Their batch mates decided to held a reunion party for them. Heejin is feeling anxious, she don’t know if Hyunjin is going but she expecting her to come. She wants to see her even just for a second. She want to make sure she’s doing good.
“Heej” Chaewon called making Heejin look at her. Chaewon points the door using her lips and Heejin turn towards where Chaewon is pointing and her heart sank. The pain she’s feeling right now is immeasurable.
She watch as Hyunjin enters the VIP room with Soojin. She’s holding Soojin by her waist with so much care. She used to hold Heejin like that.
They greeted the newcomers and they all went silent when they realized that Heejin and Hyunjin are exes.
Jiwoo started a conversation to lift up the mood a bit and Yerim joined her.
Hyunjin let out a small smile and pull a chair for her girl, Soojin and not Heejin anymore. Hyunjin felt someone is staring at her and quickly found who is it. It’s the person who used to be her four leaf clover.
Hyunjin smiled at her and Heejin can’t do anything but to just smile back. Hyunjin changed so much, Heejin thought. From her appearance to her attitude. She look more mature now, her facial features are sharper now, her smile… her smile used to be bright but now it’s brighter, her eyes… it’s still Heejin’s favorite and just like her smile, her eyes shines brighter now.
“You want some water?” Heejin heard Hyunjin asked Soojin. The girl nodded and Hyunjin excused herself to get water for Soojin. She’s so lucky, Heejin bitterly smile.
Hyunjin got back to their table and give Soojin a subtle kiss on her head before handing the bottle of water to her.
Soojin is eating pasta and Hyunjin gently ties her hair. Heejin remember those times that Hyunjin used to do that to her.
It hurts so much. It really do. And all Heejin do is to smile through the pain.
“Hyunjin, I heard you’re studying medicine now?” Haseul look at Hyunjin, oh how much she missed the younger.
“Oh yeah” Hyunjin said with a smile.
“I thought you wanted to be an engineer?” Yeji asked
She wanted to be an engineer coz Heejin wants to be an architect.
“I realized that engineering wasn’t really for me” Hyunjin said
“After what happened to Soojin, I realized that want to help people to cure their diseases” Hyunjin said with a wide smile and put her hand on top of Soojin’s. Her batch mates let out some noises and they resume talking about their current lives.
The party ended with Heejin and Hyunjin not uttering a word to each other. Heejin exited the hotel and Hyunjin look at her.
“Go on” Soojin said
“I know you want to talk to her” she added and cup Hyunjin’s face.
“And I know you two need that, go on, bub” she smile at Hyunjin and quickly peck Hyunjin’s lips.
“I’ll go ahead to our condo, hmm?” Hyunjin nodded and waited for Soojin to leave before going to Heejin.
“Heejin?” she calls and Heejin turn around to face her.
“Let’s talk?”
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They’re at the basketball court they used to hangout. One of their favorite places. A place where their happy and sad memories live.
“How are you?” Hyunjin asked while they sat on a bench.
“I’m a mess, Hyun. I’m a mess” Heejin said and burry her face on her palm.
“I thought I can do it without you beside me” her eyes starts to sweat and she look up to the sky to prevent her tears from falling.
“And I was right, Hyunjin. I can do it without you beside me. I am now Architect Jeon Heejin” Heejin said and chuckles.
“I’m proud of you, Heejin” Hyunjin said with a smile plastered on her face.
“But I feel so empty, Hyun” Heejin said and a tear escaped her right eye.
“I feel so fucking empty” Heejin wipe her tears away and force a smile.
“When you left, you took all my happiness with you” Heejin laughs but it didn’t sound happy at all.
“There’s no day that I don’t miss you” Heejin’s eyes met Hyunjin’s and fuck, she want to cry so bad.
“Let it out” Hyunjin said, wearing a comforting smile. Heejin’s shoulders dropped as well as her tears. Hyunjin pulled her into a hug.
Heejin move closer to Hyunjin’s embrace and after years, she finally feel at home. Hyunjin is her home.
“I’m sorry” Hyunjin apologizes
“Why are you saying sorry?” Heejin asked
“I’m the one who made the decision, Hyun. I’m the one who’s sorry” Heejin said and sobbed. Hyunjin pulls her closer and let the girl cry on her chest.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t hold onto you much longer, Heejin” Hyunjin said and Heejin cry harder.
“I tried” Hyunjin sighs
“I tried, I promise” she whispers to the girl in her arms.
“But one day I just woke up and it’s not you who my heart is shouting for anymore” that line broke Heejin once again. Hyunjin blink her eyes several times to prevent her tears from falling.
“I’m sorry” she apologized again.
“I’m sorry I let go of you” she tried holding in her tears but her tears betrayed her.
“Hyunjin…… I missed you” Heejin looks at Hyunjin and gently caresses her face.
“I still love you, Kim Hyunjin” she confessed
“Heejin, I’m sorry” Hyunjin said but Heejin just smiled.
“Why are you being sorry? Don’t be sorry, Hyunjin” Heejin said and rest her head on Hyunjin’s shoulder.
She’s with Hyunjin… and she feel so full. There was never a dull day with Hyunjin. It’s sad that she have to go back to empty days again after this.
“Hyun” Heejin calls
“Yes, Heej?” Hyunjin responded and Heejin cup her face gently. They look at each other eye to eye.
“Are you happy?” Heejin asked and Hyunjin smile.
“So so much” the younger answered
“I’m glad to hear that, Aeongie” Heejin smile, but this time, it’s real.
“I want you to be happy too, Heekki” Hyunjin held Heejin’s hand that is touching her cheeks.
“I will, Hyun, now that I know that you are” Heejin said and hugs Hyunjin.
“Can you walk me home?” she asked and Hyunjin nods.
They’re walking to Heejin’s house, the same street, the same neighbourhood, the same person but not the same feelings anymore.
Heejin have her eyes on the girl she loves the most, she wish that the time will stop so she can hold Hyunjin longer, but she knows that she have to let go of her. She have to let go of her yellow, her happiness.
“Thank you for being my yellow, Hyunjin, and for the last time, I love you”
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