           𓂃⋆ THIRD PERSON POV ⋆𓂃
Jungkook was punching the bag non-stop. His anger had to vent out somewhere and this was the perfect place. He was not that kind of man who slept with girls to control his urges. Only characterless men did that.
Control is the only thing that makes a boy, a man. Without it, there was no difference between a horny teenager and an animal in heat. Somany punches later he fell on a chair drained. His eyes fell on his swollen knuckles and he clenched his hand in anger.
Blood was dripping down his hand but he didn’t stop. The pain was giving him the satisfaction that nothing else could. It made him feel the pain he gave Tae and this thought was enough.
Picking up a whiskey bottle from the side he gulped it neat. As the liquid burned his throat he found his relief. Pouring it out on his wounded knuckles he hissed in pain as it disinfected his wound.
Soon the room was spinning and this was what he wanted from the beginning. Sleep was not a luxury for him and he had to earn it by tiering himself to the point of saturation every day.
Every person has some secrets. Some not so important and some life-destroying.Behind every face you see and every word you hear are secrets meant to be kept.Some for good, some for bad. But again they are called secrets because they are meant to be kept till the time a person is lowered into their grave.
18 years back. ( Jungkook was 6 year old boy)
It was a rough night. With winds howling and trees shaking. Thunder was lightning the deserted road. Sounds of heavy footsteps were heard as someone was running through the peddles at the side of the road. Jungkook tiny feet were running to safety. He wanted to reach home at any cost, to rush into his mother’s arms away from this scary night. His innocent soul has been tainted with the sight he had just seen and his breathing was coming out heavy.
He kept on looking back to see that no one was following him.Focussed behind him he didn’t see the car coming from the front. The car was flashing its light on him and by the time it was close enough to his notice he couldn’t do anything. Honking sounds were heard and he stood at his spot frozen. Screeching of tires was followed by a loud bang.
His scared eyes opened to see two cars in his view. One was gone while the other one had collided on the nearby tree. Smoke was coming out of its bonnet and he feared it will catch fire very soon. At one side was his safety and on the other theirs. But he had caused this accident, he was at fault as the car had dived to save him. Without wasting a second he ran towards the crushed car.
The first thing he saw as he peeped inside was blood. His body started shaking in fear of seeing it. The dashboards, the steering were all covered in blood. His eyes fell on the driver side to see a lady looking at him.
She was badly injured with blood everywhere on her face. she called to him in desperations.
??: Pl…please save my….child
It was then that the boy looked at the passenger seat to find a 4 year-old child wrapped in blankets. The seat belt kept him safe from the impact.
??: Pl….ease…..tak…e. him
The boy not knowing what to do decided to follow his instruction. Opening the passenger seat with great difficulty he picked up the child and ran towards safety. He pressed the little child to his chest to keep him safe from the rain.
He was just 2 years of age but still he managed save him. to Placing the child on the seat of a bus stop, he turned around to save the lady when the car blasted in flames all of a sudden. Shielding the child with his body and placing his hands on him ears he faced the impact of the blast. He felt his heart to sink at the rock bottom when everything was followed by silence. Someone just got killed because of him. He had killed someone.
The blast was loud enough for him to go in a state of shock. Tears were running down his eyes as he looked into the boy brown eyes. Unaware of everything, the boy smiled at him. The little being was unaware of the fact that he had lost his mother
because of him. Another sob broke through his lips as the boy placed his fingers on his face and traced it. His tiny hands moved over his eyes, nose and finally settling at his lips he could see a small cut on the boy being was unaware of the fact that he had lost his mother because of him. Another sob broke through his lips as boy placed his fingers on his face and traced it.
His tiny hands moved over his eyes, nose and finally settling at his lips he could see a small cut on the boy forehead just above his eyebrow. But to his surprise, he was smiling instead of crying. He couldn’t believe this. Police sirens were heard in the background. The little boy panicked and started finding a place to hide. Kissing his small hands he left him to see him starting to cry.
Standing behind a nearby tree he decided to hide before anyone sees him. The very next minute police officers and an ambulance rushed in. The child was now in safe hands and he moved away from the scene.
It was his biggest mistake in life. He just wanted to buy a pack of gummy bears for himself. He defied his mother’s order and went out alone to buy them from a nearby shop. Not knowing that it will turn out to be the biggest mistake of his life. He never told anyone of what happened that night. Not even his mother. He couldn’t just tell them he had killed someone.
They should not see a murderer in him…. they should only see Jungkook in him. That one day he had seen the hub of illegal business of drugs. He had caused the accident of a lady known as Kim Sohye And that day itself he had managed to save the life of an innocent boy called Kim Taehyung.( Taehyung was 4 year old)
He returned back into his room at 4 am. he was peacefully sleeping while hugging his pillow. Moving closer to him he sat down on his side of the bed and stared at his face. His handkerchief was wrapped around his knuckles and it had turned red now. His cold eyes moved over the cut on Tae forehead. He traced his finger on it to only get reminded of that night.
he doesn’t know why he has astraphobia but he does. he doesn’t remember how he got this cut be he clearly does. The reason behind the ignorance of his family is fully known to him.
He knows each and every secret that he doesn’t know. He is the answer to all his unanswered questions. But sadly he doesn’t remember him as clearly as he remembers him. Just how can he forget those brown eyes that gave him light in the darkness of that night.
The night he had a car accident and he went to save him. That night was a redoing of what happened all these years before. A man like him doesn’t just lose his sanity easily. He doesn’t plead to people. He doesn’t show his vulnerable side that easily.
Unless it is worth it…and the boy sleeping in front of him was worth much more than that all. The face he calls ugly duckling reminds him of that night every time. Unknown to Tae he was the one that was ugly and he was a beautiful duckling.
He will never admit this to him. He will never let him see his soft side. Just how can he be able to love the man that He will never admit this to him. He will never let him see his soft side. Just how can he be able to love the man that killed his mother. He only deserved hatred from his side but this silly ignorant boy was only giving him love.
Love that alone is enough to destroy him.he was digging a deeper hole by doing what he did last night.When his family arranged his marriage to him, he found those brown innocent edes oddly familiar.
And when he gathered information, he wasn’t astonished.he was indeed the same boy.A living nightmare of what all he had dreamed every night for last so many years.
He knew how Tae family treated him. What all they made Tae feel and he couldn’t help hate himself for it.If his mother would have been alive, all this would not have happened. he would have got all the love he deserved. He was the curse in his life who had ruined it all.
How could he marry the boy whose face will remind him of all the sins of his past? How could he love a person whose life he had destroyed? Fate has a twisted way of taking its revenge and maybe them marrying was a part of it.
He was ready to burn in hell alone but he didn’t want to drag this angel from heaven to his kingdom of hell.
Jk: It’s difficult to understand me you say Tae…if only I could understand myself, if only I knew what you are doing to me
With a last kiss on his forehead, he moved out of the room trying not to shadow the brightness of his soul.
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