          𓂃⋆ THIRD PERSON POV ⋆𓂃
A loud crash was heard and Tae had thrown the empty bottle on the wall making Jisoo shriek in surprise.
Th: Kill him!! Kill them all
Js: please listen to me!! Listen!! Look at me!
She knew what he was suffering through but couldn’t help him out. She placed Tae head on her lap and tried to soothe him. The poor boy was shaking and was a sobbing mess.
Js: You are not weak Taehyung…you are a very strong boy
Th: I hate him Jisoo…he…he doesn’t love me….he will never love me…i am not up to his standards….he…he is ashamed of me…like everyone…he…will also leave me…
His sobs were echoing in the washroom as he kept crying. Another wave hit his and the poor boy again vomited into the toilet seat. Jisoo placed her one hand on Tae s forehead and the other kept soothing his back.
he again jerked forward and his hands and whole body was shaking with it now. Jisoo eyes fell on the figure standing near the bathroom door and she looked up surprised.
Js: Sir….you are back?
Jungkook refused to acknowledge her instead his angry orbs were fixed on the mess of a boy sitting on the floor with the stink of vomit and alcohol surrounding his. His eyes didn’t soften.
His head would have dropped into the toilet seat if Jisoo had not placed his hand on his head. His eyes dropping not even able to look up at him. The tub was filled with broken glass and both could hear him breathing heavily.
Jk: Out Jisoo
His tone was bone-chilling. The coldness in his voice made her move back in fear.
Js: But Sir need-
Jk: I SAID GET OUT!!
His hands were shaking trying to find something for support. His hair was all vet in vomit as he finally lifted his eyes to look at him.
Th: Wh…at are you doing here..?
he asked unable to recognise his own voice. He didn’t answer. He took in him form standing there and assessing. After a few minutes of silence, he finally spoke.
Jk: Get up
he laughed hysterically at his command. His dropping eyes tried looking up at him for a challenge. Refusing to back down.he wanted to stand up and look at him at eye level As soon as he gripped the toilet seat to get up, his legs gave out. he fell down steadying himself with his shaking hands.he was trying very hard but everything was moving. The bathroom looked like it was rotating on its axis Minutes passed and he couldn’t get up. His eyes watching his each struggle closely.he looked gross No one will come near him let alone touch his in such a state. The stink of vomit was unbearable.
Moving past him he picked the hand shower and moved it towards him. Turning the temperature to cold he turned the knob.he screamed in surprise as ice cold water was poured over him. he tried moving away but his body had no struggle left.
he was only wearing Jungkook shirt with just innerwear underneath it. As the cold water soaked the shirt he moved his hands in front of his chest.
The shirt was covering just half of his thighs and he pressed his naked legs in front of his chest.his frame was shivering with cold and his screams have died down. he was shielding his face from the water but he didn’t want his to.
Placing a strong grip on his neck he tiled his face up and moved the shower closer to his face.he tried loosening his grip by thrashing but he kept his grip firm. Once done with him he turned to look back at him.
he was shivering with teeth cluttering together. His legs shaking and wet hair sticking to his face.
He went out to only return with two towels. One was placed on his head and the other was wrapped around his body. Placing another of his t-shirts on his lap he turned around to leave.
Jk: Change into this
he nodded and tried lifting the wet shirt up from his body. With a lot of trouble, he was able to change into the new one, removing all his wet innerwear in process.he felt like he ran a marathon, his body got tired of this simple task. He returned to see the pile of wet clothes near him.Rubbing the towel on his wet hair he kept staring at Tae. While on the other hand he was drained of all his energy. His body was falling from one side to another as
Tae hands tried holding tae weight.
Next, he felt him spray perfume all over his body with a look of disgust on his face.
Jk: I go for a few days and you decide to behave like a slut
He had hurt him before but never like this. The word offended him much more than word ugly ever could. he wanted to slap that beautiful face.he wanted to punch those beautiful eyes. But he couldn’t. His body was numb. he couldn’t do much excent listen
His body was numb. he couldn’t do much except listen to his accusations silently. On seeing hurt in his eyes he was satisfied. He wanted him to feel as much hurt as he gave him.
Jk: What… nothing to say ugly duckling? Anyone can mistake you to be a desperate bitch right now
He could see his eyes dropping. he was going to Faint. Pulling up his body he made his way towards his bed. Gently placing him on the bed he opened the drawers searching for the tablet.
Jk: Swallow this
He said as he looked up at him through his hazy vision. Moving his head in a no he tightly pressed his lips closed.he was burning high with fever. It was very important to take the medicine but this stupid boy was so damn stubborn.
