“Yah Kim Y/N! Stop or I’ll kill you!”
Yuri shouted to a guy that could be seen running away from her.
It was a cozy night at the very Han River. A place where loads of couple are having the time of their life.
As for Yuri, she seems to be having the time
of her life as well. Going out on a date with his lovely boyfriend, Kim Y/N.
“Catch me if you can, hamster!” Y/N said to Yuri in a playful tone while still running away from her.
“Aish I don’t care! I’m not gonna chase you. This hamster is exhausted you know” Yuri whined as she stops herself from chasing that guy.
Being aware of it, Y/N then turns his head just to see his adorable girlfriend is already with her hands on her knees. Being a soft hearted man he is, Y/N then walks towards Yuri and wraps his hand around her shoulder.
“Aigoo, my poor hamster. Sorry for making you tired” Y/N said to her in a cute tone while softly rubbing her cheeck.
“Sorry ain’t enough, oppa” Yuri replied while still trying to catch her breath.
“What? What am I supposed to do then?” Y/N replied in confusion then starts to think. “Ohh I have an idea” he added.
Y/N then starts to piggyback his girlfriend. Yuri, who’s exhausted after all those running thingy couldn’t resist and just let her boyfriend piggyback her.
“Aish oppa-” Yuri said while giggling to him before being cut.
“Shh, shut up and just enjoy the ride” Y/N said to her.
Y/N then starts walking slowly with Yuri being carried on his back like a toddler who’s being tired after playing all day long.
The weather was so friendly, not as cold as usual. Well, it’s a summer night afterall.
“Oppa, aren’t you hungry?” Yuri asked to him cutely.
“Hungry? It’s been a while I don’t feel that kind of thing” Y/N replied.
“Mwo? What kind of nonsense is that?” Yuri then respond in confusion, followed by Y/N who could only chuckle at her.
“If I’m being hungry, I know you’ll be ordering that favourite pizza of yours with pineapple on top of it just like everytime, eww” Y/N teased his girlfriend while rolling his eyes.
“What?” Yuri replied in disbelief. “Oppa, you must be having some kind of sense malfunction then. Pineapple on pizza is literally a chef’s kiss” she added.
“I’m sorry Yuri-ya. As a half Italian, I couldn’t let my ancestors cry in despair” Y/N said to Yuri proudly, trying to be a patriotic hero.
“Hmm okay… What about pas-” Yuri said but then again being cut by Y/N.
“No. You should never break pasta into two”
“Aigoo, okay okay I understand, Mr. Italian” Yuri smiled then said it to him.
“Besides, seafood is better in every way” Y/N said to her.
“Ani! Those smells are horrible oppa stop it” Yuri replied to him then proceeds to give him a pout.
Y/N couldn’t help but to laugh at her. “Now I got you back, Yuri-ya”
“Aish oppa~” Yuri whined and covered her face in Y/N’s back who’s still piggybacking her.
He laughs at Yuri’s action then stops walking. “Yah, come down Yuri-ya. You’re not tired anymore are you? Let’s just walk. I may be young but my body feels like a 60 year old man trying to piggyback his grandchildren”
Yuri then steps down as Y/N let her. The two then start to walk normally while still enjoying the cozy atmosphere around Han River.
They talk about a lot of things. They reminisce about the time when they were still friends. How Y/N who was a staff in Mnet had a crush on Yuri when she was still an IZ*ONE member.
Who would’ve thought that Yuri did share the mutual feelings towards him. It literally took only 3 seconds for them to fell in love. Love at first sight seems to be a drama stuff that became real for both of them.
Yuri also tells him lots of stories. How she had to go through IZ*ONE’s disbandment, how she’s now busy with her life as a soloist, and many things.
Y/N mostly only listens to what Yuri said. But, being a cute couple they are, they sometimes do tease each other.
After walking for quite some time, Y/N decided to buy some snack as he spots an ice cream truck nearby.
