Everyone is eating at the canteen, richie said I should bring my own food dahil baka hindi pa ako sanay sa mga kakanin at iba pang pagkain sa canteen
nag hanap ako ng bakanteng upuan, sa di kalayuan may natanaw akong isang babae na kumakain mag isa, mukhang maldita dahil nakasimangot ito
wala na talagang bakante, nakita ko rin yung dalawang babae kahapon na nakaupo sa malapit sa malaking bintana
I roam my eyes everywhere at wala dito yung freen na babae na nameet ko
“Hey bitch what are you doing? are you lost or something?” maarteng tanong ng babaeng maldita, sa kakalakad ko nasa harap ko na pala sya
mukha nga akong tanga dahil sa pag oobserba sa lahat
“Can I join you here?”
she nodded
Umupo ako sa bangko at inilabas ang pagkain ko
*thud
I almost drop my lunchbox when this girl infront of me slam her hand on the table
“Fuck I don’t even like they’re food.”
“are you new here?” I ask her
she looked at me while frowning
I took a deep breath
bakit ba napaka highblood ng babaeng toh
“Yeah, my mom forced me to study here, she loves punishing me I hate her.”
ohh so she’s not living here?
hmm
“I’m becca..” I raise my hand
“I’m Irin..”
for the first time may tumanggap ng kamay ko
“we can share food if you want, I’m new here too but for me this place are not punishment, I love this place..”
her mood enlightened, I don’t know where’s the part her mood changes
“My God…” she whispered
she cupped my face and caressed my cheeks
“you’re my angel, you save me..”
napafacepalm nalang ako, Oo gusto ko ng kaibigan pero wag naman sana mental
“you’re angel?”
“hmm do you really want to be my friend?” she ask
I nodded
kaysa naman lagi akong mag isa
“then all you need to do is bring a large amount of food everyday hmm just for two.”
“Now I know, why your mom is punishing you.” Sabi ko habang umiiling
nagpuppy eyes pa sya
“Okay fine.”
“yess..”
“You don’t have any friends here?” I ask her
naghati nalang kami ng pagkain, sa totoo lang gusto kong itry lahat ng pagkain sa canteen
but I know tuwing may kakainin ako na hindi ko nakasanayang kainin ay sumasakit ang tyan ko at nag da-diarrhea
hindi naman ako maarte sadyang mapili lang sa pagkain ang tyan ko, mahilig rin naman akong kumain ng gulay
“There’s alot of students here that they want to be my friend, but I have no time to waste my time para makipag plastikan lalo nat may attitude talaga ako, sa totoo lang ayoko sa tao..”
“hays kabaliktaran naman ang sakin, ako yung nag aaproach pero mukhang ayaw nila sakin.”
“wehh sa ganda mong yan?”
I chuckled
“pakiramdam ko nga ayaw nila sakin.”
“hmm magaan ka naman kasama compare sakin..” she said
nalaman kong umuwi ang mama nya dito sa probinsya at isinama sya dahil sa naadik syang makipag party sa mga kaibigan at laging may nakakaaway sa school
kung hindi daw sya magpapakabait dito, ay dito na sya mag ka-college
sayang at hindi kami magkaklase dalawa
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ng matapos na kaming kumain, hinanap ko na yung babae kahapon, mukhang mabait naman yun, tahimik lang
umakyat ako sa 4th floor at hinanap sya, hindi ko alam kung bakit off limits tong floor dahil maayos naman ang mga rooms dito
I found her at the corner at nag sisigarilyo nanaman sya, hays akala siguro nya magandang tingnan sa babae ang naninigarilyo
“Freen..”
napatalon sya at humarap sakin
“hindi kapa ba papasok baka ma-late ka..”
“pwede ba wag mo kong kakausapin.” inis na tugon nya na ikinagulat ko
“huh?.”
“Tss.”
inupot nya ang sigarilyo sa semento at ibinalot sa papel at ipinasok sa bag nya
she walk fast and she accidentally hit my shoulder kaya napaatras ako
“freen sandali..”
hinabol ko sya pero pag liko ko wala na sya
“Hmppp.”
someone cover my mouth and pulled me inside the room, hindi ba lock ang isang toh?
I noticed the hand and I findout that it was freen
she push me to sat on the chair
“Freen?”
