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AN: WARNING! MATURE/SEXUAL THEME! IF ANYONE IS SENSITIVE TO THAT KIND OF THING, THEN SKIP THE ITALIC TEXT!

The door clicked shut and his back immediately slammed into it as another’s lips covered his own. He gripped the strong shoulders of the other boy, afraid he was going to collapse if he wasn’t holding onto anything. “Shinya”. He mumbled out as the said boy pulled back. “Slow down…”. Shinya let out a hum and did as he was asked, slightly leaning down to nose at the redhead’s neck. Akashi closed his eyes as a shiver racked through his body at the feeling of those lips brushing across his skin.

“I’m fine with going slow… Slow is going to feel really good, Akashi~”. Shinya cooed at his ear, tongue slipping out to slide against his ear. Hands grabbed at the redhead’s thighs and he was hoisted, forced to wrap his legs around the other boy’s waist. “Real, good~”. Akashi leaned his head back against the door as Shinya left open-mouthed kisses along the expanse of his neck. Something hot and wet slid against his skin and Akashi could only guess what it was. Not a moment later, sharp teeth bit down, making him flinch as a shiver racked through his body.

“Shinya… Bedroom…”. He forced out, feeling light-headed. The other boy complied, but not before he bucked forward, making the redhead release a groan at the unexpected contact. “Shinya!” He urged, fingers digging into the boy’s bare arms. They had just returned from an ANBU mission, so they were still in their gear.

“Yes, yes~”. Akashi hurriedly wrapped his arms around Shinya’s shoulders as he was pulled away from the door. The older boy tightened his grip as he held Akashi in his arms, walking towards the bedroom. Akashi blinked his eyes open, leaning forward and resting his head on Shinya’s shoulder. This whole thing was unexpected… He had to admit, this was his own doing, since he teased Shinya as they returned from the mission. Their other squad members knew about their relationship, but chose not to say or do anything about it.

Bird had just warned them that they should focus on completing the mission at all costs and not to be too preoccupied with each other.

The two of them had agreed, but Akashi just couldn’t keep his hands and heated gazes to himself…

Those acts led to the point where they were now…

Going towards the bedroom…

He was snapped out of his thoughts when he heard the bedroom door click open. Shinya stepped inside, closing the door behind them and turning back towards the bed. Akashi leaned back, looking at the other boy. When their eyes met, Shinya threw him a bright grin, before Akashi found himself being let go, the soft covers of the bed softening his landing. “Rude”. He huffed as Shinya crawled atop of him, hands pushing his knees apart, and settling between them.

“Oh right, fragile?” The moss-eyed boy teased, making Akashi huff again.

“Exac-!” His words were swallowed up by the other boy’s lips as they covered his own. Rough fingers slid up his neck and to his jaw as Shinya’s pried his lips open. The other hand slid down his sides, grabbing the weapons pouch and throwing it away, before it slid under his shirt and brushed against his, now, bare skin. Akashi turned his head to the side, separating their lips, to take in a breath of air. Lips immediately clamped onto his neck and teeth trailed down it.

He reached a hand towards the boy above him and his fingers grabbed around the hem of his shirt. Shinya leaned back to look down at him, lips parted as short huffs of breath escaped him. “Take this off?” Akashi tilted his head, tongue peeking out from the side of his mouth. Shinya glanced at his lips, before he sat back, nodding his head in reply. Long fingers clicked the straps open and the top layer fell off, revealing a skin-tight shirt underneath. Shinya threw the vest away and reached for the bottom of his shirt, before another pair of fingers covered his own. “Let me”. Akashi had also sat up.

After he received a nod, Akashi trailed his fingers down the other boy’s visible abs. The shirt was so tight, he could see every indent. Blinking his eyes, he returned to the task at hand. His fingers reached under the bottom and started pulling it upwards, eyes meeting with Shinya’s, as the said boy raised his arms over his head, making it easier for Akashi to take it off. The shirt was discarded to the side and Shinya glanced at Akashi, only to find him already looking at him. “What?” He asked, making Akashi shake his head.

“Nothing”. He replied and clicked his own vest open, throwing it to the side. The shirt followed soon after it.

Shinya leaned forward, hands slowly pushing at the redhead’s shoulders as the both of them went back down. Shinya lowered himself do the other boy’s chest and he left open-mouthed kisses along the expanse of the visible skin. As he got lower and lower, chin brushing against the fabric of Akashi’s pants, fingers gripped at his hair. “Shinya…”. The said boy glanced up, and saw that the redhead’s cheeks were as red as his hair was, lips parted as quick breaths left through them. “There is no need for that…”. He mumbled, looking away in embarrassment.