“Yuri-ya, remember the ice cream we bought when we first had a date here?” Y/N asked Yuri which followed with a nod from her.
“There it is” Y/N pointed at the ice cream truck. “Let’s go get some!”
“Sure oppa let’s go!” Yuri replied in excitement.
The two then walk towards the truck and buy two pieces of ice cream. Yuri got a cotton candy flavor and Y/N got himself a vanilla one.
Having one of her favourite ice cream, Yuri enjoys her cotton candy flavored ice cream with all her heart. While for Y/N, he can only smile, looking at his girlfriend proudly as she’s enjoying her cotton candy.
“Omo, it still tastes the same. This is undoubtedly the best cotton candy I’ve ever had in my entire life!” Yuri said to Y/N in full of excitement and a big bright smile.
“I know right?” Y/N replied to her with a smile while patting her head softly, making Yuri smiles even wider.
“It was summer night as well oppa” Yuri said.
“What?” Y/N replied.
“It was summer night. The very first time we had a date at this very place, as well with this mouth-watering cotton candy” she says to him in excitement.
“Ah yea, summer night…” Y/N replied to her in quite a flat tone.
Noticing this, Yuri then asks him “Oppa, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing, Yuri-ya. Let’s search someplace where we can sit while eating this” he replied and offered Yuri.
“Mmh, ne oppa” Yuri nodded in agreement as they walk towards the nearest bench.
After they sat, they enjoy their ice cream peacefully, until Y/N suddenly asks Yuri.
“Yuri-ya. Have you ever felt something like loneliness?”
“Hmm?” she paused a bit. “Y-yea I did feel that kind of thing sometimes. W-why you asked though?” Yuri answered worriedly.
“I did have friends even though it’s not that much, I also had you as my lovely girlfriend. It’s just… Sometimes I did feel lonely for no reason. Everything around me, the world just felt like it was moving so fast” Y/N started to explain even though Yuri just seems to be catching nothing from it.
“I-I actually don’t really understand what you just said, oppa. Besides, why are you saying such gloomy stuffs all of a sudden?” Yuri replied to him with her being quite confused.
“Nothing, Yuri-ya. It’s just…” Y/N said to her but suddenly being cut.
“And that ‘had’ me as your girlfriend. What do you mean by that? I’m still your girlfriend and you still have me oppa!” Yuri started to raise her tone a bit, making Y/N looks at her eyes suddenly.
“I-I… Yuri-ya. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have ruined the mood” Y/N apologized as he look down on the ground.
Yuri on the other hand realizes that she might be cruel to him cause she raised her voice and almost shout at him. Yuri then wraps her left hand around Y/N’s shoulder to comfort him.
Y/N looks at her, only to see her sparkling eyes that starts to get teary a bit. He then raises his head and starts to hug her. They then hug each other one-handed since their other hand still holding the ice cream.
Y/N then let go of Yuri. The remaining ice cream seems to be melted away already due to them hugging each other for quite some time. Y/N then takes out his phone from his pocket and puts his AirPods in his left ear. He then puts the other one to Yuri’s right ear.
“Yuri-ya. Sorry for ruining the mood, let’s just sing some of our favourite songs” Y/N said to Yuri while throwing a smile towards her.
Yuri could only giggle at Y/N. She then nods in agreement. “Sure, oppa. What are we gonna sing?”
“What about… Let’s start with your song Lovable” Y/N offered.
“Great choice, oppa!” Yuri replied in excitement and couldn’t hide her smile.
The two then start to listening and singing to some songs. They also decided to sing some of IZ*ONE best songs such as Airplane and Panorama. When Panorama intro kicks in, Y/N couldn’t resist his excitement and starts to jump out of his seat.
“Shoot take a Panorama!” Y/N shouted as he dancing and vibing to the song, making Yuri totally laughs in excitement while clapping her hands.
Both of them then decided to walk while listening to the song. As they walk across the beauty scenery of Han River, some ballad and RnB songs playing in the background.
