“Freen?”
she’s wearing a white shirt again at maong pants, she looked shock when she saw me at agad din syang sumimangot
she extend her hand like telling me to gave her the basket
“You’re working here?”
she just stay silent while looking at me coldly
“Look freen, I’m sorry about what happened.. I don’t understand why richie need to do that, he shouldn’t hurt you..”
parang may dumaan na emotion sa mga mata nya pero agad ding nawala, hindi ko alam kung namamalik mata lang ba ako dahil mukhang galit sya ngayon
“akin na.. sinasayang mo oras ko.. at pwede ba, wag na wag kang mag sosorry mukhang gustong gusto mo rin naman yung ginawa ng kuya mo.”
lumapit sya sakin ng mabilis at kwinelyuhan ako
“Bakit ba galit na galit ka sa-
“TAHIMIK..” She shouted and breathing heavily
bumibigat ang pakiramdam ko at parang gusto kong umiyak, ang sama sama ng loob ko..
“Sineswelduhan ka ni papa.. dapat nga hindi ka ganito sakin.”
“Puro ka papa, akala mo ba pagkatapos ng ginawa ng kuya mo eh titigilan kita?”
she laughed and it scares me, kailangan ko na talaga syang isumbong kay papa, baka ako na talaga ang kusang aalis dito kung sakali
she took the basket and put it down
“sabi ni manang kumain kana daw ng panangha–“
she pushed me at madadapa na sana ako ng hinila nya kamay ko
“PASOK..” she exclaimed
“eh kwadra yan eh..”
dapat hinyaan ko nalang si Natalia na pumunta dito eh
pagpasok ko eh napakalinis sa loob, una nya sinirado yung pinto sa baba at sinunod yung sa taas
“Freen..”
nang humarap sya sakin napaka dilim ng tingin nya at kitang kita sa sinag ng araw na pumapasok sa maliit na siwang ng kahoy ang mga mata nya
she step forward while I’m stepping backwards
“ikaw yung lumalapit sakin, kaya kasalanan mo kung bakit nabubully kita-“
“Lumalapit? nauna ka nanaman eh inangkin mo yung art work na hindi sayo..napaka salbahe–hmp.”
she closed the distance between us and kissed me
ohh jesus! she stole my first kiss, I’m pushing her.. but her hands in my neck was so gentle and it distracting me
she’s nipping my lower lip and it sent shivers down my spine, the tender of her kisses is losing my mind
her kiss took so long and I didn’t even open my mouth everytime she want to enter
she stop and my tears drop in my cheeks
*Slap
sa lakas ng sampal ko napadaing pa sya, she approach me furiously and kiss me again but this time her kisses went down in my jaw
“You smell so good.”
“freen ano ba..” tulak ko sakanya but she’s gripping on my waist
she snif my neck at napakapit ako sa braso nya ng dilaan nya ito
she started unbottoning my croptop shirt at umaapoy ang mga tingin nya
“PAP-hmm..” she covered my mouth using her hand
She’s harassing me
she’s not just kissing me but also sucking it everytime she’s kissing it
“I saw you..” she whispered
huh?
“I enjoyed watching you that day..”
lumaki yung mga mata ko sa sinabi nya, paano? yung naligo ako sa falls?
“The rabbit you saw was mine..”
I felt her palm inside my shirt rubbing my tummy and I don’t know why it makes me feel good
is she a lesbian?
“Thank you for the nice show..”
“How dare you.. pervert iehh stop freen.”
tinutulak ko na sya ng malakas but her hand grab my chest, she grip on it tight, the warmness of her hand spread in my whole system
ipinilit nya ko sa ding ding at inakap ang bewang and her kisses went down in my chest
my tears kept running in my cheeks, this is wrong but it felt so right
she unclasped my bra and run her fingers in my nipple, she pinching it and massaging my breast repeatedly
“ahh..” shit I moaned
when I felt her tounge and lips collab in my nipple I started to cry loudly
my body is trembling
walang pang gumawa sakin nito
she covered my mouth and she suck my nipple hard too long before she stop and hide her face at the back of my ears
“Shh calm down..” she whispered in my ear
“please stop this..” I whispered begging on her
she nodded
she remove her hand in my mouth and start to fix my clothes back after
she’s wiping my tears using the back of her fingers
“shhh..” nakatiim bagang sya at mukhang gulat rin “ughh ang gago ko talaga..” matigas na sambit nya, napapikit sya
sya ang unang lumabas at sumunod ako, pagkalabas ko eh tumakbo nako agad
di ko inexpect na mangyayari yun..