Shinya almost died at the spot from the sight in front of him. His lips curled up into a small smile and he pulled himself up towards Akashi. “I just want you to feel good… I don’t want to be the only one feeling like that…”. He placed a light kiss at the younger boy’s temple, his heart throbbing inside his chest. Damn it… He was too cute like this… Akashi gathered the courage to look at him, but the blush hadn’t settled down. Then, without breaking eye contact with the boy under him, Shinya let his hand slip down.

“Shinya?” Akashi asked in a meek voice, eyes widening as he felt warm fingers brush against his ribs. They slid below his navel and stopped at the band of his pants.

“Is this okay?” He heard the older boy ask as he leaned into his neck. “Is this too much?” The fingers slipped under the band of his pants and gripped it, the other hand joining in. Both hands slid to Akashi’s lower back, slightly pulling at the pants. He glanced at the redhead and found himself being stared at. Akashi had bitten his lips, before he gave Shinya a silent nod as a way of telling him to continue. Seeing no resistance, he pulled Akashi upwards just enough so he could slip everything off him.

As soon as that had happened, Akashi looked away, embarrassment creeping at the back of his mind. They were really doing this… He peered at the other boy, just to see the pure awe on his features. “Do not look at me like that… It is embarrassing!” He huffed out and Shinya leaned down to him.

“How could I not? Am I not allowed to be in awe of the piece of art which lay before me?” Akashi felt a hot blush envelop his whole body and he released a strangled noise at the words that left the boy’s lips. How could he say something like that with a blank face?! Feeling like he was being left behind, Akashi sat up, consequentially making Shinya do the same.

“Take yours off, too”. His fingers gripped the fabric of Shinya’s remaining clothes. Those moss-green eyes of his widened and he whipped his head to the side, evading Akashi’s gaze. The redhead noticed Shinya’s breathing had quickened. One point for Akashi! “Hurry”. He urged him, not wanting to be the only one who was naked.

“Okay”. Shinya replied, fingers shakily reaching for his own pants. He swung his legs to the side so he could take everything off easier. In the meantime, Akashi had gone under a thin sheet, hiding himself from view. Once Shinya was done, he turned back to Akashi and saw that only his head was visible. “What are you doing?” He raised his brows, eyes shinning in amusement.

“It is embarrassing to be so uncovered!” The boy repeated his previous words, pulling the thin sheet closer to himself. Shinya’s lips curled up into a wide grin and he shook his head.

“Can you let me in?” He asked, not moving from his place on the edge of the bed. Akashi pretended to think about it, before he looked at Shinya.

“If you give me a kiss… Maybe I will think about it”. Shinya watched as those lips of his curled into a small smile and felt his own heart almost burst at the sight before him. He complied. The bed dipped in as he leaned across the space between them, tilting his head to the side as he closed his eyes and the distance between them disappeared. As promised, the sheet was shifted to the side and Shinya wrapped his arms around him.

The two of them fell back onto the bed, skin touching skin at every uncovered inch of their bodies. Akashi shifted and grabbed the side of the sheet, throwing it over the both of them. Shinya let out a laugh and Akashi joined him. “Not embarrassed anymore?” He asked, nuzzling into the redhead’s hair. The sheet was completely over their heads.

“No… When it is just the two of us, closed off away from everything, I feel no embarrassment”. Shinya heard the boy confess and his heart constricted inside his chest… Ah… That was unfair… Was he trying to give him an early death? Akashi grinned at the other boy’s expression and he reached a hand towards him. His fingers wrapped around the back of his neck and he pulled him down, tilting his head to the side and placing a kiss onto the side of his lips.

“You missed”. His own lips were pried apart as another pair covered them. Fingers brushed the side of his thigh, before they trailed up his knee. Shinya pulled back, a sigh escaping him. Akashi had a satisfied expression on his face as they stared at one another. “Do you have any oils here?” The older boy asked and pulled the sheet from over their heads. It cascaded down his shoulders and stopped at the middle of his back.

Akashi took a deep breath and spread his arms across the big pillows around them. “I think I have some kind of ointment in my bedside drawer”. He gestured at the wooden drawer right next to the bed. He watched as Shinya reached towards it, body stretching over him. He watched as the lean muscles in his arms and back flexed at the motion. Shinya opened the drawer and rummaged for a bit, before he pulled back, a small bottle filled with an almost transparent substance in his hand.