“This song is just perfect to listen to while we’re having this kind of atmosphere” Yuri said to him softly as she breathes the fresh night air of Han River.
“I know right? God bless Yerin Baek for making a song such as I am not your ocean anymore. The lyrics might be sad but the instrumental is just ahh” Y/N replied to Yuri while he’s looking up to the sky.
Yuri could only giggle at Y/N as they continue to walk.
After couple of minutes of walking, they decided to sit somewhere near the edge of the river. Singing session is over and they just stare at the beauty scenery in front of them. The night is so quiet as they could hear some insects singing in the background.
Y/N grabs and rubs Yuri’s hand gently.
“I’m sorry, Yuri-ya” he said to her softly.
“For what, oppa?” Yuri replied to him.
“It was my decision” he said while staring deeply at Yuri’s eyes.
“I-I don’t understand…” Yuri answered as she’s being confused.
“I didn’t mean to leave you behind all alone. It’s just, I couldn’t handle anything back then” he started to explain. Yuri who’s staring into his eyes still trying to process what his boyfriend actually trying to say.
“Don’t you remember? I’m dead Yuri-ya. I committed suicide” Y/N said.
Yuri’s eyes starts to widened up. She immediately let go of Y/N’s hand and starts to freak out. She covered her mouth with her hand in a total disbelief.
“O-oh my God! Y-you’re… you’re right. How come I just remembered?” she replied to him in a total shock.
Yuri then starts to walk away from him only to fall down on her knees. She starts sobbing, realizing what his boyfriend just told him.
Looking at his girlfriend drowning in tears, Y/N slowly approaches her and tries to comfort her as much as he can.
“Yuri-ya… Please don’t cry. It always hurts me to see you like this” Y/N tries to comfort her as he’s gently rubbing her shoulder.
“S-so… Am I… A-am I dreaming right now?” Yuri tries her best to hold her tears.
“You are, Yuri-ya. This is the only way we could ever meet each other” he answered.
Yuri still trying to control her emotions. For all she knows she was just having a perfect date at Han River with her lovely boyfriend, until the moment Y/N snaps her out to realize that she’s dreaming right now.
“O-oppa…” Yuri called him weakly.
“Yes?” he replied.
“Why did you do it?” she asked him. “Why did you commit suicide and left me alone? Why oppa why?” Yuri added while punching his chest repeatedly.
“I’m… so sorry Yuri-ya” he said to her weakly, not defending himself from Yuri’s punch.
“Was it all because of me? You know that I always blame myself from everything oppa. I always blame myself for not being there when you needed me, I wasn’t good enough for you and I couldn’t protect you from what happened” Yuri said to him as she starts to cry again and resting her head on Y/N’s chest.
Y/N hugs her. “Ani Yuri-ya. It’s not your fault. I’m so sorry for everything. It was never your fault that I decided to left everything behind” he said while rubbing her head as gentle as he can.
“Like I said before. I had friends and you as my girlfriend. It’s just there was something that always haunted me inside. There was something that pushed me to the cliff of despair and made me decided to do it” Y/N continues explaining.
“What is it oppa? Were your friends being harsh to you? Were there people who bullied you?” Yuri asked.
“No it’s not Yuri-ya. People were good to me and I had no enemies. It’s just the moment when my parents decided to divorce, I felt like I literally lost everything. They were my home, my family, my role model and everything. The moment they decided separate ways, I just couldn’t handle everything back then” Y/N explained as he slowly rubs Yuri’s cheeck.
Yuri could only stare at Y/N, still with a teary eyes as she tries to stop herself from crying.
“It’s not your fault, so I beg you to stop blaming youself” Y/N assured her.
Yuri then let go of Y/N as she backs off from Y/N a few steps. She closes her eyes but seems like she’s forcing it.
“Yuri-ya, what are you doing?” Y/N asked.
“Shut up, I’m trying to remember everything so I won’t forget it when I wake up” Yuri said still with her eyes closed.
