[ Y/n’s Point of View ]
“Ah, comrade there you are!”
A cheerful voice that came from Tartaglia who is making his way towards me with a smile in his face and i can’t help but be roll my eyes.
“Ah for the love of our Archon why must you always be the one who loves standing in a cliff like this” said by him while hugging himself shivering from the cold, Ah, well certainly he does have a point for i am one among many who stands in the edge of the cliff where the blizzard is stronger at this point.
“State your purpose, why were you searching for me, and don’t even mention fighting i am in no mood for such.”
“Ouch the blizzard is as cold as you are well, you see… Judging from your face just a moment ago, it seemed like you were going through some sort of traumatizing events even Her Majesty The Queen had to raise her voice in order to catch your attention.”
He exclaims as he gets closer to me trying to warm up due to my Pyro Delusion as i am capable of emitting heat, so in other words that makes me more sort of a live-heater.
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Was i zoning out that much.. i thought for a moment.
“I was just full of thoughts caught by the sudden turn of events.”
“Ah, well don’t be so down comrade, if you’re that so upset, then how about a warm up will do–” He punches his palm with his other hand curled into a fist then he suddenly sneeze due to the cold out here.
“Must you always find me every single time just to challenge me out of nowhere. Tartaglia, not even today even if i was crippled you would just come uttering the same most frustrating repeated dialogue for no particular reason.”
I hiss at him, clearly showing dissatisfaction, this battle maniac every single time does loves to invite me into an endless energy draining activity, not only that he adds the most even more frustrating pain-in-the-ass, every after the time the Doctor finishes his torturous experiment.
He sighs while chuckling nervously noticing his hand caressing the back of his head before speaking.
“I just thought that, you’d be more at loose if you let it all out in fighting, ah nevermind that, i had something else to give you of which, i nearly forgot” he finished and rummages through beneath his pocket taking something out and reaches towards me.
“I know you and Signora are close, but bear with me and don’t put all the blame in Traveler- i mean its not like in my opinion as if she could kill, here take it, it’s hers.”
He hands, me a vision whose familiarity certainly belongs to Signora.
“Where did you get this?” I ask him confused.
“Ah well.. i happened to have been assigned as a replacement after Balladeer’s disappearance in Inazuma, by coincidence i al–”
I cut him off taking him by the collar in a grunt.
“Who was it.” I grit my teeth, uttering the words deeply, even he could notice the burning thoughts in my eyes.
“Now calm down, even i..”
“Don’t speak as if you know nothing of sort, I won’t ask twice Ajax, who was it that took her life.” I hiss at him noticing that his eyes narrowing as i address him by his real name, no one ever could though i would somewhat use it in a threatening way.
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The tension between us rising for every exchanged glance we made he opens his mouth only to close it again, both if his hand already roused in defeat. And worse everything that reminds me of the events that took place recall the very bitter memory i burried long ago. He looks at me concerned or somewhat puzzled at my sudden shift of mood clearly i was as depressed awhile ago.
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“Comrade–”
“Lady Y/n, the Tsaritsa requests your presence”
Both of us were cut by a Fatui agent that came out of nowhere out in this tall mountain, both our attention darting at him who in turn is clearly nervous.
“Apologize, am i bothering something.” The agent questions meekly.
I sigh softly letting Tartaglia go by the collar and fixes myself noticing him do the same while scratching his nape.
“No, but excuse us you may go remind Her Grace that I’ll be there in a minute.”
“Apologize, Her Majesty requests that you must go as possible.”
He adds cutting me off from my glares towards Childe who is in a puppy like situation before my very gaze. Why does she want to request me too soon its not even by dawn yet even the sun hasn’t risen…
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“Very well, I’ll let you off this time, i will find the reason myself.” I declare shooting him a glare one last time before i turn walking away, followed by the fatui agent behind me.
“Aha, Comrade! Don’t forget Fight me once you’re at it!” He shouts from a distance waving at me.
I shake my head. Now walking towards the Zapolyarny Palace.
The cold wind gusts in my way as i do, thanks to my Pyro delusion.. granted by the Tsaritsa herself i am not as much affected by the blizzard out here somehow, except for the poor Fatui agent who is shivering behind me, i stop and turn dismissing him as i do and continues to walk on my own.
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If it wasn’t for her then i would never made it long . . . My hand reaches out to my shoulder front where my Pyro Delusion is tied while the other one tied in my waist, despite hanging there i never once used it after i had the latter.. well except wasting my never ending lifespan with this Delusion.
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| Flash back |
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I groan , finding myself kneeling before the cold floor beneath me, my body shivering from the cold, everything around me is made of ice, i can’t help but feel threatened in this unfamiliar territory, not to mention i was taken here after being patched up from the so called lab of that madman.
Urgh…Â Everything so painful, my muscle throbbing at every movement i motion, the pain in my chest is still as fresh despite a few been has passed after all the jeopardy.
“Rise.”
I catch a cold toned voice right before me, i didn’t notice at first as it seems i was too absorbed at my own pain, i glance up noticing a pale skinned individual, her elegancy can be noticed in a way as she shifted her legs in a crossing position. There sits The Tsaritsa herself. The one who that madman have been mentioning to me about, i couldn’t care less when she was the one who requested me in and thanks to her i could take one day break from his madness.
