

“Am I not good enough? ” Kong never made me feel like I am never good enough.

“You are, he’s just insatiable. ” I replied. “Do not let anybody make you feel otherwise, okay? “

Sahit lifted her head up to find me staring down at her, she had this forced smile on. “You’ve changed. “

My brown wrinkled, ” what do you mean? “

“You don’t always have the nice words whenever I’m down. You’re just there and I felt like your presence was enough. ” she forced a smile. “But now.. ” she paused. “It’s not a bad thing though.” she added. “When did you become so manly? ” she asked, wiping the traces of her tears.

“I’ve always been like this, ” I joked. “You are just blind not to see me. ” I said humorously.

“We’ve always been good together, ” she vaguely said looking at me.

I smiled. “Yeah, if only you hadn’t cheated on me and got yourself a boyfriend. We could have been happier ” I joked. “I could have taken care of you better than him. ” I chuckled.

An awkward silence were heard after, she kept her gaze fixed on me intently. It wasn’t that long when she slowly tiptoed forward, I know what she was going to do.

I dreamt for it for a long time.

I’ve always imagined how it feels like to kiss her.

When her lips finally pressed to mine, her lips was soft and warm against mine.

It was exactly what I pictured it to be.

It was exactly how I expected it to be.

It was exactly how I imagined it to be. 

It was exactly how I dreamt it to be.

Except..

It doesn’t give me butterflies.

It doesn’t send shivers down my spine.

I don’t feel giddy.

It doesn’t give me mixed of indescribable feelings all at once.

It felt like it was only two skin brushing against each other. I felt nothing at all.

Then it hit me.

I am not the me before Kong anymore. Sahit will always have a special place in my heart but Kong has taken most of it. Sahit will always be the girl of my dreams but Kong has always been my reality.

I could never ask for more than his love. And the kiss I’ve shared with Sahit just solidified it.

My heart was overwhelmed by the realization that Kong had absolutely taken me – body, heart and soul.

I slightly pushed her away, breaking the kiss. I do not want to hurt her but Kong is my priority.

I was too busy processing everything that just happened when I heard something dropped nearby.

We both turned our gaze at it, there stood Kong.

Frozen.

Shocked.

Hurt was written all over his face.

Did he just force a smile?

My body went cold and my heart beat went slowmo.

Shit.

When he turned to leave, I immediately followed him shoving Sahit’s hand away from my shoulder.

“Kong, ” I gripped him but he retracted it slowly with a smile as painful as I was feeling inside. “Not yet. “

I feel like my world crumbled as I saw his retreating back disappearing from my sight.

I feel like the happiness was drained out of me.

The worst of all,  I feel like I will never be happy again.

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Long overdue but I hope you can still follow the story. ^_^