Toni P.O.V.
I awoke to find Janet clinging to me. I couldn’t move, her grip was so tight. In the night I heard her whimpering and talking in her sleep. Her chest was rising and falling rapidly. She was never like this. I figured she had had a bad dream. I rubbed her thigh and she woke up with a jump, looking around the room frantically. I put my hand on her face, seeing the bewilderment in her eyes.
Toni: Are you good J? It’s just me. You were tossing and turning and talking in your sleep all night. At one point you even screamed. Are you ok?
Janet: Y-yeah I just need to freshen up. I’ll be back.
She slipped out of the bed, going into the bathroom and closing the door. I could hear her crying through the walls. It can’t just be a bad dream that’s making her so jumpy and emotional. I immediately thought the worst, that Tamar had gotten into her head the same way she got into mine. I got out of bed, taking off my silk sleeping romper at the bathroom door. I twisted the diamond knob, walking in to a cloud of steam. I could see Janet’s sexy silhouette of her naked body through the glass sliding door. I slowly opened the door, stepping into the shower. She was just standing under the water with her back turned to me, like something was weighing heavily on her mind. I wrapped my arms around her waist and she jumped. I felt her release the tension inside of her when I placed soft kisses on the back of her neck and her collarbone.
Toni: What’s troubling you lover? You’re not ok. I heard your cries.
Janet: I had a dream that I lost you forever. It was the scariest feeling and I never want to feel that again. It was so real.
Toni: All it will ever be is a dream. I will never leave you baby. You’re the other half of me.
Janet: You didn’t leave me. You were taken from me…by Tamar. She shot you and I couldn’t do anything to stop it. I watched you die with your eyes wide open, looking into mine. But the part that scares me the most is the fact that Tamar was even in it, and she was seducing me. I didn’t know how to tell you this, but I feel like I have to be honest with you as your wife.
Toni: What is it J?
Janet: I know I’ve said that I’ll never have feelings for another woman, but it’s like ever since Tamar showed up, I’ve been thinking these adulterous thoughts. They’re disgusting and I know it’s wrong, but I can’t help myself. I don’t want to hurt you and I’m not going to. I would never be able to forgive myself if I did, but she’s been on my mind. I can’t get her out of my head.
Toni: I’m glad you told me this instead of suppressing your feelings. It’s a lot to take in, but we need to be able to trust each other with everything. I trust you not to act on those thoughts and betray me. I know you could never hurt me. Now if you feel like firing Tamar is what’s best for the sake of your sanity and our marriage then I’m all for it. Whatever you want, I’m behind you 100 percent.
Janet:*sighs* I think firing her is the only way. This is going to be hard.
Toni: You don’t have to say a word babe. Let me fire her.
Janet: No, I’m the one who has the issue with her. I should go to her like a woman and do it myself, but it would be nice to have you there with me when I break it to her.
Toni: You know I’m always by your side.
I grabbed her hand, kissing it. As we made out and caressed each other’s bodies under the water, a million thoughts were running through my head. I can’t lie and say it doesn’t bother me that she’s attracted to Tamar because it does, but I’m guilty of the same. Ever since that night I almost kissed Tamar, I’ve distanced myself from Janet physically and emotionally. I feel so guilty for my impure, incestrial thoughts about my baby sister that I can’t stand the thought of touching my own wife. She deserves all of me, but part of me is with Tamar. And I think she knows it.
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After our long shower together, we made the decision to confront Tamar and fire her together. We walked down the stairs together hand in hand. Looking at Janet, I could tell she was nervous. Her hand trembled in mine. I squeezed it to reassure her, but she only gave me a half smile. We found Tamar in the kitchen, cooking a huge breakfast. She was wearing only lace red boy shorts and a cropped hoodie slightly zipped down, displaying her ample cleavage. Her oiled caramel skin glowed in the morning sun. As much as I hated to admit it, she looked sexy as hell. I can see it in her eyes that she’s a natural temptress.
