Random Kny One Shots [Requests Closed] Why can’t we last forever? | {YushiTama}

Theme: Angst

Note: U n s u r e  i f  t h i s  i s  a n  u n p o p u l a r  s h i p

Manga spoilersss<33 (Istg the panel of Yushiro after DKT…. *sobs*)

“Why? Why can’t we just stay away? From the demon slayers? From him? Why don’t we stay safe? Together? Why can’t we last forever?” Yushiro had asked.

“If.. we have the power within us to help others in need, we must. We can’t run away forever. We must face this now. If you want to stop, you are welcome to. But I will continue doing whatever I can to defeat him. I need to do this.” Tamayo looked at him with confident eyes. 

Yushiro smiled, then, understanding and loving her persistence. “I would never leave you, Lady Tamayo. I will help you.” 

Tamayo gave him a thankful hug. “Yushiro.. I’ll be forever grateful for everything you have done for me and with me.”

His heart beat fast in his chest at the hug. “Of course.. I’ll do anything for you. Anything.”

She smiled. “Thank you.” 

“You don’t have to thank me. I.. never want to part from you. I will be here for you forever. I’ll protect you!” Yushiro insisted. 

Tamayo became teary-eyed. “I can never express how happy I am to have you with me.”

How happy had she been? 

He’d failed to protect her.. 

Yushiro’s head spun and he clutched Tamayo’s pin in his hand. The last thing he had of her. Chachamaru slinked up to him and nuzzled his hand. Yushiro sighed and hugged him. 

“I don’t know what I’m going to do,” he murmured, burying his face in the cat’s soft fur. 

Chachamaru meowed, curling himself against the demon as if comforting him. 

“I have you, at least..” Yushiro said quietly. “I have you.”

Chachamaru agreed, bobbing his head in response. He nudged Yushiro’s hand affectionately. Yushiro smiled in a sort of bitter way. 

“I should’ve saved her,” he whispered. “Why didn’t I go instead….”

Chachamaru raised his paw and slashed at Yushiro’s hand, surprising him. “Hey-!” he said, hissing and regenerating his hand slowly.

The cat gave him what appeared to be a stern look. 

“Okay, okay,” Yushiro whined. “I won’t talk like that. But don’t scratch me!”

Chachamaru huffed and hopped off him and walked around, bored. 

Yushiro watched him, his mind racing. As much as he wanted to go through the ‘what if’s’ and the ‘why didn’t’s’, Chachamaru had a point. …If he’d actually understood. Thinking about what could’ve happened if he’d done something different really wasn’t going to change anything. As much as he wanted it to. 

He dug the heels of his hands into his eyes, wiping away the tears. He let out a heavy breath and looked back up, his eyes following Chachamaru. 

Yushiro stood and picked up the cat, cradling him in his arms. “Let’s go home when the sun goes down, okay..? I want to do something..”

~~~

Yushiro painted and painted and painted. He dipped the brush into the paints and went on, never stopping. 

And at last, hours later, he stepped back. His eyes traced the painting and tears were brought to them. He’d painted Tamayo. His love.. 

She stood there, admit flowers, beautiful purple flowers that framed her perfectly. She was perfect.

But she was gone.

Yushiro paused, his paintbrush falling to the floor. He moved closer and wrote, carefully in elegant, swoopy letters, ‘𝓛𝓪𝓭𝔂 𝓣𝓪𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓸.’

“Lady Tamayo,” he repeated softly. “I miss you. I love you.”

He wrapped his arms around himself and cried. He cried because he missed her. He cried because he wished she was with him. He cried for her and for her only, because he wished she’d been the one to last forever. 

{Word count: 619}

THIS IS SO FUCKING SHORT AND I APOLOGIZE FOR THAT FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART BUT I RAN OUT OF IDEASS… 😭😞