~CHAN POV~
I slowly peak through my eyelashes after I gained consciousness and see the view I’ve waited a long time to see.
Jeongin sleeping peacefully in my arms. With his features looking more relaxed he came out very soft styled. I loved that about him.
I would spend my entire morning staring at his adorable face but I have to get up because I don’t want to get caught by the others.
That was the downside of the contract, no feelings, no admiration..just fuck..
There wasn’t anything wrong with that, I loved how he felt but I can’t help but feel a little bit jealous knowing he could be free to be with anybody right now.
I quickly force myself to get up and gently shake him awake too.
He awoke with a groan and lightly rubbing his eyes while stretching, and I cooed at the cute sight.
“I can’t feel my legs..” he admitted and I chuckle at him.
“Did I go too rough on you?”
“It’s not like you would’ve cared anyway..”
“What?”
“I mean, we’re just fuck buddies..we aren’t allowed to care for each other..your just my teacher and I’m just your..s-slut..”
My heart immediately stops.
Why did that hurt? I told him the exact words but it just sounds so wrong and I realize now..
“J-Jeongin..-”
“I should leave.” He says while wiping off a few tears that rolled down his cheeks and getting up with great difficulty.
I wanted to run after him and comfort him for crying but why do I care?
It’s not like I wanted to, I care for him instinctively. Don’t fuck buddies do that?
“Jeongin wait.”
He turns around and I stood up from my bed and quickly walk over to him, “look if it’s about that contract then I-”
“It’s not about the stupid contract Chan. It’s my fault for feeling bad when all you do is care. You’re just a teacher to me and I should’ve respected you as one. I’m sorry.”
He walks right out the door even with the pool of tears dwelling in his eyes. I could clearly tell he was hurt..but what did I do? Nothing. I just stood there hurt as fuck.
Why does seeing him as an only fuck buddy seem so wrong? That was the whole point of our “relationship” right?
~JEONGIN POV~
I really don’t feel like talking to Chan today.
As much as I love him, I’ve hurt a lot because of him. I need a break from all these relationships and contracts but life really does hate me.
I walk out to find Felix sitting on the counter with Changbin gripping his ass and making out with him. Gross.
I almost puke but hold on to it, “uhm, get a room.” I say and they quickly look at me.
Felix was furiously blushing with Changbin and got off the counter, continuing to wipe it.
“S-sorry you had to see that Jeongin.” Felix says
I shake it off, “it’s fine just..please don’t do it in front of me anymore.”
Changbin sat next to me and noticed how gloomy I looked, “you okay Innie? You look a bit down.”
One thing about having Changbin as a friend is that he can be the rudest to the nicest person in just a second if anybody other than him hurts his friends.
“N-not really..”
I try to change the subject but he doesn’t seem to buy it and just eyes Felix then back to me.
“Ya know, you can tell your hyung anything right?” Felix nods in his statement, also showing his face of worry.
I gulp and face them with difficulty,
“What if..your in love with someone you never should be..?”
“Wait- DID YOU AND CHAN FUCK?”
I look up to Felix with my eyes trembling, “n-no! Why would you even think that!?”
“I mean..you mysteriously come out of his room after disappearing there for the night, you smell like cum and now your asking about being with someone your not supposed to..!”
Changbin gasped and looked at me again, “Innie..are you-”
“OKAY FINE YOU CAUGHT US. WE FUCKED.”
I immediately regret saying that when I tense a silent pause among us. Changbin rests his hand on my back and makes me look up to him,
“Innie..how many times did me and Seungmin tell you-”
“I know! I know! I’m sorry okay..it’s just my stupid feelings I can’t get rid of them..”
He sighs until we all turn towards Chan who just walked out of his room.
He stares at all of us looking at him blankly but stops when he lands his eyes on me,
“I guess the two of you know now.” He says hike walking over to me and pecking my lips.
They both gasp in unison while Changbin starts to push Chan away from me,
“Hey, he’s still a kid-”
“I’m not a kid binnie! Felix is just a year older than me. Can you please stop treating me like I’m a kid and just let me love someone in peace?”
“But he’s your teacher-”
“So!? I don’t care. I love him and that’s all that matters to me.”
Fuck, I’m crying.
“He’s not wrong Changbin.” Chan says with an unusual smile on his face when he holds my hand.
“We love each other and that’s all that matters..” I notice him pulling out a sheet of paper from behind him and tearing it into pieces, “no contracts, no only fucking..just us..”
No you idiot now I’m crying even more.
“I’m quitting my job.” He announces.
I’m shocked, my mouth is going dry from how much I had it hanging open but he just smiles at all of us who ate just as shocked as me.
“Wait- Chan..what about your income-”
“I’ll find somewhere else. I’m not going to sit right with a job that doesn’t allow me to be with someone I loved. Oh and one more thing..”
He pushes Changbin away and starts leaning in to me, holding both my hands intertwined with his as our eyes meet once again.
“Jeongin..”
Fuck no, it’s happening.
“Will you be my mine?”
I think I reached heaven.
I look at Changbin and he stares blankly at the two of us before a smile crashes his lips. He gives me a reassuring nod and I completely burst into tears.
“Yes goddamn it!”
I leap into Chan, pulling him into a tight hug which he returns while spinning me around in circles.
I wipe away all my tears and quickly attach our lips, a new burst of emotions exploding between the two of us. No mixed emotions, no lust, just passion for each other. Not only wanting, but needing. He was mine and I was his. Nothing could beat this day. This moment.
“I’m sorry if I ever hurt you by saying I didn’t have any feelings for you Jeongin..The truth is I really do..I didn’t really think you’ll be into me despite our differences.”
I shake my head at his words, “I love you regardless Chan, I wouldn’t have ever tried hitting on you in that case.”
“OKAY YOU TWO STOP BEING LOVEY DOVEY IN FRONT OF US OR ILL CRY” Felix shouts making both me and Chan chuckle.
I feel Changbin patted me on the side, “congrats Jeongin..uhm..sorry for-”
“It’s okay hyung. You were just looking out for me.” He smiles out of sympathy and congrats Chan too.
“OH MY GOD THIS DESERVES A CELEBRATION..WAIT WE DIDNT EVEN TELL SEUNGMIN AND HYUNJIN YET-”
“Oh yeah, I’ll drive us there—”
“Nono, I don’t think we should disturb them while their studying..” I interrupted Changbin before he got the chance.
“Let’s go to the bar instead.” Chan suggested and Felix cheers once again. Changbin agrees too.
The couple walks out and I walk soon behind them until I felt Chan snake his hand around my waist.
“I can finally claim you as mine hm?” He whispers in my ear and I try to fight back a blush.
“I really hate you.”Â
“I love you too~”
~~~
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