Tamar: Good morning Tone, Ms. Jackson. I hope you two slept well.
Janet: Actually I didn’t. We need to talk to you about something that’s been heavy on both of our consciences.
Tamar: Is everything ok? Did I do something wrong?
Toni: Have a seat Tamar.
Her face wore a look of confusion as she sat on a barstool at the marble kitchen island. Janet and I stood on the other side ready to confront her. Janet didn’t want to hurt her feelings, but I wasn’t going to hold back. I’ve wanted her out of the house since the first day she showed up on our doorstep.
Janet: You’ve been doing a great job as our maid and we really appreciate everything you’ve done for us but-
Toni: Tamar you’re fired. Pack your shit and leave, and never come back. We don’t want to see your face again.
Janet: Tone!
Tamar: No it’s fine Janet. I was actually expecting this. I’m used to people letting me down and throwing me away like I’m not worth anything so I’ll go peacefully. I don’t have any place else to go, but I understand that you two don’t want me here. I should’ve known better than to think I would actually have a home for once.
She walked away in tears, going upstairs to pack her things. I thought she would put up a fight. I didn’t expect her to give up so easily. I know Tamar and when she wants something, she stops at nothing to get it. She wants my wife. Or me.
Janet: How could you be so heartles?! It wasn’t supposed to happen like that! She’s your sister for God’s sake, have some fucking compassion!
Toni: You wanted to fire her and we did. You know I’m starting to think you secretly want her to stay so you can fulfill your little twisted desires! I’m not lying, am I?
Janet: You’re a sad individual. I hope you get the help you need because you’re acting crazy as hell! Don’t bother sleeping in the same bed as me!
Toni: Fuck you Janet.
I sighed in anger, watching her go after Tamar. She doesn’t understand how bad it hurts to watch her chase after my sister all the time. It makes me feel so unwanted.
Tamar P.O.V.
I wiped the tears running down my face as I packed my bags. I could feel someone watching me. I turned around to see Janet standing in the doorway, rubbing her arm nervously. I scoffed, ignoring her presence and continuing to angrily throw my clothes in my bags.
Janet: I think you should know that I didn’t want it to happen like that.
Tamar: It doesn’t matter that it happened. What matters is that it happened and you wanted it to happen. Why? What did I do to you that was so wrong?
My voice cracked and I decided it was best to be silent.
Janet: Look I can’t explain it, but I can’t have you around. It’s not healthy for me or my marriage.
Tamar: I don’t understand.
Janet: You’re a threat, Tamar. I have these feelings for you that I can’t explain. I’m attracted to you in every way and I’m so ashamed of it.
Tamar: Does Toni know you feel this way?
Janet: Yes. That’s why she was so cruel and malicious.
Tamar: If my sister really loved you, she would allow you to fulfill your desires instead of forcing you to act like they don’t exist. You shouldn’t punish yourself like this Janet. You deserve to make yourself feel good, or let me do it.
I ran my hands down her body, groping my favorite parts of her. I stared into her eyes, taking her finger into my mouth and sucking it slowly. She trembled in pleasure, trying to speak but only stammering with a moan. I ran her wet finger down my body to the lining of my boy shorts. I stopped, holding her finger in place just before it reached my treasure box. I was dripping wet for her, but I wasn’t going to act on it yet. She needed to want me and come to me. She was completely speechless.
Tamar: You don’t want me gone, do you? I know that when you’re fucking the shit out of my sister, you’re really imagining it’s me. I’m not going to do anything to you that you don’t want me to do. You’re going to come to me and when you do, I’ll be ready to make your body mine.
I heard footsteps and we jumped apart just as Toni walked in.
Toni: Your uber is outside.
Tamar: Cool. Janet was just saying goodbye to me-
Janet: I don’t want to fire her!
I smirked as Toni stared at her in anger and disbelief. Janet realized what she had blurted out, but it was too late. The damage was done and I planned on causing more.
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