Royal’s POV
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Everyone was actually staring between us now. I wasn’t one to show a wide variety of emotions, but seeing him after what he did. I can’t do this.
“Royal, Royal, Royal don’t be like that. I just came to see you, since you’re in town after all. Plus we’re going to see each other tonight anyways.”
“What… what are you talking about?”
“We’re going to play each other tonight.”
“No, fuck, no. You better be joking.”
“So, what Royal I’m just playing football like everyone else. So what if I’m on the opposite team. You know I’m a senior this year? Next year I will be done with football and all this stupid, fucking high school shit,” he grabbed me and I ripped my hand out of his grasp before stumbling back a good couple of feet.
“Don’t touch me,” I was starting to panic. Memories I tried to block for, so long we’re started to flood back in. Max walked closer to me he wasn’t giving me a break.
I… I needed to get away. I needed to protect myself. I grabbed Cash’s arm and hugged onto it, tightly, placing him between me and Max. Everyone was looking between the three of us confused, but no one said a thing. Cash stood his ground in front of me and didn’t even try to move his arm or ask what was happening. I was on full panic mode I couldn’t think.
“Now come on, Royal, don’t be like that. It was that serious. You’re overreacting.”
“Overreacting,” this bitch, “you think I’m fucking OVERREACTING,” I slowly let go of Cash’s arm and pushed him aside getting into Max’s face making him back away, “YOU DON’T GET A FUCKING SAY! YOU DON’T GET TO TELL ME HOW I FUCKING FEEL YOU MOTHERFUCKER!”
“Since when do you curse, sweetcheeks?” I glared at him, “come on. How about this? I’m sorry.”
“You’re sorry,” I laughed at his words, “it’s waaaay to late to apologize.”
“Maybe we should talk somewhere? Just the two of us? I really want you back,” he grabbed my arm and I finally lost control. I punched him hard enough to hear the crack of his nose.
“YOU FUCKING LOST ME WHEN YOU FUCKING RAPED ME!” If the room wasn’t quiet before it was now. I shocked myself with that outburst, but I couldn’t stop now, “I was 14. 14! You knew everything about me, you were my rock, and you used all my trust against me. Do you even know how long I was out of commission because of you and those FUCKING friends of yours. You were..,” tears were streaming, but I kept going, “you were my first boyfriend and I loved you and you took all of that and you used me like I was a fucking toy.”
“Come on, I said I was sorry. Let’s just talk somewhere else, please.”
I laughed through my tears, “No, no, no, I’m never going anywhere with you EVER again. Now,” I crouched to be at level, “get the fuck out of my face before I’m not as fucking pleasant.”
“Try me? You may think that your all grown up and tough now, but I will always control you.”
“No, you don’t. Guess what I’ve got some pretty badass friends who would just love to destroy you. So, I suggest you listen to me,” with that I stood up and started to walk away.
“You know, I tried to be civil about this ‘baby’ you’re going to regret this. You and your shiny new boyfriend,” he knew. How the fuck did he know.
“Only thing I regret is ever meeting you. GET THE FUCK OUT!”
With that he walked away and I walked into the separate bedroom before closing the door and collapsing. I knew I was going to have to explain to them eventually. Just… just not now.
“Royal,” Cash’s voice came through the door, “you okay?” There was a pause, “I know we’re not friends or anything, but no one deserves what that asshole did to you.”
With shaky hands I pulled out my phone. There were messages from the team and coach from when we disappeared last night, but I didn’t care about that. I went to my contacts and called someone who could help no matter what.
The phone rang until a gruff voice answered, “I need your help. Please.”
“What do you want? We haven’t talked in months I was beginning to think you forget about me.”
“It’s Max. He’s back.”
“…sigh”
“And I just made a stupid, stupid decision and got people I care about in trouble.”
“Relax, I’ll deal with it. Now, I’m sure you have to explain to these people some things, so go on.”
With that the phone call ended and I was left in silence again. I promised never to use my father’s connections and I’m not going to, if I can help it. Standing up and putting on my usual face I walked out.
“Why is everyone, so uptight. I have someone watching that bitch so, all we need to do is go play a game,” they all had a look of pity on their faces, “bus people the game starts soon.”
“Royal,” Marcus was the first to speak.
“No, your an asshole continue acting like an asshole. This happened two years ago don’t pity me now. Bus.”
With that I walked out of the room and kept my head held high; although, I was dying on the inside. I need to keep everything in control. I need to. Max wouldn’t do anything abruptly he’s not that stupid. He’ll wait until the perfect opportunity to destroy me without harming him pops up. I just have to make sure that doesn’t happen.
My train of thought was interrupted when I was silently pulled from everyone else to a secluded area, “you okay?”
“Yes.”
“That was I lie. Talk to me, please.”
“I meant what I said, Cash, it happened two years ago. If I talk about it all the feelings that came from it are just going to come back… worse.”
“I won’t make you, but just remember the only way for you to heal is to admit you’re broken.”
“I know,” I pulled him by the shirt and kissed him, “I just can’t right now. Let’s talk about this more when we get home.”
“Okay,” I started to walk away, but he grabbed me by the wrist and kissed me hard. Wrapping my hands around his neck, while he held my waist and wrist we stayed there for a couple seconds.
Neither of us saw the flash of a camera.
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