Y/N let out a sigh and smiles. “You won’t remember any of it. It’s a dream afterall, no need to push yourself too hard”
“I know, that’s why I’m trying now!” Yuri replied in a higher tone.
Y/N just gives her a soft smile. He let her be, doing her best to remember eveything that’s happened.
“It was summer night” Y/N suddenly said to Yuri.
Yuri who heard it suddenly opens her eyes and look at Y/N in confusion.
“What is it?” she asked him.
“It was summer night, when everything happened. I could hear insects singing in the background just like now” Y/N asnwered.
Yuri could only stare at him in silence, not knowing what to say.
“Yuri-ya” Y/N said as he steps closer to her until they’re face to face.
“Here we are, standing in this place. In here, we can be present to each other. No one will remember my existence here and no one will remember everything that’s happened to us. But for me, it’s totally okay. Because in here, I can see and touch you as much as I like. Here, I can talk to you as if we’re in the same world” he said to Yuri who only fall silent in front of him.
“Dreams and death are meant to be forgotten. No matter how hard you try to remember, it will only lead you to nowhere” Y/N said to Yuri as he embraces her even closer.
“We may be two worlds apart, but my love for you will remain immortal. I love you, Jo Yuri” Y/N said and hugs Yuri.
“I love you too, Kim Y/N. Thanks for being my boyfriend, and for being here, present in front of me” Yuri returns the hug, this time even tighter than before.
The two hug each other as if there’s no tomorrow. The sound of Han River gets quieter and quieter, the sound of singing insects in the background slowly fades away and everything seems to be getting darker.
Yuri, somehow could hear someone’s calling her name from distance. The sound was unclear but it gets louder and clearer as the person is calling her several times.
“Unnie… Yuri unnie!”
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“Unnie, wake up!”
A sound of a girl could be heard as a woman tries to wake Yuri up.
“Mmh, Yunhee-ya?” Yuri mumbled as she rubs her eyes, gathering the courage to get out of bed.
“Unnie wake up. Aren’t you going to the studio today? You said you’ll be recording for your next comeback today” said a girl who’s no other than Yuri’s younger sister, Jo Yunhee.
Yuri who’s still sitting on her bed then surprised and her eyes widened up suddenly. “Majjayo! What time is it?” she said as she’s searching for her phone.
Yuri then checks on her phone only to realize that it’s 8 in the morning, still got plenty of time.
“Unnie, you’re still using that picture as your lockscreen. How can you ever move on?”
Yunhee said to her sister as she notices the picture of Yuri and Y/N on their first date at Han River as the lockscreen.
Yuri let out a sigh then proceeds to put her phone down. “Move on… Is it even possible? He died because of me, literally”.
“Unnie, will you ever stop blaming yourself for everything that’s happened? Yunhee raised her voice a bit as she taps her older sister’s shoulder. “It’s been three years and y-”
Yuri pushes her sister’s hands away and shakes her head.
“But that’s just the truth Yunhee-ya! I wasn’t good enough for him, I wasn’t there when he needed me, I let him down. How is that not my fault? Tell me!” a shout came out of Yuri’s mouth as she starts losing her temper.
“U-unnie, I…” Yunhee is just too stunned to speak, hearing her older sister literally shouted at her and just leave them in an awkward silence.
“Besides, why did you have to bring up such a topic frickin early in the morning?” Yuri added.
Afraid of making the situation becomes worse, Yunhee then walks out of her sister’s room without saying a single word.
Yuri on the other hand doesn’t even say amything. She then picks up her phone once again, just to stare at her lockscreen.
She then let out a long sigh then continues to do her morning routine to start off the day.
And that’s Jo Yuri. After everything that’s happened in her dream, she barely remembered any of it. She just keeps on living, continuing her life with the thoughts of herself being the reason why her boyfriend committed suicide. She continues to live with guilt in her heart, not knowing when will she ever get over it.
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