“You’re here cause you’re trying to avoid Thierry or the owners of the cabin because they might tell me that you visited aren’t you?” Jennie said while we’re sitting on a bench eating our own foods
“No” I said making Jennie chuckle
“You’re caught red handed but you’re still denying it”
“Well maybe I have a business meeting here”
“Hmm… that’s not even close to reality “
“Why’s that?” I asked
“Cause Jisoo gave me your schedule ” I sigh knowing that it will actually happen one way or another
“What are you doing here anyway” I said
“I’m here for our 9th year anniversary “
“You’re still celebrating?”
“More like reminiscing ” she said making me look at her but her eyes are glued ahead
“It’s not like you don’t see me in London tho.. I mean you didn’t visit this month but you can easily come if you want to”
“So you’re actually waiting for me to return aren’t you?” Jennie said making me turn my head around to keep her from looking at my eyes and just teasing me “it was Jackson’s idea by the way ” she chuckle
“What idea?”
“He told me to keep myself from coming at your company for a couple of weeks or months then if we met again if you know how long I was gone then you’re keeping track of the days that I wasn’t there. So in short, you’re waiting for me to return ” I can already feel the smug look on her face without even looking at her and just by hearing her voice
“I was not waiting for you” I said
“Then why did you come here in Finland?”
“If I was waiting for you then I should’ve come to Seoul cause I thought you were there don’t you think?”
“Woah my Lili’s getting so smart ” she said patting my back softly which makes me flinch a bit “…and also sensitive” she said laughing at my sudden movement making me smile a bit as well
“Why didn’t you go to the cabin instead?” I asked
“I wasn’t expecting you to come at all so I decided to just go and spend some time here in this resort where we first started” she said making me nod “like I said.. I was reminiscing “
“Doesn’t that sadden you?” I ask
“Well it is the happy memories that I reminisce and instead of longing for what we had at least I get to keep the rest of the happy memories.”
We stayed silent right after what Jennie said.. honestly I don’t know what to say and I’m not even looking for any words to say. We sit there for a long time before Jennie decided to grab my hand and pull me out of there. She basically drag me out making me stumble a couple of times good thing I didn’t fall down
“Let’s buy some pork belly and let’s get some beer” she said making me furrow my brows. Jennie doesn’t usually drink back then but people change somehow.
Jennie’s POV
We bought some pork belly and beer since it’s already getting dark. The northern lights will appear later on and I wanted to watch it with Lisa again
“Aren’t you gonna pay?” Lisa ask making me furrow my brows
“Won’t you treat me?”
“You’re rich ” she said making me chuckle. In the end Lisa paid for everything while she’s carrying the cans of beer and I’m carrying the already cooked pork belly.
“Let’s go to my place” I said since it’s quite near from the entrance and it has a nice view as well
“I have my own place “she said pointing at the other way
“We’re both here might as well celebrate a relationship that aren’t even a real thing” I said I grab the hem of her jacket to pull her in so she doesn’t have chance to find more excuse. I put down the foods on the table while Lisa closes the door
“Why did you rent a bigger place?” She ask looking around. I did rent a room with 2 beds… it may sound crazy but it makes me think that I am with Lisa even though her presence aren’t with me “are you with someone?” She ask
“Silly” I chuckle as I point at my single bag on the side “I came here alone”
“Then why do you have 2 beds?”
“Hmm.. maybe my instinct told me that you will be here” I said as I turn my back on her and chuckle. I keep myself busy by arranging the foods and cans of beer while Lisa’s walking behind me probably looking at the whole place here and there.
“You should stop doing this” she said making me stop from what I’m doing as I turn around to look at her
“You’re uncomfortable?” I ask “or you just don’t think we’ll get back together anymore?” I ask going straight to the point
“You’re just hurting yourself ” she said not even looking directly into my eyes
“Well that’s not the excuse I’m looking for..” I said smiling at her
“What can make you stop doing all of these then?” I grab two cans of beer as I look up at the sky and the northern lights can clearly be seen now since the sky’s already dark. I walk towards Lisa and gave her the other can of beer.
“If you’ll tell me that you can’t love me back anymore and you’re already happy and contented with someone else” I said sitting on the side of the bed. Lisa walk towards the bed and take the space right next to me
“What if I found someone already?” Lisa ask making me smile
“Well… your ‘someone’ doesn’t seem to make you happy that you chose to go all the way here in Finland during our 9th year anniversary ” I said confidently while looking up. Lisa stayed silent after that. She just keep on drinking her beer time to time while also eating some of the pork belly we bought
“Happy ‘supposedly’ 9th year anniversary to us” I said making Lisa chuckle lightly. She probably tried keeping it subtle but I heard it clearly
Another hour of silence embrace the atmosphere. The sight is beautiful and being with Lisa gives more substance to my 6 years of celebrating our anniversary alone. It feels like she completed everything by just being here once. It may sound absurd but I’m happy with that.
Later on I heard Lisa sigh heavily making me look at her. She turn her gaze towards me and by the way her cheeks and nose bridge turned red I can already tell that she’s drunk. I look towards the cans of beer on her side and she finished a lot of it already. I just had 2 cans so I’m not that drunk yet.
“You alright?” I ask looking at her. She stare at me for a couple of seconds before nodding her head heavily making me laugh. “Lisayah.. you might not remember this tomorrow but I’m really glad that you’re here today ” I said smiling “for 6 years of coming back and forth here for our anniversary… it makes me lonely. But this is somehow my fault anyway, I did hurt you a lot when you left Korea… I’m well aware. Maybe this is all karma hitting me for the whole 6 years that I don’t have you” I said
“I’m not mad..” she mumble making me look at her “I’m not mad Jennie Kim” it makes me smile when I heard her address me the same way like she used to. Jennie Kim, that sound pleasing to my ears. She’s just staring at the floor while I’m staring at her side profile waiting for her to say something more
“I probably… I probably miss you too much to be mad anymore”
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