“You should stay away from me..” she whispered
gamit ang sling bag nya itinali nya ang mga kamay ko sa likod ng upuan
“What are you doing?” takot na tanong ko
my soul almost left my body when she sniff my hair down to my ear
“I hate you..” she whispered
and she sniff down to my neck and she buried her face in my neck
she’s giving me goosebumps
“freen you should stop this..” naiiyak nako
she stayed too long and the heat of her breath transferring in my body slowly
I looked at my watch at 15 mins na kaming late sa next class namin
Tumayo sya ng tuwid bigla
yung suot nya kahapon halos pareho lang ngayon
“Let me go..” galit na sabi ko
she chuckled
“sorry pero late nako..” she said
Okay lang naman sakin kahit hindi na nila ako pansinin, wag lang ganito
papalabas na sana sya ng pinto ng sumigaw ako
“HELPP..”
nag tiim bagang syang tumingin sakin
“Isusumbong kita kay papa, this is bullying..” nag pumiglas ako sa bangko at ang higpit ng pagkatali nya sakin
lumapit sya sakin at inopen ang bag ko, she took my scarf in my bag
“I’m not afraid of him.” she said firmly
“Freen stop this..” makaawa ko
but still
she used my scarf to cover my mouth
“you forced me to do this..”
“Hmmm.”
“Babalikan kita dito maybe later hmmm or tomorrow.. Look, this is not my fault, I warned you yesterday that this floor is off limit.”
after she tied it tight naglakad na sya papuntang pinto
“Hmmmm ” piglas ko
I can feel the irritation of the skin of my arms
humarap sya sakin
“are you afraid of the dark?”
my tears kept falling in my eyes
I nodded
she smiled and push the switch to turn off the light
oh holy fuck
“Hmmm.” I scream
she get out of the room at ikinandado pa sa labas
natatakot nako ng sobra, what if there’s a ghost in here?
I lost my hope when she pass the room
2nd day palang toh
paano nalang kung tatagal pako?
I tried so hard to sleep para bumilis ang oras at mabalikan nako ni freen
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I woke up feeling so weak and my lungs feels hurt
I look at the clock, I don’t know if it still working
biglang umilaw yung phone ko sa bag I tried so hard to see it and someones calling me, it’s richie
kitang kita ko yung oras dun at magkapareha lang ng time
malapit na uwian namin
I started to cry so hard, dumidilim narin sa labas
pagod na pagod at ngalay na ang mga braso ko
I wanna go home
I heard someones walking and it gives me hope
it’s freen
“hmmmm.”
ang seryoso nya habang nag lalakad sya, thanks god she came back, she unlock the door and entered the room
lumapit sya sakin at tinanggal ang scarf sa bibig ko
“you’re cruel..” I shouted but it came out like a whisper
isinunod nya ang mga kamay ko
ughh ang sakit
dahan dahan akong tumayo
“don’t ever think to go back here if you don’t want this to happen agai-
*Slap
“ahh” she didn’t expect that
I slap her with force and her eyes ragingly filled with anger
she pushed me at nawalan ako ng balanse at bumagsak ako sa sahig
napadaing ako sa sakit, never pang may gumawa sakin nito..
lumuhod sya and she reach my face and grip her hand in my cheeks
“gusto mo bang maulit ang araw na to? hmm?” I cried “wag mo kong iyakan SAGOT.” she yelled
“Noo no *sniff “
“don’t ever slap me again.. dahil pag ako bumawi, hinding hindi mo magugustuhan, nanununtok ako ng babae..”
I nodded repeatedly
“I wanna go home..”
Tumayo sya at hinila ang braso ko
“TAYO..”
Nang maka tayo ako pinagpag nya yung damit ko sa likod
“Fix yourself and put some makeup.”
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when I got home, I run towards the dining and I saw papa
may tryout ngayon si richie kaya hindi sya nakasabay sa pag uwi
Papa is seriously reading a news paper while drinking coffee
My heart was on fire, I want to tell him everything that someone bully me but..
‘umuwi kaba dito para bigyan ako ng sakit ng ulo?’
that words stop me
paano kung malaman nya to? at maisipan nanaman akong ipaalis dito?
I took a deep breath and turned my back
umakyat nako sa taas.
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