He popped the lid open and turned the bottle sideways, casting a glance at the redhead. “Do you want me to stop or continue?” He asked, awaiting the answer he would get. If Akashi told him to stop, he would stop without a second thought. He had no intentions of trying to talk the boy into doing it with him… No… He cared about him too much to do something like that…

He loved him too much to do something like that…

“Continue”. Came the awaited reply. Nodding, Shinya turned back to the bottle and dipped his fingers inside, coating them down to the palm. After that, he placed it on the bedside drawer and turned back to Akashi.

“Ready?” He asked as he shifted a bit away from the boy under him, fingers reaching down to his private parts. Akashi found himself mutely nodding and he felt his body tense as he was touched at the place where nobody touched before. His lips parted at the unfamiliar sensation and he gripped Shinya’s arms in a state of disarray. “Hey? Akashi? Relax… Please?” He heard Shinya’s voice and he closed his eyes as the sensation increased and something slipped inside.

His grip tightened. “Wait”. Shinya immediately halted at his words. “Wait for a moment”. He took a deep breath to calm himself. This wasn’t something he had ever done… So it was supposed to be like this… Ah, Shinya was as patient as he always was… Waiting for him… Looking at him with those understanding eyes of his… How did he ever deserve someone like him? “Okay… You can continue”. He relaxed his body along with the grip he had on Shinya, blinking his eyes open to look at the boy above him.

“Don’t worry… I’ll do this properly…”. Shinya kissed his cheek and added another finger. Akashi already felt the burn of it, but he focused on Shinya… He just needed to focus on Shinya… The fingers moved inside of him and he bit his lips at the pain. He felt the fingers move apart, stretching him even more, so he leaned his head back and closed his eyes. Shinya trailed small kisses across his shoulder, trying to give the boy under him at least a little bit of comfort… Trying to make him not think of it that much…

Akashi calmly breathed under him, chest rising and falling steadily. That was good… He wasn’t so tense anymore… So, Shinya added another finger. It was then, that he felt the boy freeze under him, violet eyes snapping wide as they looked at him. A small wince escaped him, but he showed nothing else… Damn it… Shinya didn’t wish for him to be in pain… He watched as Akashi grit his teeth together, trying to shove the pain aside… “Shinya… do not worry about me”. He said, but Shinya couldn’t not worry about him! He didn’t want to hurt him!

“No, I won’t do anything if you’re not fine with it”. He argued back, fingers not moving an inch. He heard Akashi release a sigh, before the boy shifted, tightening his legs around him and pulling Shinya closer, consequentially making the fingers go in deeper. Akashi clenched his eyes shut and turned his head to the side, burying his face into the soft pillow besides him.

“Shit…”. He mumbled, feeling the burning intensify. Shinya’s eyes widened at that and he hurriedly pulled his hand back.

“Akashi? Don’t force yourself… We can try another time”. He leaned away, but Akashi pulled back with his legs, making their private parts brush together. Shinya bit back a gasp as he placed his palms on either side of Akashi’s head.

“I am not forcing myself… Shinya, I want this…”. He heard the redhead speak, a sincere expression on his face. A hand reached up towards him and it settled on the place over his heart. “And you do, too…”. Akashi added, feeling the strong and fast thumps of the other boy’s heart. Why was he hesitating? Was he worried he was going to hurt him? Make Akashi hate him? He was dumb… There was no way Akashi would ever hate him, no matter what he did…

“Okay”. Shinya whispered and reached for the ointment on the drawer besides the bed. Since it was uncapped, he dipped his fingers inside and placed it back on the drawer. “But, if you wish me to stop at any point, just say so, okay?” He reached between their bodies and placed a hand on his own private part, carefully coating every part of it with the clear liquid. He needed to make this as painless as possible…

“Okay…”. Akashi replied, bracing himself for the sure pain which awaited him. Shinya shifted into a more comfortable position and angled himself. Akashi felt something blunt touch him and he took Shinya’s hands in his own. The said boy intertwined their fingers and brought them over Akashi’s head, gently holding him in place as he slowly pushed in. Akashi clenched his eyes shut at the immediate burn. It literally felt like he was being torn apart… Torn in half…

A barely restrained whimper left his lips and Shinya immediately stopped. “Akashi?” He asked in alarm, seeing the grimace on the younger boy’s face. “I’ll stop”. He didn’t even have time to shift, before Akashi’s legs tightened around him and he was forced forward a little. It also made him move inside more. Akashi threw his head back, spine arching at the intense feeling. Fuck… It hurt like hell… A blade stabbing him would probably hurt less than this…

“Do not stop…”. He peered at Shinya through damp eyelashes. The moss-eyed boy’s hear throbbed at the sight. He was hurting him… He was in pain because of him…

“Akashi, I don’t want to hurt you…”. He tightened the grip he had on his hands, leaning down to him, brushing their noses together. “I can’t handle that”. His own eyes burned at the sight of those tearful eyes of his. Crying wasn’t like him… That’s why this also hurt Shinya…

“You could never hurt me… Whatever you do, you could never hurt me”. Was what he said, but the grimace on his features told Shinya otherwise. Seeing his reluctance, Akashi leaned up and tilted his head, connecting their lips in a light kiss. As his head touched the pillow, he smiled at Shinya. “Do not worry about me… I just want you… I just want you to give me everything there is to give of you”. Shinya grit his teeth at his words, feeling his reluctance fading. “I want all of you”. That was the breaking point.