“Its been long since I’ve always wanted to meet you up this close, Y/n”
She says, musing at me, her eyes piercing me as if an icepick itself struck me.
Did she just mention ‘a long time’ as if she knew me from the day i was born? And even my name. I narrow my eyes at her balancing myself from the ground with one knee while my other free hand lays in comforting the pain in my chest, slowly i force myself to stand despite the painful sensation never even once leaving her gaze.
“It seems you are doing well, still alive from this point, i must admit that Zandik do have a talent of sort aside from his own cruel methods.” . .
“I.. i never asked to be saved not even once nor do i ever knew you, so.. Why?” I question her, with the silence that followed after a second pass she stands, from her throne walking towards me, slow and deliberate.
“It is understandable you would question me, after all.. why not? Its not a common tale for a deity to simply take in a dying mortal and nurse them back to life.”
She takes one step closer.
“As much as you are curious to know, i cannot give you the answer. May fate be the one that guides you to what you seek.”
I lock my gaze at hers as she is about just 2 feet away standing before me but i couldn’t help but ponder for whatever she meant, ‘fate’ how ridiculous.
It isn’t that long when i abandoned living but.. clearly I can’t just accept my end where things are unclear.
I cannot forgive her. Ever.
“Your eyes shows that you have a desire to burn, do you not?” Her sharp voice snaps me out of my thoughts again putting my attention towards her only to come realizing that her palm lays on the bareness of my shoulder and it felt as if i was drowned down the freezing pond. Immediately i pull away, and i couldn’t help but notice a tinge of disappointment, perhaps dissatisfaction in my part or was it simply just my own delusion?
“I am to make you an offer, something that you cannot refuse.”
“What could there be possibly for me to desire of.”
I scoff while knowing very, very damn well that im walking on a thin ice. One wrong move and I’m frozen for eternity. Oh surprise, I’m alive. Twice.
Without any more seconds she reaches her hand out to me but in a way so elegance as if expecting me to kiss it, wait, hold on. What?
“Will you serve me as your one and stand besides me.”
“I refuse.”
“I clearly stated that you cannot refuse.”
“And i don’t see why i should accept either.” I bite back, and that is sure that i snapped one nerve from the moment one twitch escaped her eyes.
“You are by the same the rumors tells, even after witnessing the bittersome harshness of the world your ambition in your eyes do not wear away. I’ll give you that.” She exclaims but then suddenly i notice a slight grin on her part only for while then she switches from a neutral expression and turns.
“Then if i cannot convey you through kindness of by far i know, then.” She pauses before again turning to face me her eyes slowly began glowing.
“I shall by means give you a reason of through sheer force alone.” She adds. And those words sent a shiver down my spine, not because i was intimidated but because i couldn’t help but notice how slowly the room starts to get colder and colder and again, colder.
I shiver, gritting through my teeth, my muscles are weak performing a heat-up activity is to be proven futile although it is only the retort I’d always plan specially during winter. Tsk–
“Are you threatening me to death, ridiculous, you might as well do it as fast as possible I’ve been killed once and i do not see a reason why i should fight you.” I hiss.
“If you want a reason that badly, then how about this, i shall see how long can you stand this if ever.. just take my hand and the warmth is yours..”
She reaches her hand out to me noticing an object in her palm glowing in amber. A vision, a pyro vision. I stare at it bewildered.
“Oh, do not be mistaken, this is not an ordinary vision, and you can keep what you currently have. I’m sure i do not need to explain myself further when you’ve already witnessed the capability of it from one of my subordinates.”
Again she takes one step closer the temperature in the room, began dropping lower and lower that my knees began to involuntary shake falling on the ground, the tips of my toes starting to freeze and my breaths getting shortier.
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Urgh… I cannot feel my legs anymore i can’t even turn back and look my body cant move only my hands and head are so. I force my mouth to open to say a word.
“Must you test your resilient to this extent, not even my patience can keep up with such persistence.”
“I… Only serve one god, and too until today.”
“Even though, that abandoned you not to mention..”
“No.” I growl cutting her off. And slowly. Rising my hands to her.
“The person whom i served isn’t the same from who killed me.. i..” i couldn’t finish my sentence my throat began freezing even my mouth isn’t opening anymore so does my consciousness beginning to fade away, no i cannot give up here.. i haven’t even fufilled one last duty.. Makoto. I have to find who ever killed her.
“Your eyes speaks the desire otherwise…” She leans in to me despite my vison so blury i could tell she is as close as approximately.
“Then you shall take this, in the honor of my old companion you shall burn away the old world for me”
“I won’t ask you for your loyalty, from now on, you now belong to me in no exception.”
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| PRESENT |
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And so that concludes how i got this extra i call Delusion, after being taken in bleeding from the battle ground.
Only to have both my freedom shackled down this device where it chains me, even if i attempt to break it proves futile, i find myself relying on it again and over again, bound by the cold shackles relied on its source of heat, fighting to survive in a den that have imprisoned me, as for a life i have never once wished for and to the wrath and hatred boiling within me both mixing in one burning desire.
‘Burn away the old world for me‘
Those words were the ones why i moved my hands reaching out to her without any proper thoughts even today i couldn’t think of why, perhaps was my rationality stripped from the brink of freezing to death?
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[ To be continued ]
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