Falling | Mxm (Completed) Chapter 34

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(2 years ago)

Three years in their relationship and they had grown to love each and everything about each other. Well, except for the fact that Aiden had to be away most of the time and when he was at home, Ian would be super busy at the company.

The company came into the picture a year and a half after Aiden debuted as a singer and in the meantime, Ian had decided to gather up his courage and do what he had always dreamt of; to have his own IT company. He sure had the knowledge, but he was short on money. Aiden, however, had earned a ridiculous amount of it during the short time of his singing career, so he offered his boyfriend the money he needed and Ian made him a member of the board of directors. Also, he asked him to help with some projects cos Aiden was better at certain topics and he gladly accepted.

That was how he ended up working in his free days on programming projects with dangerous deadlines at the beginning, without sleep. Ian as well was working his ass off for the company to earn its place in the business and be known. Selecting professionals, they soon made sure of their company’s name was mentioned in important events.

But all in all, Ian was never as busy as Aiden. At least he was home overnight, sleeping in a bed his boyfriend used to be in before he went popular all of a sudden with the very first song the company had let him compose instead of giving ready songs to him to just sing although they didn’t fit Aiden’s style at all. And from that point on, he always made the songs himself. Meaning, he had to spend more time in the studio, making beats and melodies, writing lyrics, recording and practicing the choreographies. Aiden was the one who introduced Brad to the company. They accepted him as a choreographer and after a year, Brad was able to open his own dance school and lend some money to Finn so the guy could open his own restaurant, which was now a success. Everyone was winning in their lives when it came to their jobs, all of them. Even Joe was a known producer these days. The songs he made went head to head with Aiden’s and they would chase each other on the charts, but it never affected their friendship. After a while, Aiden had asked Joe if he wanted to move to his company cos the CEO was interested in his music style and his best friend said yes. So at least he would see Aiden while they both were making songs.

It was all good, just that Ian was fucking lonely and miserable. He missed Aiden. He loved him too much. Too much, he felt like he would die if another day went by without him seeing his boyfriend. It was 3 AM when he decided to video call him. He wasn’t in the same country, so it would be daytime. When he picked up and smiled at the screen, Ian immediately felt better but burst into tears.

“Ian? Baby, are you crying? What’s wrong?”

Aiden’s voice soothed his aching heart, but it wasn’t enough. He wanted him to be there. He wanted him to hold him. To touch him.

“I miss you.” He said as his voice cracked and more tears followed.

Aiden had tears in his eyes, threatening to fall at any second, but he was surrounded by people. “Wait baby, let me find somewhere quiet.” Walking for a while with the phone in his hand, he finally walked into an empty room and sat down, looking at the camera again.

“Ian, my puppy, I miss you so much, you can’t even imagine.” He tried to smile to hide the glossy eyes, be the strong one in the relationship, but Ian knew him too damn well to be fooled like that.

“Why aren’t you here then if you miss me so bad? Can’t you just have fewer concerts? You had a concert there like a month ago, and now you’re having one in the exact same fucking city. Your fans see you more than me.”

Aiden just listened to him silently while wiping the tears that finally fell down, looking down cos he didn’t dare look at Ian’s eyes.

“I’m really sorry Ian, I really am. But the company sorts these schedules and there’s nothing I can do. I promise I’ll make it up to you, okay?”

Ian knew nothing would change, that Aiden would only grow more famous. That one meant more busy and less time with him, but he wanted to let himself believe that at some point it would all be okay. He would be back or he himself would be able to deal with all the distance.

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(1 year ago)

Aiden had just come back from a Japan tour before going on a Europe tour right after, having only two days to rest in which he mostly had been unconscious due to the amount of exhaustion. Sure they had a mind blowing sex, and they had cuddled while Aiden told him all the crazy things that had happened behind the cameras while on tour, and sure they were fucking amusing to listen to while being in the arms of the man you loved the most on earth, but the knowledge that he would be gone again for another two months was eating him up. It had been 4 years, and he was just reaching his limit.

Aiden loved him so much, he was sure of it, but he also loved his career just like Ian himself, but he didn’t realize why he had to go on so many tours on and on. Why couldn’t he be one of those artists that were only touring around their own country, singing ballad songs? Why did he have to become the first ever dancing singer that had become this famous all over the globe? It was his right to want his boyfriend to himself, at least for a whole weekend, being able to walk hand in hand in a mall without being attacked by crazy fans. He just hated celebrity life, and he was drowned in it more each day. Even his name and a picture were out in so many articles a year ago when the paparazzi caught them kissing in an alley.

And then two days later, after a hundred kisses and sincere apologies, Aiden left again. Leaving him there at the doorframe of their shared apartment as he fell to the ground, crying for a long time until Joe came. He said that Aiden had called him and said to go check on him, as he was worried. Ian cried endlessly in Joe’s embrace until he fell asleep.

From that day on, they started spending more time together. Joe would pick movies and they would just watch and cheer for different characters. Joe for the superhero, Ian for the villains. They would nearly always end up bickering, but at the end of the movie, they would give each other a bro hug and laugh it off.

And then after a month of spending nearly every second day together, at a night when Ian was alone at home, drinking beyond his limit and crying his eyes out again after a video call with his beloved boyfriend, Joe gave him a surprise visit. Upon seeing him like that, he hugged the older guy tightly. They drank more until they both were wasted and in a crazy situation, without much thought, they started making out.