“You’re unfair…”. He leaned his forehead on Akashi’s shoulder, breathing out a deep breath. “So unfair…”. Akashi huffed out a laugh and closed his eyes. “You little rascal”. Shinya brushed his lips across his shoulder, dragging his teeth along the tender skin.

“But you love me anyway”. Shinya leaned back, lips curling up into a fond smile.

“I sure do”. Their eyes met, violet clashing with green and Shinya released Akashi’s hands. They trailed down the redhead’s body, sending shivers down his spine, until they stopped at his hips. “May I?” Shinya asked, tapping his fingers against the other boy’s skin. Akashi found his choice of words to be hilarious.

“You may”. But he still chose to go along with it…

His fingers gripped the headboard behind him as Shinya inched deeper with each move he made. Akashi closed his eyes and released a deep breath he didn’t know he was holding. Then, Akashi tightened his legs once more and Shinya was fully pulled forward, burying himself to the end. A sharp pain went through Akashi’s whole body when that happened. The breath was knocked out of him and a tear slid down the side of his face. Shit… It fucking hurt… It hurt so bad…

“Shit, Akashi”. Shinya groaned out, but didn’t move and inch. Instead, he trailed his hands up and placed both palms on Akashi’s cheeks, thumbs wiping at the tears which resided there. “Hey… Look at me…”. Akashi blinked his eyes at his words, feeling even more tears slip down his face. He was met with Shinya’s heavily worried face. “I have patience… We could have taken it slow…”. Akashi sniffled and shook his head.

“No, I did not want to wait anymore”. He said, blinking the blurriness in front of his eyes away.

“Sounds just like you”. Shinya leaned down and placed a kiss on his forehead, before he pulled away. “Tell me if it hurts when I move”. The pain had subsided while he wasn’t moving and Akashi nodded in reply. Shinya sent him a small smile and moved his hands away from his face, settling them back on his hips.

Akashi braced himself as Shinya pulled back, slowly moving back in. It still hurt… But it was easier than before… Much easier… Akashi closed his eyes and released a breath in relief. It was then, that his eyes snapped wide at a different feeling. He glanced down and found Shinya’s hand wrapped around his other private parts. He timed his hand movement with his body movement and Akashi had his breath knocked out of him for a different reason.

This time… There was no pain, just… Pleasure? Damn it… It felt too good…

A noise escaped him as Shinya picked up speed, the sheet slipping from the said boy’s form, revealing everything there was to see.

Akashi found himself trailing his eyes over every part of him… His ebony hair… Green eyes… Angular face… Those sinful lips of his… Those wide shoulders that just kept on expanding… The strong chest which moved with each harsh breath he took in and released… The thin hips and an even thinner waist… The strong arms which kept him in place…

His whole being was something which Akashi found to be perfect…

“Akashi…”. Shinya sighed out, his speed increasing even more and Akashi found himself slipping away… Everything was just too much for him to handle… As his body achieved its peak, he felt Shinya freeze above him, body releasing a violent shudder as a groan escaped his lips…

The last thing he saw, were those moss-green eyes blinking open and staring at him.

…

Akashi snapped awake and wildly looked around himself. He was in a dark room and on, what felt like, a bed. “So you’re finally awake?” He whipped to the side and was met with a wrong shade of black hair. He felt an inexplicable surge of disappointment fill him at the sight of those dark eyes of his.

So it was all just a memory, eh?

“Where am I?” He asked and watched as the Uchiha stood up and walked up to him, before he stopped in front of the bed he was on.

“Temporary hideout”. Was the answer he received. That told him nothing…

“Why am I here?” Sasuke blankly stared at him and Akashi felt like something had changed… The boy in front of him seemed different than the last time they met… Really different…

“I found you half-dead, surrounded by wolves and decided to bring you here”. He leaned towards him and Akashi found himself inching back. “Which brings us to the most important question… What did you do?” Ah… So he wanted to know the reason he was wounded like that? Akashi leaned his head back onto the cold walls and closed his eyes.

