Jimin came from the exhausting practice from the studio. He entered the lift. He was so stressed due to sudden revelation that the only thing calm him down is to dance. He dance for hours. But still didn’t felt any better. The guilt was consuming him. He felt like a horrible person. How could he say those words to their Jin? He was like brother to him. Knowing that his childhood was hard, they all were more attentive to him. Specially Yoongi. Jimin couldn’t help but blame himself. No one blame him but he knew he was the one who triggered Yoongi to act harshly towards Jin that day. Why didn’t he shut his mouth like others? Like Namjoon, Hoseok and Taehyung. They all were hurt but they didn’t react like he did. Yoongi was exception cause Jin and Yoongi’s relationship was like true brothers, they were there for each other in past in their hard times. But he, he didn’t have any right to say such harsh things to him. Now, his deed was hunting him. He was afraid, afraid of Jin and Yoongi not forgiving him. He remember how Yoongi looked at him harshly when the truth got reveled other day. He always seen love and care in Yoongi’s eyes for him but this time it was something different. Hatred. Yes that’s what he saw for himself in Yoongi’s eyes.
But the thing happened, there is no going back now. He has to apologize to Yoongi, Jungkook, Jin and Jungkook’s child. He knew it will be hard but he was willing to do anything for their forgiveness. He started to head to the apartment as the lift reach the floor. He was tired and wanted to sleep as soon as possible. He halt in his track when he saw the bags outside their apartment door. He felt irritated. They are really irresponsible. So he pick up the heavy bags and went inside, throwing the bags on couch he yelled at whoever left them there. Whoever would it be will now has to handle all yelling of Jimin who will possibly went out all his stress on the person.
Jimin: YAH YOU DOUCH BAGS, WHO THE HELL LEAVE THOSE BAGS OUTSIDE THE FREAKING DOOR?
Jimin yelled on top of his lungs, making sure his voice reach every corner of apartment. HE was about to throw a fit when he saw a kid, yelling and running at him. What the hell, did he enter wrong apartment. He backed a little, but the kid came running and hugged his leg tightly.
Hwanie: I finally met you Dimini.
Jimin was frozen in his spot. He has met so many sasang fans in his life but this little one seems to get further inside than those. How the hell he enter the apartment. He looked down, looking at the small figure now hanging on his right leg, and looking at him.
Jimin: Who are yo- OH MY GOD!
He knew who it is. The hell, anyone could tell who he is. Those eyes and bunny smile was so familiar to him. He stare at the bunny smile of the kid. Maybe he was dreaming. His eyes playing games with him. There is no way Jin let his son back in this place.
Hwanie: I am big fan of you Dimini.
Jimin: OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. DON’T TELL ME HE IS-
Jimin practically yelled trying to back away from kid, but the kid hugged his leg tightly, not even flinching at his sudden outburst. He is really here. In real. He was still in shock. When he saw Taehyung and Hoseok come out of the guest room.
Hoseok: Yeah. You are guessing it right.
Taehyung: He is big fan of yours Jimin. Right Cute Tae?
Jimin followed Taehyung’s gaze. He couldn’t help but coo at the now hysterically nodding kid, smiling at him. He looks so cute. He was about to pick him but the thought how he called him names in past hold him back. He didn’t deserve of his love. There was no right of his to be the fan of this cute little one. He looked at his band mates.
Jimin: B-but. How could he h-here? No one told me.
Hwanie: Can you give me your platogragh. Pleaseeeeeeeeee
They all couldn’t help but laugh at the weird word tactic of the little one. First he called Jimin, Dimini and now Platograph instead of autograph.
Tae: Its Autograph baby.
Hwanie: Yeah, that’s what tall tae said. Platograph.Pleaseeeeeeeee. Prettyyyyy pleaseeeeee
Jimin: Uhh okay.
Jimin: What are you doing?
Jimin asked the little one who now left his leg and opening the bags he has thrown earlier on couch.
Hwanie: Uncle Roni gave me your Album once. It must be somewhere here.
Taehyung helped Hwanie, not wanting him to mess all the thing in bag. He was taking everything out in excitement. While Jimin looked at Hoseok, with somewhat anger.
Jimin: Why didn’t you guys told me he is coming here? I would have bought gift or something.
Hoseok: Not our fault. You were out of reach.
Jimin sighed. Hoseok is right. He was the one who locked himself in that damned studio.
Jimin: Is J-Jin also here?
Hoseok: Yeah. He is inside with Jungkook.
Jimin: I don’t think I am ready to face him hyung. I said horrible things to him.