Feeling irritated with his stubborn self he placed the tablet in his his palms. Unaware of what he was going to do he relaxed himself to be only attacked by his lips. he refused to allow him but he was not going to back down.
Placing his one hand down on his ass he gripped it tightly to take his by surprise. he opened his lips in surprise and he placed the medicine on his tongue. His eyes widened realising what he did but it was too late.
Next he knows a water bottle was pressed on his lips andhe was forced to gulp down the medicine. Satisfied with his victory he smirked at him while his tiny fists managed to hit his chest.
Jk: You will eat your food or else you know I have my ways, Tae.
There was a threat in his voice as he placed the tray in front of him. But the next words he spoke made him freeze in horror instead.
Th: Why do…..you care Jungkook…..why do you care if I eat or not…. you are going to leave me after a year anyways.anything!! You have hurted me so much…you have destroyed me!!
he broke in sobs unable to speak anymore. he has burst like a hot air balloon leaving back nothing. He has destroyed him when he didn’t do anything to him? When he kept loyal to him even though he knew it was temporary. When he protected him with his own life? He turned back to see his body shaking as he rubbed his teary eyes.
Jk: Did I asked you not to eat? Did I ask you not to sleep? Did I fucking asked you to love me? Didn’t I make it clear at the very beginning that I won’t love you? Didn’t I allow you to fuck anyone behind my back? Tell me Tae didn’t I made every damn thing crystal clear beforehand?
His teary eyes land on the cut he had unknowingly given him. His mind got lost in thinking how bad he hurt him with the cut. How his mindless actions have hurt him.
Jk: Tell me Tae haven’tt I told you countless times how much I hate having you as my wife? How many times did I call you ugly duckling? How many times I was fucking trying for you to hate me!
he looked dumbfounded at him. He did so because he wanted him to hate him?
Jk: Why I didn’t pick your calls? Why I didn’t say anything to you when that boyfriend of yours came here every damn day? Just why till now I haven’t even asked you the truth you are dying telling the entire world?
Jk: I didn’t destroy you, you are destroying yourself!! With your insecurities, your jealousy !! You are doing this to yourself!!
His eyes widened, realising the meaning of his words. Was it true? Was it his fault? He moved closer to him. Each word he spoke was opening his eyes. he was realising how much he trapped himself in this.
Jk: Why is my betrayal hurting you so much? Why do you expect so much from me when I have given you every reason to not trust me?
He moved over him entrapping his small frame below his large one. His eyes fixed on the cut on his cheek as he found his fingers moving closer to it.
Th: I… don’t know…I just don’t know…
He placed his finger on his lips silencing his next words which he knew quite well. Placing him fringe behind him ear he looked into those broken, tired, clueless and confused eyes.
Jk: You don’t love me Tae…. you don’t even know what love is. Don’t mistake lust by love….this weird thing going on here..
He said placing his one hand near his abdomen.
Jk: It’s lust, not love. To love someone you should first learn to love yourself To love this not so beautiful face Of yours To love this skinny body of yours To love these non-stop moving lips of yours The way your eyes are looking at me…the way you are feeling down me… the way you are feeling down there is just temporary. And temporary things never last a lifetime.
he closed his eyes as soon as he said it. He knows everything. He knows his body more than he knows himself.his body listened to him more than him
Jk: I can give you pleasure Tae, I can make you feel at the top of the world with nothing to lose..but the very next moment I don’t want you to fall down and break. Now you know my reasons for leaving you in-between so many times…. reason for my denial. I never denied you of it because I considered you less beautiful, I denied it because I don’t deserve you.
he never thought that way. He was opening a new window to his thoughts he never knew existed.he was realising that not everything is about him
Jk: Learn to love yourself before you go out finding someone to love you. The day you learn it, you will find all the happiness you are yourself throwing away No one can enter here Tae Only you can and only you have the power to destroy it.
he never thought this way. He was right. He was telling him what no one ever taught him. He placed his hand on hid forehead to see the fever was coming down. he finally let’s go….the frustration…the anger…he let’s it all go.Tomorrow onwards he will listen to him and try to love himself.
Th: Does it hurt?
he asked with concern, tracing the cut. He smiled moving his head in a no.
Th: You are lying….it does, wait I will get a first aid kit.
he said trying to push him and get up from the bed. But he refused..
Jk: It’s just a small cut…
Th: But Jungkook it’s bleeding…wait just let me-
Jk: Tae, what did I told you about first loving yourself?
Th: But I hurt you! How can I not care?
Jk: You got a long way to go before you start learning to love yourself
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