__________
I’m looking outside the window and I’m watching the amazing view of the trees and mountains
“Fuck that was so hot..” Irin whispered
My God she’s not taking me seriously.. minsan talaga ang sarap nyang sabunutan
“Irin she was about to rape me if I didn’t stop her..”
“I think she’s not planning to do that, sa Hacienda nyo pa talaga baka naman gusto lang nun ng make out thingy..”
napapikit nalang ako at isinandig ang ulo sa upuan
“Bakit Okay lang sayo na ginawa nya yun? it may traumatized me..”
“Traumatized? my god becca she’s a girl for goodness sake.”
“Pareha lang yun..”
“Hindi kaya, hmm freens is pretty-handsome girl at ang swerte mo dahil hinalikan ka nya, and nakwento mo sakin yung seatmate mong si kaddie is drooling over her right? ibig sabihin marami talaga syang admirer..”
Sana dito na sya paaralin ng college ng mama nya sa probinsya at hindi na pabalikin sa manila para tumino sya napaka ano eh, bakit ko ba toh naging kaibigan
when I opened up to her earlier, she almost die asking me for more information about what freen did to me, gusto nya pa yung detailed
palibhasa sanay na sya sa ganito eh, normal nalang siguro sakanya at isa pa, babae daw si freen kaya okay lang.. haysss nakaka sira ng ulo
“OMY GOD!!” kaddie exclaimed
everybody gasps when they saw freen.. nag stop yung bus sa may kakahuyan, so sasama sya sa fieldtrip?
“Oopps ang tadhana ginagalaw yung baso..” Irin teased me
ang laki ng bagpack nya, mukhang reading ready pa sa fieldtrip namin ngayon
I remembered what she did yesterday pero wala man lang akong maramdaman na galit sakanya
pawis na pawis sya, sinalubong sya ni tee at mukhang seryoso rin ang convo nila
nag lakad si freen palapit samin at laking gulat ko ng umupo si Irin sa Uupuan dapat ni freen sa likod sa tabi ni tee, nasa last kasi kaming nakaupo tatlo
“Oh no.. I’m going to kill you..” I whispered, enough for Irin to hear me
umupo si freen sa tabi ko at inilagay ang bag sa paanan nya
“ang dami mo atang dala.” bigla nalang lumabas sa bibig ko
I waited for her answer and she just lean on her seat and didn’t answer me, she close her eyes habang habol parin ang hininga
hays..
since when I started living here, nasanay nako na iniignore lang ng mga tao at hindi pinapansin madalas pero hindi naman sila tulad ni freen na mukhang galit na galit sakin
hindi ko alam kung trip nya lang ba kong ibully baka naman kulang yung pinapasahod ni papa kaya sya ganyan, saakin binubuhos ang inis
pero impossible naman, ang sweldo nga ni manang enough na para bumuhay ng pamilya at mukhang kontento narin, si manong at iba pang kasambahay sa bahay balita ko minsan doble pa ang sinasahod ni papa pag tumatagal na
isinandig ko nalang rin ang sarili ko sa upuan at sinubukang matulog kahit na sobrang ingay ng mga classmates ko
“ang tangkad mo pala..” Irin said
Langya napadilat ako baka naman sa sobrang dada nya eh ako ang madisgrasya
freen chuckled.
I was stunned, bakit parang ang bait nya tingnan
“hindi ka namin classmate ah.” freen said
“Oo dito ako sa bus nyo sumakay nandito yung maganda kong kaibigan eh.”
langya sarap kalbuhin
“ahh but you look more beautiful than her..” freen said ng ikinatahimik naman ni Irin
hindi ba ako maganda?
I looked myself at the window feeling so down, kaya siguro ang init ng dugo sakin dahil pangit ako
lagi nalang sumasama ang loob ko dahil sakanya, she’s really good at hurting me..
I sighed heavily
biglang tumawa si Irin, parang gusto ko nalang bumaba ng bus
“Hoy mas maganda si becca compare sakin noh… wag kangang salbahe dyan minukbang mo nga yan kahapon eh.”
anak ng puta!!!
“IRIN ARUSSAYA.” sigaw ko
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