“I left Konoha”. He admitted… Not like it was something which was hard for him to say… He peered one eye open to look at the boy in front of himself. He stood in place, no expression on his face. Heh… Akashi thought he would have looked a little more… Joyful? After all… He was practically begging him to stay the last time they saw one another.

“So you finally found out how corrupted the village is”. Corrupted? The village? Sasuke seemed to have gotten some things wrong. Did he think Akashi left just because of the village? Now… What does he do? Tell him he left because of the village? Or tell him his true goal?

Tell him that the world is to blame for everything?

“I knew it was corrupted for a while now… I just did not wish to leave it…”. He chose the former… Akashi had no idea what Sasuke would do if he revealed the truth… Maybe he would have told him the last time they met, but now… He was too different… Too cold… Like some kind of darkness had taken root in the depths of his being… Just what had happ-?

Oh… He should have realised that as soon as he saw him…

Seems like he had achieved his goal…

“I see you have done what you needed to do… Turns out that you leaving me was not all for nothing…”. The boy ignored his words and, instead, decided to come even closer to him. They were face to face, inches away from each other, when the Uchiha spoke.

“Something else happened, didn’t it?” Akashi felt his eyes widen at the question and Sasuke seemed to have caught onto that. Damn it… How the hell did he realise?

“How did you know?” The redhead questioned, nonchalantly leaning back onto the wall as Sasuke placed a knee on the bed and caged Akashi by placing his palms on either side of his head. “What gave it away?” Sasuke blinked, blank, black, eyes staring at equally, blank, violet, ones.

“The same thing that gave me away… The expressionlessness”. Akashi tilted his head to the side at that. The same thing, eh? So now he wanted to know what really happened? Akashi wondered about his reaction if he were to tell him the truth… Well, there’s only one way to find out, right?

“I realised that the village was, indeed, at fault… But, somehow, I realised something else along the way…”. He reached a hand forward and placed his palm on the raven-haired boy’s cheek. Neither of them showed any reaction to what was happening. “Sometimes…”, his thumb slid down the boy’s jaw and he grabbed his chin between his fingers, “… You have too look at the bigger picture…”, he glanced up at the boy, their blank eyes clashing in nothing but indifference, “… And that bigger picture is…”, he leaned forward, lips curling up into a humourless smile, “… For the pain to disappear…”, he stopped right next to his ear.

“… The world just has to disappear along with it…”. He whispered and pulled back, satisfied at the boy’s widened eyes.

“The world? You wish to destroy the world?” Sasuke questioned him, brows scrunching up. He wished to destroy the world? Is that because of the pain he went through? Was his pain that strong that he wished for the destruction of everything there was to destroy? “What about Naruto? Is he part of the world you want to destroy?” He watched as a laugh left Akashi’s lips.

“Naruto and I ended on really great terms, you know? The trees around us smoked from our burning sibling love”. Sarcasm dripped from his words as they left his lips. That was news to Sasuke… So, the injuries Akashi had sustained, they were from his fight with Naruto? Who would have thought things would end up like that between them? Fighting until they both bled… Until they both couldn’t fight anymore… “He, of course, could not understand how I felt, not surprising… He also never understood how you felt… Your need for revenge was stronger than your need to make connections… It seems like I was the only one who understood…”.

“I think you were”. Akashi heard the Uchiha agree with him. “No… You were“. He repeated with more conviction this time… Was he trying to convince Akashi or himself?

“I was, but that did not make things any less painful”. Sasuke had leaned back at this point, but chose to sit at the far edge of the bed, instead of standing in front of the redhead.

“You learned how to deal with the pain… Shinya, was it? You spoke his name while you were unconscious…”. Akashi glanced at him. What was the point of mentioning him? Was he going to rub it in his face? The fact that he was dead? “You loved him, didn’t you?” Sasuke asked, but his expression didn’t reveal where he was going with that.

“I did… I do… I did… I do?” Akashi stumbled a little at his words. He loved Shinya… He still does…? He was sure of it… He wasn’t sure of it… No. He still loved him. He told himself. He will never forget him. He told himself. His mind felt like it was in shambles…

“I see…”. Sasuke mumbled out and shifted across the bed, coming closer to Akashi. “Stay with me”. There they were, those words he had told him once already. They didn’t seem that unexpected to Akashi. To be frank… He kind of expected them at this point… Sasuke may have changed since their last meeting, but his wishes didn’t…

And it seemed like Akashi was one of them…

So… Does he decline? Does he accept? Does he make the same choice as last time? Does he say nothing? Does he even say anything? Would Sasuke be useful for the fulfilment of his goal? Or would he be a burden?

“I will stay”.