Hoseok: But you have to Jimin. Sooner or later, you can’t avoid it. And beside you have to think of Yoongi also. He has shut himself out. You know it’s only either you or Jin, who could handle him like that. As Jin, I am sure, he don’t want to have anything with him now.
Hwanie: Here Dimini. I will show it to Aunt Jennie. She is also fan of BVS.
Hwanie said handling Jimin their old album. Which also looked used more than enough times. Jimin looked at the little one who forcefully make himself comfortable in his lap. Giving him bunny smile. He could tell Jungkook’s son is as lively as him.
Jimin: But its old one. You want new one.
Jimin asked but Hwanie’s expression turn into sad, making Jimin frown.
Hwanie: No. Uncle Roni said we can’t afford it and appa don’t like anything related to BVS in home.
It sadden Jimin. How could Jin will like to have anything related to them after what they did to him?
Jimin: I will get you a new one. Come with me. It’s in my room.
Hwanie: HeHe Aunt Jennie will be so jealous, when she will know I got two photographs.
Hwanie said with mischievous smile, while walking with Jimin, holding his hand. HE said it in low voice but they still heard it. Well their little bun could be little devil also. But it didn’t surprise them. At last he was Jungkook’s child.
(In Guest Room with Jk and Jin)
Jungkook went closer to the unconscious figure of Jin. And sit at the edge of bed.
Jungkook: I know you are awake. But please don’t open your eyes. I don’t think I would able to face eye to eye with you.
(Jungkook said in low voice. On the other hand Jin turn his body, now facing opposite side of Jungkook. Now Jungkook was facing the back of Jin)
Jungkook: (Sob) It must have hurt right? The b-battle Scar. (Sob) I am so s-sorry Jin.(Sob) You have to go through all that because of me. (Sob)I promised you to make your life better but I (Sob) made it worst. (Sob) I am sorry. (Sob) I am sorry. (sob) I didn’t meant to shove you like that in front of the crowd. (sob)I really didn’t meant to. (Sob) But I was blinded by rage. (Sob)I am sorry Jin. (Sob) I am sorry for breaking our promises. (Sob) I am sorry for causing you pain. (Sob)I wasn’t thinking straight. I am sorry. (Sob) I am sorry for calling Tae-Hwan names. (Sob) I am sorry for doing all those horrible things to you. (Sob) I am sorry. (Sob) I am sorry (sob) I am sorry.
(Jungkook cried holding Jin’s thin legs. Jin could feel the tears on his skin but he could care less. His heart is numb due to all the suffering. Those apologize meant nothing to him now.)
Jungkook: I don’t know how to compensate you now. (Sob) I am sorry. (Sob) I feel really horrible person Jin. (sob) I feel like monster. (Sob) I regret the moment I shoved you in front of crowd that day. (Sob) I (Deep breath) went back to take you away from there, b-but I was late. (Sob) You were already gone. (Sob)I lost you that day. (Sob) But I lost myself also. (Sob) I searched for you whole year but I didn’t find you. (sob) I searched every place you could have gone, (sob) but there was no sign of you. (Sob) I know, me telling you all these things, don’t hold meaning now. (sob) But please. Please Jinnie. (sob) Just this once. (Sob)Please give me a chance. (Sob) I promise I won’t let you down this time. (Sob)Please Jinnie, please.
Jin: You have lost the right to call my by that name Mr. Jeon.(Jin said in cold voice still not facing Jungkook)
Jungkook: Please. Just this once. Please. (Sob) I am ready to do anything, but please give me a chance. Please for Hwanie. For you. Please.
Jin: Just help my son Mr. Jeon. We don’t need anything. And I am sure you and your close ones don’t want whore like me and my son close to you.
Jungkook: I am sorry please.(Sob) You are not that. (Sob) You are the purest Jin. (Sob) You can beat me, punch me. Anything but please give me a chance please-please.
(Jungkook cried hysterically. He feel a moment from Jin. He looked up. Jin was now sitting in bed, looking at him with cold gaze. Which shows nothing but hatred towards him. Those eyes which once filled with life now seems empty for Jungkook, making him crying more.)
Jin: Your sorry doesn’t mean anything to me Mr. Jeon. My heart has experience worst. Your cries and pleading won’t be able to soften this harden heart. The damage has done and it’s beyond repair. The Jin, you asking a chance for, is dead years ago. You want to know what happened to your Jin and his son when you throw us out like a garbage. You want to know how your Jin turn into this Jin, who is now standing on the verge of death along with his son.
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