Random Kny One Shots [Requests Closed] I’m not coming home | {SaneOba}

Theme: Angst

Note: Who thinks I should start adding music w/ the oneshots :3

I hate adding trigger warnings simply because it basically spoils the whole thing, but I have to add them so, TW’s!!: implications of wanting to die/suicide

Spoilers!! (like in the next sentence)

Will take place after the Infinity Castle thing, Obanai lived, Mitsuri did not. You can choose to think of ObaMitsu as platonic or romantic, it really doesn’t matter, they were just close before. Sanemi has been helping Obanai with his mental health (and uhm failing), guess where this is going<33

Tags: @YourBestieAlorii @ImaginationsPortal @Sarah1863479 @Igur0-0banai3 @Ariadazaisimp @IgurosHottestWife (is that all?)

×××

It had been some time since the final battle and Sanemi was tired. Yes, he had been getting a lot more sleep recently than the past few years, but he was tired. Fuck, it wasn’t even because of his sleep—although he was having trouble adjusting to this new sleep schedule. But putting that aside, the reason for his tiredness was Obanai.

Obanai was… putting it nicely, not okay. Mitsuri had died in his arms after Muzan’s death, and he was in some sort of daze now, as if it would undo the damage. He ate less than he ever had—which was saying something—and he barely slept, barely moved, really. Sometimes, though, he would wander around, looking lost.

Sanemi had taken to caring for Obanai—the two had started dating, as well. It was rocky, their relationship, or just… their life. It wasn’t easy, obviously. How could it be?

Before, at least, they had distractions. Missions, patrol, their own life constantly in peril danger. But there was nothing now. It was a relief, for a lot of the survivors. It was a relief to Sanemi and Obanai, as well. But in a way, it was also worse. Made life just a dull of objects and colors, a blur in the background. It was empty, no action, no… nothing.

Sanemi didn’t necessarily mind, however. Obanai, on the other hand, was very affected by it. Horribly. And it was obvious. So obvious to the point that Tanjiro brought up the concern once, while passing by Sanemi at the market.

Sanemi assured him that he’d help as best he could, and that he already was. But it fed his worries about Obanai and he went in search for his boyfriend later, whom he hadn’t seen in a bit. He found Obanai, later, sitting absentmindedly on a hill, his katana in his hand. He was staring at it as if it held the answers of the world, his hand running over the handle to the leather sheath.

“Obanai?” Sanemi asked, confused. He quickly made his way up the hill, plopping down next to the smaller man. 

“Hm?” Obanai turned, meeting Sanemi’s eyes. The turquoise and golden eyes of Obanai’s appeared unfocused, and he looked as tired as ever. 

“What’re you doing here?” Sanemi said, frowning. He glanced down at Obanai’s lap, where his katana sat. “And why do you have that?”

“Uhm. Just thinking,” Obanai mumbled, closing his hand over the katana handle tightly. “Why?”

“You look tired and I haven’t seen you all day,” Sanemi said, sighing. He wrapped an arm around Obanai, urging him to lean against him. (does that make sense?)

Obanai shrugged. “I wanted some fresh air.”

“Ah.”

They were silent for a while. Sanemi took this opportunity to look around, finding that he could see a lot of a town below them, stretching far off into the distance. If he wasn’t mistaken, that was the town the Hashira would usually wander around in their free time. More specifically, Mitsuri, who would eat a lot in one of the restaurants there.

With that, Sanemi realized Obanai had probably been down there, most likely reminising about Mitsuri. He grumbled internally, wanting to smack himself for his stupidity. Obanai must be feeling miserable because of this.

“So… Why do you have your katana?” Sanemi asked. The past Hashira and Demon Slayers had all kept their katanas and/or uniforms if they were still in tact, given that there wasn’t any need to rid of them. But as far as Sanemi knew, most people’s katana’s were probably gathering dust somewhere in the back of their house as demon slaying hadn’t been the best of most people’s memories. 

Obanai looked away. “No reason.”

The frown on Sanemi’s face deepened. There was definitely a reason. It couldn’t only be for the purpose of remembering, could it? Although just to feel the weight of the katana was enough to trigger a lot of memories.

“Right.” Sanemi stood carefully, making sure he didn’t drop Obanai’s limp—and very light, he must add—body in the process. “When will you come back home? Tomioka’s visiting later, so you probably want to get a bit of rest first.”

“I’m not coming home,” Obanai mumbled. The words were quiet, almost unaudible. Almost.

“What?” Sanemi turned back, having been half way through heading back down.

Obanai didn’t say anything and Sanemi quickly retraced his steps back up, turning Obanai’s body to look at him.

“What do you…” His eyes drifted down to Obanai’s katana, clutched tightly in his hand. “No.”

Obanai blinked quickly, turning his face away. 

“No, Obanai, don’t you dare,” Sanemi hissed, grabbing the part of the handle protruding from Obanai’s fist.

Obanai fought back, tugging at it. “Go away, Sanemi,” he said, a sudden harshness entering his voice.

Startled, Sanemi nearly let go, but quickly regained his grip on the katana. Having been taking a lot better care of himself recently—and just generally being stronger than Obanai—he managed to take the katana from his boyfriend, gripping it tightly. 

“Do not. Obanai, you cannot leave now. You’re still young enough to have life to you, don’t you fucking dare,” Sanemi said, a burst of desperation hitting him. “I can’t… can’t lose you too.”

Their eyes met and, for a second, Obanai returned the glare. But then all the fight seemed to seep out of him and he slumped down, his hair slipping over his face. 

“I’m sorry,” Obanai whispered. “I have to.”

Sanemi shook his head. “No. No, you don’t and you won’t. Fucking hell, what have you been thinking this whole time?! We’re going back home, Obanai. C’mon,” he said with a heavy sigh, hoisting Obanai’s unhealthily light body onto his back.

Obanai’s arms clasped themself loosely onto Sanemi’s shoulders as Sanemi made a slow descent down the hill.

“You’re going to sleep now, Obanai. I will not let you die,” Sanemi said. He wouldn’t allow it.

×××

« Word count: 1086 »

My mom was in a work meeting as i wrote this and she kept giggling a whole bunch at the beginning

it was silly

anyways, sorry not sorry for watching too many angst videos

and, genuinely, sorry for the lack of posting

i’m writing a SaneGiyuu oneshot that i’m trying to get to 10k words but it’s only at like 3.8k as of when I’m writing this :’>