One thing led to another, and they ended up in bed, the bed he was supposed to share with Aiden, having sex.

The next morning when Ian woke up and saw a naked Joe sleeping next to his own naked body, he felt his stomach turn and he wanted to throw up. Not because of the man next to him, but because of himself. Because of what he had done. Because he had cheated on who he loved with all his heart. He left his own apartment before Joe would wake up, left a message for him to please leave and not visit him for a while.

Of course, he knew Joe would be hurt, but he was hating himself so much that he didn’t want to see anyone.

Not going home and staying at a hotel or the company as he couldn’t dare to go to his shared place, he started hating Aiden for not being there for him. For having pushed him so far that something like this had happened. He didn’t answer the singer’s calls anymore or others’.

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When Aiden came back from the tour, he was devastated. Ian hadn’t answered his calls or messages for a whole month and no one knew anything. And to add to that, Joe had avoided and ignored him as well. As soon as he landed, he went directly to the company and found Ian thinner than ever, drowned in a mountain of paperwork he usually gave others to deal with. He went to the office without bothering to knock, as he was a little bit angry as to why he was being treated like that.

“Why aren’t you answering my calls?” He asked, trying to hide his gaze and slightly angry tone.

Ian only looked up for a mere second without any reaction before going back to the papers. “Oh, you’re back.”

Aiden narrowed his eyes and walked to the table. Grabbing Ian’s jaw a little too tightly, and turning his head upward so he would be looking at him. “You didn’t answer me. I asked, why are you ignoring my calls?”

Pushing Aiden’s hand away from his jaw and standing up mere centimeters from the muscular man’s body, he looked straight into his eyes. “I don’t want to answer that, as this relationship was never built on pleasing the needs of the other person.”

Aiden’s features changed from tense to sad in a matter of seconds, and he pulled his boyfriend in for a tight hug. “I’m so sorry, Ian. I swear there’s nothing I can do. If I wanna spend more time with you, I should quit my job cos I won’t be able to otherwise.”

“Then quit.” Ian said coldly, and it made Aiden move a little backward to look at his face.

“What?”

“You say you love me, right? Then just quit. How can you love me and be able to stay away from me all the time?”

“What are you talking about? Are you seriously asking me to quit my career?!” Aiden couldn’t believe his ears.

“Yes, I am. Time to choose, tiger. Me or the stage? No, I should ask it like this, me or your beloved fans?”

Aiden had his mouth open, not believing the situation at all. After a couple of seconds, he let go of Ian and took a few steps back.

“You know I love my job so much. How can you ask me to do something like that?” He asked in disbelief.

“You know you love ME so much as well. How can YOU leave me all alone like that?” Ian fired back with a flat expression.

Aiden took a look around the office and inhaled deeply to calm himself down a bit. “What is this about? This has been going on for 4 years. You’ve never been like this. What happened? Joe’s been ignoring me too.” He asked with a softer tone this time.

Ian sat down in his chair again, crossing his legs. “Exactly, it’s been 4 years of you leaving me behind to go greet them fans and receive their ‘love’ and ‘support’. I can’t help thinking my love must’ve never been enough for you.”

“What the fuck are you even talking about, Ian! That’s pure bullshit. You know I love you. More than anyone else. I don’t perform to receive ‘love’. I perform because I love performing. I can’t believe you think that way about me.”

Ian shrugged and lifted an eyebrow. “Either way, my offer still stands. If you want us to continue, you should quit. I can’t have this celebrity life bullshit anymore.”

“Are you saying you’d break up with me if I don’t quit?” Aiden felt how his heart started beating fast, panicking at what he had just heard and his body going cold.

Ian stared at him for a while before saying a strong ‘yes’.

Aiden chuckled nervously as a tear rolled down his cheek. “Does this have anything to do with Joe?” He heard himself asking, not believing that he was finally mouthing his deepest, darkest thoughts of his best friend and boyfriend having something between them. He had started suspecting when they both ignored him, and now he was becoming sure when Ian told him he wanted to break up.

Ian frowned upon hearing Joe’s name and bit hard on his lip. Standing up and rushing to Aiden, he punched the other in the face hard. Aiden didn’t fall down, but a little blood did frame at the corner of his lips as he was holding onto his face, shocked at the action. When he looked at Ian, he saw the man crying, clenching his teeth, and his whole body trembling with anger.

“I hate you, you know that? I hate the person you made me become. I needed you. I needed you and you weren’t there. You’re never there. What about me? Huh? Am I not worthy of your time? Why the fuck did you not just toss me into the trash can if you wanted to be away all the freaking time then? Do you know what I did? I slept with Joe. I slept with him in our bed and I could smell your scent when I woke up the next morning with him next to me. I hate you so fucking much, I want to just tear you into shreds right now. I don’t think I’d be able to look at you again even if you actually did quit that fucking job of yours. I hate you. Leave. Don’t ever come near me again.” Ian pushed him out of the office, closed the door in his face, and locked it. Aiden just stood there, in shock from the outburst and the fact that he and his best friend both had cheated on him. He left eventually, not being able to deal with it in his current condition.

Aiden knew it was hard for Ian, but the other had never told him he hated it this much, so how could he know?

Right now, he didn’t know whether he should’ve felt angry because of the betrayal or guilty because of leading him into this, but he was sure about something. He wanted to punch Joe so badly.