Keep Texting Me Day 122 of Chat

(Chat with LonelyPark)

DumbLam:
Hey Park
I am sorry for not messaging you
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LonelyPark:

Finally I see a message!!
😭😭
And please tell me have I done something wrong???
Or said something I shouldn’t have??

DumbLam:
No
You definitely didn’t
It’s me, I made a mistake
Then ended up brooding about it by myself
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LonelyPark:
What happened??
Wanna share?
🥺🥺

(2 minutes later)

LonelyPark:
It’s ok if you don’t want to
Just please keep texting me!!
🥹

(1 minute later)

DumbLam:
Actually someone said I look scary
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LonelyPark:
WTF????
Who the fuck was it??
Is that person blind?
Or maybe he’s a freak!
Yes, that person must be a freak!!
Otherwise there’s no way anyone can call you scary!

DumbLam:
😂
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LonelyPark:
I am not joking this time
Really!
Don’t listen to such people Lam
There is no way you are scary!!
It’s that freak who is wrong!
You should stay away from him!

DumbLam:
But that freak is really lovely
I might not be able to stay away from him
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LonelyPark:
If he called you scary then he’s not lovely
He’s toxic!
And you should stay away from toxic people!!

DumbLam:
But I don’t think he said anything wrong by calling me scary
Because almost everyone has that first impression of me
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LonelyPark:
That just means you have been staying with toxic people

DumbLam:
No
None of my friends are toxic
And I think they are right
Sometimes I look in the mirror and can’t help finding my looks scary too
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LonelyPark:
No baby there’s no way you are scary!

DumbLam:
How can you be so sure?
You haven’t seen me
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LonelyPark:
I just know you aren’t scary
You are lovely Lam

DumbLam:
No I am not
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LonelyPark:
Yes you are lovely

DumbLam:
I am scary looking
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LonelyPark:
Nope

DumbLam:
Oh just look at this person 

What do you say now?
(Read)

LonelyPark:
That’s cheating!
You can’t use that delivery boy’s picture!

DumbLam:
Tell me is he scary?
(Read)

(1 minute later)

LonelyPark:
Yeah
But you know I am sure when he’s with his friends and when he smiles
He would look more gentle than anyone else

(2 minutes later)

DumbLam:
?
But didn’t you say he’s scary?
And you were so troubled when he came to deliver the medicines
Just because of his scary looking face
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LonelyPark:
Oh that was just dumb me with my sick-feverish brain
Honestly Lam if you wanted to give me an example
Then you should’ve used some gangster’s picture

DumbLam:
No I am not that scary
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LonelyPark:
Tell me 
Are you scared that when we’ll meet I will find you scary or ugly and won’t like you??

(1 minute later)

DumbLam:
I am not cute and lovely in real life
You might really not like me or even my personality
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LonelyPark:
So what do you say we should do?
Should we just stop talking?
Or should we continue to talk but never meet?
I got it you are scared
But for that possibility you won’t even give us a chance?

DumbLam:
It’s not like that
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LonelyPark:
It’s good to think about all possibilities
But this shouldn’t be a reason for you to back off
We aren’t lovers 
And we don’t have to start as lovers either
I want to meet you just as an online friend whom I chat with all the time

DumbLam:
But what if you don’t like the real me?
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LonelyPark:
But what if I end up falling for you so hard 
That I won’t be able to see the world as before?

DumbLam:
I like you
And it’s scary
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LonelyPark:
I know

DumbLam:
I am scared 
I feel all inferior
I feel like you might not like me
That you will stop talking with me
And then I wouldn’t know what to do anymore
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LonelyPark:
You will go back to how you were before knowing me

DumbLam:
Yes
And I wasn’t lonely 
And wasn’t unhappy before knowing you
But now it scares me that I will not be able to enjoy everything as I used to before
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LonelyPark:
I know baby 
I know
I feel the same
I also feel like if we stop talking then I’ll go back to my old life
Which I used to love
But now I will keep finding everything boring and tiring

DumbLam:
What should I do?
I want to meet you
But also don’t
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LonelyPark:
Then let’s not meet for now
We should forget about it till the day you are able to share your pictures
Till you are able to call me
When we’ll be able to video call all night without you covering your camera
Perhaps then our worries would be nothing in front of the desire to see you
To feel you and hold your hand
I am sure the day we’ll meet I will hold your hand
All fingers crossed

DumbLam:
But what if we end up hating each other before we even meet?
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LonelyPark:
Then we weren’t meant to be

DumbLam:
Can you wait for me?
Won’t you be tired and frustrated?
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LonelyPark:
It’s more frustrating when you don’t text me

DumbLam:
I’ll keep texting you
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LonelyPark:
That’s all I want
❤️

DumbLam:
❤
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